My arms and legs feel heavy now. I swam for 1 hour just now at the swimming pool in Tutong. It was my first time going there, after hearing so many negative comments. I decided to try it out myself so i went there with fook and my mom. Actually, i suspected that my mom went there to keep an eye on us because she didn't swim, just sitting there watching around and playing PSP.
Hope my body won't be aching too badly tomorrow because we've got cleaning to do and i'm bringing the students to explore the patch of forest in the school compound.
Finally today i've got my pay slip, meaning the money will be in soon. Hoo~~ i've been spending with tight pocket this month. But i'm glad that i've cleared out my debt with my dad. The good thing is, i've learnt to budget myself more effectively now. And i'm one step closer to my goal. Feel so proud of myself when i managed to pay for all the utility bills at home.
At work, it's getting stressful for me. I'm yet to find the best way to survive with my new routine and new cycle of colleagues. Words get twisted easily so i better be careful with what i say. People only see and hear what they want to. For me, it may be just an ordinary conversation but others call it a debate. Hmm.. I'm speechless. It's confusing, i don't know who is speaking the truth. So i just tell myself to remain quiet and do my duty. After all, i go there to work, not for social life.
I don't have lots of friends these days. Most of my time is spent at work during day time and i'm at home at most nights. Friday is usually grocery shopping with family and running errands. Weekend is for dear and occasionally wity old ladies. Sometimes when i surf through facebook, i'd feel that compare to others, i don't have a life. Well, i can look at it in 2 different ways.
First, I know that i'm not good with socializing so i keep it to minimum. Plus, i enjoy being at home most of the time. This is the part of me who likes to stay within my comfort zone. Plus, my sense of humour and the way i think don't seem to be logical to certain people (which i'm so glad that dear understands me)
Secondly, i'd think, should i make a change? So i can expand my networking with people. If i'm really not good at it, i should meet more people to improve. This is the optimistic part of me who likes to take challenge.
Sometimes i'll tell myself not to think too much. Start the day with an open heart and whatever happens, it is meant to teach me something so i can become a better person. There are many worries as i go along, worries about my family, worries about my working environment and worries about money. Does $2k sound a lot to you?? I have realized now that it's nothing if i have a family to feed. So i really wonder how do some parents with 9 kids, 10 kids, 12 kids or more survive.
Anyway, worry or not, what is meant to happen, is going to happen. All i can do is make good use of what happens to me. No matter what, i believe in the plasticity in people. We can always adapt to all kinds of situations.
I really think i need exercise, because my feeling-good hormones is coming down. Oh Oh~
Gambate, WeiWei!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
Another week to go
..before school reopens.
Last week i started to work with another department, where i'll be doing servicing there. Wow! I was amazed. They are soo efficient, which i like it very much. If only i was posted there when i first joined wasan, i'd be efficient too by now, i hope. hmm.. now i believe that some people do have a right to despise colleagues who don't know much about their own duty and responsibilities. Because they themselves know their job so well that everything become so spontaneous. I wish i would be that alert and efficient one day, yet remember to have patience for the others.
These days i'm a bit frustrated at work. Things are going really slowly due to the fact that most people are on leave. Most people who i need to work with next sem. So, a lot of my work are stucked there because i can't do much without their guide and help. At the end of each day, it's like i do a lot of things but nothing is completed. That is very disturbing for me. I like to see my work done at the end of the day, not hanging in the air.
Well, i can still handle it. So nevermind. I can still finish my part, though not a complete one. That's life, i can't have things my way all the time. I just have to make sure i do my part.
Sometimes i surf through facebook and can't stop thinking, my god, it seems like i don't have a life. My life is revolving all around my work, my family and my dear. I seldom have time for partying or even hanging out with friends. Dear will always tease me for living like an elderly.
Hehe, i do admit that. Compare to most people of my age group, i am a bit too health- conscious and i think too much for the future. I almost never live at present alone. I will always make my decision based on how i picture myself in the future if i do this or that. I'm just so different from people around me, even my own siblings.
It can be quite lonely at times when no one share the same views as me. That's why i think teaching is the right job for me. My students are forced to share my knowledge hehe :p
It's getting late. Update more again next time. Take care old ladies. Goodnight
Last week i started to work with another department, where i'll be doing servicing there. Wow! I was amazed. They are soo efficient, which i like it very much. If only i was posted there when i first joined wasan, i'd be efficient too by now, i hope. hmm.. now i believe that some people do have a right to despise colleagues who don't know much about their own duty and responsibilities. Because they themselves know their job so well that everything become so spontaneous. I wish i would be that alert and efficient one day, yet remember to have patience for the others.
These days i'm a bit frustrated at work. Things are going really slowly due to the fact that most people are on leave. Most people who i need to work with next sem. So, a lot of my work are stucked there because i can't do much without their guide and help. At the end of each day, it's like i do a lot of things but nothing is completed. That is very disturbing for me. I like to see my work done at the end of the day, not hanging in the air.
Well, i can still handle it. So nevermind. I can still finish my part, though not a complete one. That's life, i can't have things my way all the time. I just have to make sure i do my part.
Sometimes i surf through facebook and can't stop thinking, my god, it seems like i don't have a life. My life is revolving all around my work, my family and my dear. I seldom have time for partying or even hanging out with friends. Dear will always tease me for living like an elderly.
Hehe, i do admit that. Compare to most people of my age group, i am a bit too health- conscious and i think too much for the future. I almost never live at present alone. I will always make my decision based on how i picture myself in the future if i do this or that. I'm just so different from people around me, even my own siblings.
It can be quite lonely at times when no one share the same views as me. That's why i think teaching is the right job for me. My students are forced to share my knowledge hehe :p
It's getting late. Update more again next time. Take care old ladies. Goodnight
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
World Ocean Day
Yes, today is the World Ocean Day and i am very lucky to be invited (actually it's Wasan school that is being invited hehe ) to witness the event. The best part of the event?? I would say it's the boat trip. For the first time, i went on board a fishing boat, the one that do trawl net fishing. It's actually meant for Geography people but well, who cares about what subjects i'm teaching. Plus, i guess some of the teachers were too sea-sick to go move from ship to speed boat. It was a nice experience. Another highlight is where they showed us the coral reef through video cam, live. It was soooo beautiful down there, with about 135 species of lifeforms. Wow! We all should be proud of our sea and give her more love.
I think i can never be a good fisherman. I feel so pity to those fishes that were caught. They even caught 2 sharks, just not big enough to get excited about. I actually had the urge to throw the fishes back into the sea :p
Oh yeah, i also love the reusable bag they gave us this time. Very nice blue, not like the one i got from the ICE 2010 at UBD. It was a black one. Black is never my choice of colours.
While we're on the boat, i had a long conversation with my HOD. He explained the situation to me and why he doesn't encourage me to do personal-tutoring for more than 2 students. There is a high chance that i will have to teach 6 subjects, ALL new to me. Plus the duty and responsibility of GC (new to me too), i don't think i still have much time to prepare efficiently for the tutorial session. Maybe i can, but it won't be my best. Maybe the students can cope with the timetable, but they will have difficulty with the workload. After the discussion, we both started to think there will be more cons than pros if we allow them to proceed while repeating the failed units. Haih... more than 1 colleague have told me, sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind.
I strongly believe that we cannot do experiment with it because it's their future. And i guess i have to give in to the fact that there's a limit to the things i can do at a time. The teaching hour for the new sem is like more than twice my teaching hour now. I'm yet to find out whether i can cope with it or not.
I'll let the academic board do the decision, since they're all experienced people. But i'll just discuss it again with my colleague this saturday. From now on, i don't want to think about it.
My face is reddish now, need to do mask later. Thanks to our beloved Mr Sun.
I am so broke this month. Haven't fully recovered from my trip to taiwan. So it's actually a good thing that my new car is yet to arrive.
I'm proud of myself today for not getting too sea-sick. Drinking cola does help.
Till here. Take care old ladies. xoxoxo
I think i can never be a good fisherman. I feel so pity to those fishes that were caught. They even caught 2 sharks, just not big enough to get excited about. I actually had the urge to throw the fishes back into the sea :p
Oh yeah, i also love the reusable bag they gave us this time. Very nice blue, not like the one i got from the ICE 2010 at UBD. It was a black one. Black is never my choice of colours.
While we're on the boat, i had a long conversation with my HOD. He explained the situation to me and why he doesn't encourage me to do personal-tutoring for more than 2 students. There is a high chance that i will have to teach 6 subjects, ALL new to me. Plus the duty and responsibility of GC (new to me too), i don't think i still have much time to prepare efficiently for the tutorial session. Maybe i can, but it won't be my best. Maybe the students can cope with the timetable, but they will have difficulty with the workload. After the discussion, we both started to think there will be more cons than pros if we allow them to proceed while repeating the failed units. Haih... more than 1 colleague have told me, sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind.
I strongly believe that we cannot do experiment with it because it's their future. And i guess i have to give in to the fact that there's a limit to the things i can do at a time. The teaching hour for the new sem is like more than twice my teaching hour now. I'm yet to find out whether i can cope with it or not.
I'll let the academic board do the decision, since they're all experienced people. But i'll just discuss it again with my colleague this saturday. From now on, i don't want to think about it.
My face is reddish now, need to do mask later. Thanks to our beloved Mr Sun.
I am so broke this month. Haven't fully recovered from my trip to taiwan. So it's actually a good thing that my new car is yet to arrive.
I'm proud of myself today for not getting too sea-sick. Drinking cola does help.
Till here. Take care old ladies. xoxoxo
Thursday, June 03, 2010
*puzzled*
I almost asked them, what type of satisfaction does making someone's life difficult bring to them?
What is fun about picking on others? I feel so sorry for new people and i'm sooo guilty for not being able to help.
A lot of times, i'm torn between speaking up and staying quiet. Speaking up means helping others but at the same time, offending some people. Staying quiet means playing safe but guilty of not defending people who are being targeted.
Haih... to make matter worse, these 'people' are people with ranking, not the type of people to be offended.
I can only do what i can think of is safe for myself yet at the same time, help the others, even if just a little help.
Is that the situation today? So much of 'me', so little of 'others'.
I always think as long as we're working in the same school, we are 'we'. Unfortunately, some prefer to categorise 'we' and 'they'.
The working environment will be a much better place if only we all have more patience for others, accept people as the way they are and less personal feelings invovled.
Holidays have started for many. I take unpaid leave on this saturday too. But i'm not in holiday mood at all. There are so much works to be done, especially next sem, i'm a group coordinator and all the subjects i'm teaching are new to me. The good news is, 2 of my subjects are taken away by another teacher. Just that, if that teacher leaves for further study, i'll have to take over the heavier one between the 2. I might still end with 15 teaching hours. Then i have also agreed to personal-tutor 4 students who need to repeat my subjects yet proceeding to year 2. Extra work for me, in other words.
I don't really mind the extra work. Just hope they can pass it this time. I was struggling yesterday, whether to recommend them to proceed or don't proceed until they have passed the subjects. It's such a great pressure to recommend for someone's future.
I must say, teachers are very important and should be wise in decision making, because we can affect someone else's future.
I hardly fall sick and now, it's been more than a week and i'm still coughing badly. But it's improving, just very slowly. I think it makes sense. I look after myself well so as a result, my body is not used to counter-attack viruses or bacteria. At least now i know which muscle groups are invovled whenever i cough.
Hm.. what should i do for this long weekend? Oh gosh! I think i have the potential to become a workaholic. I wish i could go back to work on saturday but... no lah. I better take a break, before i start my busy schedule. Plus, i still think being hardworking is an odd thing in our society. I don't want to get so much attention.
What is fun about picking on others? I feel so sorry for new people and i'm sooo guilty for not being able to help.
A lot of times, i'm torn between speaking up and staying quiet. Speaking up means helping others but at the same time, offending some people. Staying quiet means playing safe but guilty of not defending people who are being targeted.
Haih... to make matter worse, these 'people' are people with ranking, not the type of people to be offended.
I can only do what i can think of is safe for myself yet at the same time, help the others, even if just a little help.
Is that the situation today? So much of 'me', so little of 'others'.
I always think as long as we're working in the same school, we are 'we'. Unfortunately, some prefer to categorise 'we' and 'they'.
The working environment will be a much better place if only we all have more patience for others, accept people as the way they are and less personal feelings invovled.
Holidays have started for many. I take unpaid leave on this saturday too. But i'm not in holiday mood at all. There are so much works to be done, especially next sem, i'm a group coordinator and all the subjects i'm teaching are new to me. The good news is, 2 of my subjects are taken away by another teacher. Just that, if that teacher leaves for further study, i'll have to take over the heavier one between the 2. I might still end with 15 teaching hours. Then i have also agreed to personal-tutor 4 students who need to repeat my subjects yet proceeding to year 2. Extra work for me, in other words.
I don't really mind the extra work. Just hope they can pass it this time. I was struggling yesterday, whether to recommend them to proceed or don't proceed until they have passed the subjects. It's such a great pressure to recommend for someone's future.
I must say, teachers are very important and should be wise in decision making, because we can affect someone else's future.
I hardly fall sick and now, it's been more than a week and i'm still coughing badly. But it's improving, just very slowly. I think it makes sense. I look after myself well so as a result, my body is not used to counter-attack viruses or bacteria. At least now i know which muscle groups are invovled whenever i cough.
Hm.. what should i do for this long weekend? Oh gosh! I think i have the potential to become a workaholic. I wish i could go back to work on saturday but... no lah. I better take a break, before i start my busy schedule. Plus, i still think being hardworking is an odd thing in our society. I don't want to get so much attention.
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