i've just managed to make myself move for the revision...but all i did is..organizing my notes and stuffs...hehe..that's always my first step of revising..or maybe second..the first thing i do when i want to revise is..sleep and rest...i never forget what Mrs Chong advised to us for the PMB..sleep well and eat well...i consider that as a golden advise...suit me so well..hehe :p
after reading one of my friend's blog...there's no doubt that he's deeply in love with the girl..and he's lonely and suffering there..without the girl...to him...she should've done or said something more...but..i wish i could bear to tell him that..what i get from his blog is..he's thinking all about himself...all he said is how he feels..and how the girl made him feel...i feel like asking him..has he tried to take a walk in the girl's shoe?
he always reminds me of someone...so fragile as a guy...it's like they can break apart by just few words you say...yet they always request for the cruel anwers...
are they really that vulnerable or are we blinded by our own sympathy??
one day i might run away from home...when i feel like i've reached my maximum capacity to carry more stress or responsibilities..
i'm always wondering...am i too selfish too unwilling to share the problems in this house?
i think..when compare...i rather remain like this..than becoming too family-attached...
i don't know..i really think it's a bless in disguise when ty failed to proceed with her biomed...i overheard the other day that she was telling one of her kb friends that she finds it very intolerable not to go home for more than 2 weeks...not only her...i think her elder sis too...from what i heard from ty...her elder sis is having a hard time in UQ...
i mean...for poeple like lizzy..i'll never worry that you'll suddenly quit your programme just because of homesick...people like us...never fail to find some ways to enjoy ourselves...and..with or without our family around us...we can still go on...probably that's why we're not as close as ty with her family...hehe..everything has both good and bad sides...
but next time if i have kids..i won't want them to be too attach to me or the family eh...especially boy...
feel like..back to my childhood..when just now before my uncle left..he kissed me on my forehead...last time i used to think i've wasted my childhood with staying at home all the time with books...now..i know my childhood is not wasted....even staying at home..with doeramon..did shape up who i am today...and also...my interactions with family...
later my niece is coming..heehe..that devil...:p
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Sunday, April 24, 2005
miss me??? :p i hope no
it's been almost 1 month since the last time i updated here...
been busy and stress out...er...can't really say i was stress out though...because i still enjoy my life...because no matter how busy or tired i was..i still tried my best to finish every assignment and test..although the grade for my genetic report is not so encouraging...i still feel accomplished..because i know i've learnt something new...
even though i said i don't..i still judge myself by my grade sometimes...i still will compare my grade with others'...but..i think i like my way...i compare to know whether i have done good enough...since i never take that to heart..i mean..after comparing..i'll just remember whether i should work harder next time...not who to beat next time...it's always tiring to compare myself with others...but too bad..it's so difficult for me not to do that when comes to appearances...the way a person thinks is always affected by her confidence yeah..
i've read few people's posts...i realised mimi's post the most relaxing and cheerful one to read..
hehe
for the past few weeks..although i didn't update..a lot of things had been running in my mind...and i've changed in some of the things which i've been insisted for so long...it's so easy to give up on something old when you got something new...human nature too??
i believe..stop loving a person is also a way to love that person...if loving him will burden or bother him...how true can your love be?? love a person only when your love cheers up his life..give up your love when it becomes a nightmare to that person...if..knowing he's bothered by your 'love'..yet you still keep telling him that you can't stop loving him...then you're not loving him..you're just in love with the image you created for yourself...
time is one of the best cure...for everything...it heals wounds...even for the mind...if people ever tell me that they can't forget about the pain someone has brought to them...i'll rather believe they're the one who refuse to get heal...
from all the things we return to God..complaints and whines are the majority among them...and also the most true one...read that in the newspaper today...i like it..it's soo true...
for the first time..i realized..i'm not longer expecting any good or bad future for my love life...because i have included him in my future planning...so it's not longer something i'm waiting..it has become something i'm working towards to...
the price to pay for being intelligent..is you'll be in dilemma most of the time...from the same newspaper too..hehe..
all the best lizzy....life has been harsh on you...but...learn to enjoy it..even that's the worst moment in your life...
i don't like what my dad is doing to us...but i have to thank him...really...because he's helped me to learn a lot of things...including those ugly facts....he teaches me that..life won't always be smooth for me..if i'm only seeing the damage he's done to this family...i'll become cynical one day....remember what we learn in physics from mr chu? for every action, there's a reaction....similarly..for every action...there's a reason...i don't know the reason why he's doing that...just like..he probably can't understand why we can't love him like before...if i don't lie to myself..i'll say that..no matter what he's doing...he still tries to give us what he can offer...in his way...but..it's us..it's me who refuse to take it...
sometimes i'll say something which i never thought i'd be saying...something like..
the reason why that feeling of tiredness exists..is to remind us not to forget to let ourselves take a break...
i'm like most of the girls..who like to question their bf..about why their bf love them...but i think...the best answer for that is no reason...because most girls are good at imaging things...if you tell me you love me because i'm such and such person...i'll probably be worrying what if one day i've lost those qualities...hehe..
it's not wrong to be nice to the opposite gender...but the key is..don't let them think they're the most special one....i mean..have to let them know..if the same thing happen to another close friend..you'll do the same thing too...i really feel like to tell lizzy not to be nice to any guy without a convincing enough reason...it's hard to do that though...and..i guess...i shouldn't be the one telling you that...because..take the initiative to be extremely nice to a guy...which..you've never been that nice or not as nice as that..to another guy...well..that's how me and my dear got started...we got close..we shared every little secrets...we did anything for each other just to make the other person happy...almost like the things lizzy and swait zin did...the only difference here is...we end up loving each other...together at the right time...and we're sensible enough to keep the feelings inside us...until we're sure about the other's feeling...(er...sounds a bit..erm..like bluffing?? )
haha...crapz...it is so easy to comment on other people...and difficult to admit my own mistakes, see my own flaws....but that's a good thing for me...because it shows..i'm just an ordinary human...
being look down by other people is awful...but that probably suits me...i'm just one lazy girl..who wish to do what i enjoy doing...it's a bit..or more than a bit...naive...but...i like to challenge what other people consider as hard or tough...just to show i'm different from anyone..perhaps..
been busy and stress out...er...can't really say i was stress out though...because i still enjoy my life...because no matter how busy or tired i was..i still tried my best to finish every assignment and test..although the grade for my genetic report is not so encouraging...i still feel accomplished..because i know i've learnt something new...
even though i said i don't..i still judge myself by my grade sometimes...i still will compare my grade with others'...but..i think i like my way...i compare to know whether i have done good enough...since i never take that to heart..i mean..after comparing..i'll just remember whether i should work harder next time...not who to beat next time...it's always tiring to compare myself with others...but too bad..it's so difficult for me not to do that when comes to appearances...the way a person thinks is always affected by her confidence yeah..
i've read few people's posts...i realised mimi's post the most relaxing and cheerful one to read..
hehe
for the past few weeks..although i didn't update..a lot of things had been running in my mind...and i've changed in some of the things which i've been insisted for so long...it's so easy to give up on something old when you got something new...human nature too??
i believe..stop loving a person is also a way to love that person...if loving him will burden or bother him...how true can your love be?? love a person only when your love cheers up his life..give up your love when it becomes a nightmare to that person...if..knowing he's bothered by your 'love'..yet you still keep telling him that you can't stop loving him...then you're not loving him..you're just in love with the image you created for yourself...
time is one of the best cure...for everything...it heals wounds...even for the mind...if people ever tell me that they can't forget about the pain someone has brought to them...i'll rather believe they're the one who refuse to get heal...
from all the things we return to God..complaints and whines are the majority among them...and also the most true one...read that in the newspaper today...i like it..it's soo true...
for the first time..i realized..i'm not longer expecting any good or bad future for my love life...because i have included him in my future planning...so it's not longer something i'm waiting..it has become something i'm working towards to...
the price to pay for being intelligent..is you'll be in dilemma most of the time...from the same newspaper too..hehe..
all the best lizzy....life has been harsh on you...but...learn to enjoy it..even that's the worst moment in your life...
i don't like what my dad is doing to us...but i have to thank him...really...because he's helped me to learn a lot of things...including those ugly facts....he teaches me that..life won't always be smooth for me..if i'm only seeing the damage he's done to this family...i'll become cynical one day....remember what we learn in physics from mr chu? for every action, there's a reaction....similarly..for every action...there's a reason...i don't know the reason why he's doing that...just like..he probably can't understand why we can't love him like before...if i don't lie to myself..i'll say that..no matter what he's doing...he still tries to give us what he can offer...in his way...but..it's us..it's me who refuse to take it...
sometimes i'll say something which i never thought i'd be saying...something like..
the reason why that feeling of tiredness exists..is to remind us not to forget to let ourselves take a break...
i'm like most of the girls..who like to question their bf..about why their bf love them...but i think...the best answer for that is no reason...because most girls are good at imaging things...if you tell me you love me because i'm such and such person...i'll probably be worrying what if one day i've lost those qualities...hehe..
it's not wrong to be nice to the opposite gender...but the key is..don't let them think they're the most special one....i mean..have to let them know..if the same thing happen to another close friend..you'll do the same thing too...i really feel like to tell lizzy not to be nice to any guy without a convincing enough reason...it's hard to do that though...and..i guess...i shouldn't be the one telling you that...because..take the initiative to be extremely nice to a guy...which..you've never been that nice or not as nice as that..to another guy...well..that's how me and my dear got started...we got close..we shared every little secrets...we did anything for each other just to make the other person happy...almost like the things lizzy and swait zin did...the only difference here is...we end up loving each other...together at the right time...and we're sensible enough to keep the feelings inside us...until we're sure about the other's feeling...(er...sounds a bit..erm..like bluffing?? )
haha...crapz...it is so easy to comment on other people...and difficult to admit my own mistakes, see my own flaws....but that's a good thing for me...because it shows..i'm just an ordinary human...
being look down by other people is awful...but that probably suits me...i'm just one lazy girl..who wish to do what i enjoy doing...it's a bit..or more than a bit...naive...but...i like to challenge what other people consider as hard or tough...just to show i'm different from anyone..perhaps..
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
no title
seems like everyone's having fun last saturday night...hmm...i feel proud of myself secretly..because it's my idea haha...
i had fun too lah..especially on the way back...feel so nice to talk and joke with you all...and the food...erm..not as nice as what i'd expected...but when a big group sitting down and eat together..everything is nice lah..
from that night outing..i learnt one thing...inviting my uncle...wait..don't want this uncle eh...inviting khai hau to come is my biggest mistake...remind me not to do that again eh...i still feel disgusting when i thought of his touching touching...urrghhh
i like the answer to that question put up by mimi...
i never mind to be weaker or inferior to man...after all..physically..they are stronger than us...
and..it's a man's job to protect his girl...for me...it's ok if i'm not clever...as long as my significant one can take care of me...and i think it's better to be a girl than a boy...girls can do a lot of things and people won't look at you as if you're weirdo...i can go shopping...facial treatment..hair treatment...spa...can cry...can be weak...can choose not to do those difficult task..:p
have you guys reached that stage where nothing can help?? used to be so close...and just lasted for..a blink of eyes...
they all said he's very quiet in the class...a loner now...and he does look sad...
i had fun too lah..especially on the way back...feel so nice to talk and joke with you all...and the food...erm..not as nice as what i'd expected...but when a big group sitting down and eat together..everything is nice lah..
from that night outing..i learnt one thing...inviting my uncle...wait..don't want this uncle eh...inviting khai hau to come is my biggest mistake...remind me not to do that again eh...i still feel disgusting when i thought of his touching touching...urrghhh
i like the answer to that question put up by mimi...
i never mind to be weaker or inferior to man...after all..physically..they are stronger than us...
and..it's a man's job to protect his girl...for me...it's ok if i'm not clever...as long as my significant one can take care of me...and i think it's better to be a girl than a boy...girls can do a lot of things and people won't look at you as if you're weirdo...i can go shopping...facial treatment..hair treatment...spa...can cry...can be weak...can choose not to do those difficult task..:p
have you guys reached that stage where nothing can help?? used to be so close...and just lasted for..a blink of eyes...
they all said he's very quiet in the class...a loner now...and he does look sad...
Monday, April 04, 2005
mixture of emotions
today...my mood is like..boomerang...going up and down...in the morning..i was nervous..for my presentation..then disappointed for my presentation...then calm when lunch..feel familiar and comfortable when shopping...tired when go back to school..and moody for the entire evening..
but..thanks to nining..she called me up..and brought good news to me..we're worrying too much...she and ken still together...so i actually could invite her to the steamboat on saturday night...it;s too late now to say anything...
maybe it's just PMS...i can see nisa felt so happy with her bio result...but..i don't feel anything particular about mine...numb liau...haih...i'm still worrying about how to pass my geo and resource study...for me..supplementary is worse than failing...because sitting for exam at the beginning of a semester is too awful for me...for me..either fail or pass...
explaining for oneself is tiring...but if it's for the sake of someone you think is important..worthed lor..
study has been pressurized for me these days...which is driving my interest away...i really think art subject is a no-no for me...makes me scare to go to school...
haih...don't want to say anymore..moody liau..
but..thanks to nining..she called me up..and brought good news to me..we're worrying too much...she and ken still together...so i actually could invite her to the steamboat on saturday night...it;s too late now to say anything...
maybe it's just PMS...i can see nisa felt so happy with her bio result...but..i don't feel anything particular about mine...numb liau...haih...i'm still worrying about how to pass my geo and resource study...for me..supplementary is worse than failing...because sitting for exam at the beginning of a semester is too awful for me...for me..either fail or pass...
explaining for oneself is tiring...but if it's for the sake of someone you think is important..worthed lor..
study has been pressurized for me these days...which is driving my interest away...i really think art subject is a no-no for me...makes me scare to go to school...
haih...don't want to say anymore..moody liau..
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