it's been a long time...

one old lady has started to miss my post..haha...
very tired recently...even though it's semester break now..i still can't relax as i wish..have to prepare for test, presentation and essay...

talking about geography..me and tek ying were so unlucky...we're scolded by dr pangiras..for not respecting his privacy...
he told us to get the notes by 11.30...so we went there around that time..when we reached there..there are already people in his room collecting the notes..so we automatically thought it's ok to collect...when the room was left with me and tek ying..also another malay guy...that lecturer just came in and started scolding us very fiercely...he mentioned we shouldn't go in his room without his permission and what if he's left some exam questions on his table...bla bla bla..
i don't know how did that malay guy feel..but me and tek ying both feel very frustrated and unfair...we're not the first one to enter his room...and we're just misguided by other people...but when we tried to explain to that sir..he refused to listen and claimed that we're not different from the others...as if we're putting blame on others....
i feel like..my personality being questioned here...we went to his room before when he's not around..even when the light was on...we still waited outside ah...plus..the more i think about it..the more i think him, too, had fault...he's the one who said 11.30..and the notes were all arranged nicely on his table..and his door unlock..so maybe the first student who went in thought it's ok to go in...
we admit we have fault too..but i still think if anyone's to be blamed...we're the last one..

wonder what's wrong recently...we kept bumping into angry lecturers..first is dr marshall, then dr zohrah, follow by dr pangiras...and today when we tried to confirmed the time for tomorrow field trip with dr azman, he sounded annoyed too...
is there anything wrong with me and tek ying?? haih...

oh yeah..i haven't talked about my chinese new year...
this year...a very plain year for me lor..both up and down..get closer with my family...but not so sweet with dear...in fact, some problem arisen lor..but now we've settled down..

but after the chinese new year..it's like everything messed up...so stress out sometimes...but stress out still have to work ah...

recently..i realised i've been pressurising myself too much..maybe i've become more practical that way..but i also get fed-up and tired....feel like i'm being someone i'm not..
plus when i think about it now...why need to bother rich or not leh...yeah..it's true that couple always fight over finance problems..but..who can guarantee when both are financially stable, there won't be problem..for me..when both are independent..the chance for divorcy will be higher lah...and..what i really want is a husband who loves and pampers me ah...that's all..rich or not...i hold high position or not...not so important lor..
funny oh..when i feel very exhausted..i'll think back what am i working hard for...and when i recalled what i originally had wanted...it's so simple..and if i go with that direction..my life will much simpler and happier too...less worries..less options...
so..now i'm going to stick with my own ambition...no matter if it's silly or not...what's wrong with being a housewife?? so now i really think i've made the right decision for giving up biomed..hehe..

terribly exhausted

mimi complained that we didn't update our journal...as if she's always updating hers..:P

if anyone ask me how's my chinese new year..it's still the same answer..tiring~
i'm so tired now...don't think i'm stress out lah..not that bad..yet!
sometimes i really feel like sitting down and cry...i'm so annoyed because i can't get fully rested..
haih...don't want to talk about it lah..makes me feel worse...

better worry about things i need to finish before semester break....i was too lazy..so now i have to race with time...how am i not going to be tired?? i deserve it anyway..

i bought one shirt...again :P

hehe...yeah...i bought my 17th shirt and a pair of sneakers...hehehe...what to do...i got defeated by the design and the price...

i think i'm bad...i like to see people fall asleep in class during lecture time...because that keeps me awake...weird eh me...

i just reached home a few minutes ago..tired...so don't think i'll do any work except relaxing...
hm..nothing much to talk about...time for tv...and shower also...

i'm not that excited about chinese new year lah...hmm...

my weekend

at FOS got strangers ah..for me lah...because i don't know a lot of people there...like..sometimes a lot of the names you mentioned to me...most of them i don't know...but i think i'm not too bad lah...i make sure i smile or at least give a nod or wave whenever i see someone i know...exchanging role kua me and lizzy...last time i can walked passed few classrooms and every class there's people i know...but now...no more lor...but lizzy has become so popular now..know almost everyone...hehe...but i'm comfortable with myself now lor...although fewer friends, i have more time for myself and my family and also my study..of course..myself including my dear lah hehe :P

i'm going to miss my dear badly...but..erm..the worst time has passed (i hope)...i'd been very sad for the past few days..but now..erm..fed-up of that liau..he's just going to be away for 5 days...and in those 5 days..i can do a lot of things which i normally neglect..such as...allow myself to sleep till late...go to bk udal...organized my notes and stuffs...just now when we met..he said something to me just before he left...till now..when i recall back what he said...i still can't stop the tears oh...so touched...but i'm not going to say what he said...want to keep it between me and him...hehee....he's so sweet...and the best thing is..when i asked him to repeat after a while..he said he's not sure what he said liau..because the words just came out unconsciously..hehe..
if i ever said my dear is not romantic..i take back that comment..:P

i think the reason why i bought so many outfits this year is because the clothes this year are those i like...sexy and bright..most of my new outfits are bright pink, red and bright blue...not going for manicure and pedicure this year...spent all my money on outfits...tomorrow i'm going shopping again...i think i'm affected by lizzy...remember you said that young girls like us should use sport shoes with skirt?? hehe..let's hope i won't spend too much..
the birds' nest is expensive kah?? i thought it's buy 1 free 3 oh...i'm going to drink the first bottle tonight..hehe...it so happen that no one in my family likes the taste..because one of its ingredients is ginseng...hehe..i don't really like the taste either...but..for the sake of my skin..i'll still finish all of them...hehe...

oh yeah..the field trip...i love it..it's sooooooo fun...i'm glad that we chose to follow dr charles...according to yu herng..the other groups didn't go into the forest...i bet that's why they're faster than us..and cleaner than us of course...i really like to go through those networks of roots...and i think i'm good at it..because i didn't fall...didn't cut myself or whatsoever...just..2 small bruises on my leg and that's all...and i love the water village...we arrived there at the right time...and thank god that yesterday the sun wasn't too bright...so..the atmosphere was sooo perfect for me...and i can't stop saying that i'm going to buy one house there..or build...and spend my holidays there few times a year...but not living there lah..still will worry about the sanitation there... but even the fishy smell in the air attacted me...and another reason i like that place is..eveyone knows everyone..their houses are near...erm...badangsanak...and people there always bermucang mucang...hehe...i still remember some of the stuffs from MIB...because ..they're so so true and meaningful...
and..i also like to sit on the roots and talk...it's so shady and cool there...with the birds singing around..
that was a great experience...a lot more interesting than the zoo...because i've never been so close to the nature...

i'm not in the mood to study lah...but..the due date for resource study essay is getting nearer...exactly 20 days to go...i better push myself to start as soon as possible..but...i always think that..i'll do that after the holiday of chinese new year..hehe...lazy me..

first post of this month

today is the 2nd and it's the erm..let me count...29th month anniversary for me and my dear..and as usual...he doesn't make it a big deal and me...forgetting it till last minute..hehe..we don't take month anniversary seriously..except for the first few months...that was...2 years plus back...

i found that tek ying is very good at detecting people's change of mood..she can always tell whether a person has got annoyed or black-faced...i almost never notice this kind of things..unless it's very obvious...

wah..compare to lizzy...i'm so so free...because we're allowed to choose the date for presentations so...none of my presentations and essay due dates clash with each other...
yup..this semester..except for the first week..till now..it's quite relaxing comparing to last semester...but i prefer the last one....although busy..we had everything packed together..so no big gap in between...and we got to end the day by 4...the latest by 5...not like now...sometimes the gap is so big i have to think of going somewhere else...so..i'm not tired because of school work..rather..i'm tired because i go around too much..:P hehe..

i'm always exhausted on wednesday...because i almost never sleep early on sunday night..which end up having insufficient sleep on monday morning...then the big gap between lectures on monday makes me tired...and the next day tuesday, it's full day....until 6...by the time i reach home after 5 o'clock lecture..the last thing i want to do is assignments..but...students have no choice but to finish it...so by the time wednesday comes...i'm terribly worn out...but i'm lucky..because there'll be a lot of times like tomorrow..which i'll only have one lecture on that day and it's not early in the morning...in fact..if i manage my time well..there's no reason for me to be ill-prepared for any classes...

chinese new year is coming in exactly one week time..and haih...i need to go to school on the 4th day...although very reluctant..i don't think it's appropriate to request for a change..celebrating chinese nw year is just not a strong enough excuse for me...plus saturday is already the 4th day...and..since my dear won't be around by that time...and some of my friends too...so i might as well go to school...

human geo gives me pressures...i'm pressurised by that lecturer i think...he's actually a good lecturer...but..he's demanding at the same time...

if it wasn't for the lecture on saturday morning with dr zohrah..i really wish that i could go with dr azman to the fisheries...field trip is always more tempting than lecture right??

i think i'm quite shy..ehhh don't roll your eyes people...i mean it...these days i feel very uncomfortable or self-conscious when there's any stranger around...even if i was just walking past them...but the stranger here refers to male only....erm...strange...