one old lady has started to miss my post..haha...
very tired recently...even though it's semester break now..i still can't relax as i wish..have to prepare for test, presentation and essay...
talking about geography..me and tek ying were so unlucky...we're scolded by dr pangiras..for not respecting his privacy...
he told us to get the notes by 11.30...so we went there around that time..when we reached there..there are already people in his room collecting the notes..so we automatically thought it's ok to collect...when the room was left with me and tek ying..also another malay guy...that lecturer just came in and started scolding us very fiercely...he mentioned we shouldn't go in his room without his permission and what if he's left some exam questions on his table...bla bla bla..
i don't know how did that malay guy feel..but me and tek ying both feel very frustrated and unfair...we're not the first one to enter his room...and we're just misguided by other people...but when we tried to explain to that sir..he refused to listen and claimed that we're not different from the others...as if we're putting blame on others....
i feel like..my personality being questioned here...we went to his room before when he's not around..even when the light was on...we still waited outside ah...plus..the more i think about it..the more i think him, too, had fault...he's the one who said 11.30..and the notes were all arranged nicely on his table..and his door unlock..so maybe the first student who went in thought it's ok to go in...
we admit we have fault too..but i still think if anyone's to be blamed...we're the last one..
wonder what's wrong recently...we kept bumping into angry lecturers..first is dr marshall, then dr zohrah, follow by dr pangiras...and today when we tried to confirmed the time for tomorrow field trip with dr azman, he sounded annoyed too...
is there anything wrong with me and tek ying?? haih...
oh yeah..i haven't talked about my chinese new year...
this year...a very plain year for me lor..both up and down..get closer with my family...but not so sweet with dear...in fact, some problem arisen lor..but now we've settled down..
but after the chinese new year..it's like everything messed up...so stress out sometimes...but stress out still have to work ah...
recently..i realised i've been pressurising myself too much..maybe i've become more practical that way..but i also get fed-up and tired....feel like i'm being someone i'm not..
plus when i think about it now...why need to bother rich or not leh...yeah..it's true that couple always fight over finance problems..but..who can guarantee when both are financially stable, there won't be problem..for me..when both are independent..the chance for divorcy will be higher lah...and..what i really want is a husband who loves and pampers me ah...that's all..rich or not...i hold high position or not...not so important lor..
funny oh..when i feel very exhausted..i'll think back what am i working hard for...and when i recalled what i originally had wanted...it's so simple..and if i go with that direction..my life will much simpler and happier too...less worries..less options...
so..now i'm going to stick with my own ambition...no matter if it's silly or not...what's wrong with being a housewife?? so now i really think i've made the right decision for giving up biomed..hehe..
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