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'If you don't want to come, It's fine. PLease don't act as if i'm begging anyone to come for my convo! If you don't appreciate it, don't pretend that you care!'

i wish to appreciate their effort in trying to please me for dragging themselves to my convo. That shows they do care about my feelings. But i can't help to see that as a pity and my pride doesn't allow me to feel glad about that.

Ok! Enough about that. Better stop before i think further more.

I went to a national conference on thursday. It's at the Empire. I must say, it's a very precious experience for me. I'm very impressed by Asia Inc Forum group who organized the whole event. The talks were very informative, though 1 or 2 of them didn't manage to keep me interested for long. The food was lovely! I remembered to capture a few shots of the food, just to share them with the old ladies.

Our Appetizer - Crab and Prawn Mango Salad

Half-eaten multi-grains bread

Our main course - Nori & Cashew NutCrusted Chicken Breast

I love the appetizer. It's super-delicious. Actually there's supposed to be dessert as well. For some reasons, our table was not served with the dessert. Oh well, i'm not a dessert person anyway. By the time we found out that other tables had had their desserts, it was too late to request for it too. Oh yeah! That's also my first time entering the Empire Theatre. I like the seat, it was so comfortable and we're sitting on the first row, right in front of the stage and the speaker! Ken's cousin, Justin sat with me and my colleague Aslia. He's flying over to Singapore soon just to watch a concert. Cool yeah! I've also got other stuffs from the conference - since i'm one of the first 100th person for registration, i've got a book with the title 'The Hot Topic: What We Can Do About Global Warming' by Walker and King. That's one of the main reasons why i registered early last time. The other reason being the early bird's price ($250 for early birds but $295 for normal registration). I also bought a tree and a 2009 calendar made with recycled paper on that day. I'm thinking to give the calendar to Dr Edwards when he's back from his leave. Hope he'll like it. The calendar consists of lots of pictures. Maybe i'll post some of the nice pictures up here when i'm not lazy. Those pictures were taken for a photography contest in ISB.

Me, Aslia and Justin in the Empire Theatre

The book

A reusable bag as a one of the door gifts (inside: programmes, introduction of speakers, a pen, a small note pad, a sticker of tips to save water and electricity, also a table calendar of Year 2009)

My name tag without the plastic holder (plastic holder was returned to the people for reusing)

The calendar i've bought

It's really amazing to see a large group of people (professionals, students, academic staffs, government and non-goverment staffs) come together and work towards one goal, that is Go Green, making a cleaner and brighter future.

COmpare to them, i'm a lot more selfish. A lot of people consider saving the world environment now for our future generation. But come to think of it, i'm saving it for myself and the people i love now. Because i don't want to live in a horrible environment in the future. I still have like at least 40 to 50 years to live (i think) on this earth. Of course i must try to make it stay clean and in good condition. Because as i turn old, my immune system will become weak and my body will be a lot less fitter than now; i'll be more susceptible to sickness and any natural disasters. And should i decide to have children next time, the environment i live in is going to affect my baby, especially during pregnancy. As for future generation, well, they should have more ability, knowledge and more technologies to protect the earth than the current generation, if the kids these days really learn what is taught to them in school. We learn about conservation quite late in our study but i think these days, even primary schools include environmental stuffs in their syllabus or ECA.

Oh Yeah! LAstly, i want to show off cute post-it-notes i've bought recently..

cute right?

Update! Update!

Selamat Hari Raya to all~
i spent the first two days of Raya counting days. I took my paid leave on the wednesday (wrong move!) so when i woke up on Thursday, it was a bit disappointing to know i still have 4 more sit-around-and-do-nothing days to bear. And one thing, i actually felt guilty for taking the leave. I wasn't sick or what. I bet the reason of i'm taking leave because everyone else is taking is not valid enough for myself. Oh well, what done is done.

I feel a bit bad that i missed house-visiting with the old ladies. There are always clashes, clashed with my time with dear, clashed with the time my mom's out so i have to stay at home. Despite the fact that i've only managed to go to less than a handful of open house, i still suffer from food stagnation 'mentally'. I feel the need to cleanse my digestive tract haha!

Thanks Lizzy for the last comment. By now, i've accepted the fact that my mom won't be coming for my convo. I didn't want to make it compulsory for her to come. Haih.. i'm afraid i still haven't got over it completely. I hate to think that all my hardworks and efforts are not appreciated by my closed ones. Sometimes, i feel that i'm the odd one among my family. It's really hard to make them understand my opinions. For the past few weeks, i've been feeling inferior most of the time because my feeling has been neglected for a couple of times, continuously. I really thought that i am being treated unfairly by my mom. Eventually, i concluded that there must be something wrong with my own communication skills and perhaps, my personality too.
And i realized, a lot of things never change. Like, the way i get mad, my attitude with my family and hence, i have no doubt that this kind of thing will happen again and again in the future.

Yeah, the past few weeks, it was like hell for me, which is why i didn't update much here. Feel like my life is miserable, like i never get what i want. I even went to the extreme, thinking that i'm abandoned by the world. One evident that i have poor communication with my family is that, none of them know how i felt in the past few weeks. I never succeed in sharing my downs with them and they seem to never understand my ups. Gosh! I have strong desire to feel pampered now!

WHen i was young, i always had this idea that when i grow up and earn lots of money, i'll do lots of good deeds, like give offerings to people, particularly give pocket money to a few elders in my family. But now, when the time has come, as in i started working, i realized it's hard to fulfill those dreams. It's always easier to spend money as a kid. At my age now, i'm restricted by my own needs and responsibilities. Helping others become less easy. Or maybe it's me who has become too self-centred?? Hmm..

These days i'm slowly getting the hang of my job. That's good because i get to see more benefits of those tests. But that also means i spend more time doing the analysis because i start to question more than i did when i first started the work. Hm.. i'll consider that as a sign of improvement. Hehe.