yesterday wasn't a good day for me.. but before i went to bed.. everything's settled.. just a minor miscommunication.. thanks to espeed 2 (in a sarcastic tone + rolling my eyes)

going to the mall later.. siao wanted to go for reflexology.. mom wanted to go to the diamond and platinum. my aunt said got nice white gold there.. as for me.. probably body shop.. hehe.. i just can't help to be naughty when i have spare money :p then before we come back.. we'll go to jpmc.. betty is going to give birth today.. i hope.. she hopes too.. it's the valentine's day in the chinese calendar..

i guess that's the main difference between me and some of my friends.. i never look forward to challenge.. i never look forward to leave brunei.. not even living outside tutong.. for me.. the place where i grow up is the place where i'm most familiar with.. i need the familiarity to assure me.. i feel very insecure at a new place.. let along surrounded by people i don't know well.. as long as i have my family and close friends and also my love in my life.. that's enough.. i dont like changes.. sometimes i complain about the boredom of routine.. but without the routine.. i feel lost.. occasionally i'll think of exploring the world.. sometimes alone.. but most of the time.. i'm fine with staying here in brunei and just listen to my friends' adventures..
erm.. my ambition is just different from most people i know..

i saw a backpack last night at bismi.. erm.. i don't need another new backpack but if i can have it.. it'd bring me convenience as a school bag.. to buy or not.. oohh.. i just simply like such kind of dilemma.. haha

i started to feel excited for my sis's second child.. she's giving birth in october.. my family is going to have another baby.. oh my god!!
but when i think of having my own baby now.. i want to run away.. i see that as a burden now..
feel bit hungry now.. wonder should i buy DQ blizzard later.. maybe no.. i didn't exercise yesterday.. today don't think have chance.. having tuition tonight.. hmm.. well.. we'll see

lately i'm into aromatherapy.. and i'm very keen to try rose and lavender.. too bad my skin is quite sensitive.. get skin problem easily whenever i change new body shampoo.. so now i just have to stick to dettol.. those anti-bacterial body shampoo always make me feel extra clean..
i'm thinking to try the lavender bathing foam.. or the rose body mist of body shop.. it's the only place i can think of whenever i think of essential oils and aroma stuffs.. i trust the quality there..
the body shop products always appeal to me.. but everytime i'm holding back by the price.. and not many people around me use their products.. this time.. i'm thinking to give it a try.. just buy one product first.. maybe the body mist.. since it's more convenient than the bath foam..

i have spare money now.. which tempting me to go shopping.. but cannot.. cannot cannot.. i need to invest on some books to teach tuition.. also i plan to buy textbooks starting this sem.. better save first.. just reward myself with the rose body mist.. for saving hard and succeeding in keeping in shape durin the vacation haha..

lee shi.. i'm going to miss you.. thank god you're leaving at this time.. not right after form 6.. because i think now i can cope better with it.. i've grown up now i guess.. can take things like that better.. if i send you off at airport.. i'm going to cry... probably can't even talk..

i reformatted my pc.. lost a few people's blog address.. hmm.. all i remember to back up is my songs and tuition stuffs.. hmm..

midnight..

i'm supposed to be in my dream now.. have to go to bk udal for tuition tomorrow morning.. or should i say later.. i'm a morning person.. and am never night person.. i'll feel heavy-hearted if i don't get enough sleep..

lee shi.. were you there just now at the basketball court? i didn't see you... met bee and her guy.. they are so sweet.. can't stop chit-chatting..

nining sms me last night.. miss that girl.. but she's always busy to meet up with me.. entering uni this coming semester.. finally she can be in the same school with her darling again.. happy for her..

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ok.. not in the right mood to post anything.. but wish to type something.. i just thought i could just spit everything out here... but turned out that.. i can't.. probably hand-written journal suits me better.. since that's the only place i can convince myself it's safe to tell..

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don't worry lizzy... you'll find the way to live with the odds there.. who knows the others will turn out to be helpful.. they probably have thought about the things you're thinking now...
you're always more capable than me.. if i can take care of my house all my myself for the past few days when my mom was not around.. you can too..
i suggest you bring hand cream, heels balm and sun-block with you.. must bring moisturizing body lotion oh.. the atmosphere there should be dry...right??
plus.. if anything.. just email us or mention in your blog.... i once emailed swait zin recipe oh.. wonder if he remember..

mizah.. the facial there is $35 for the normal one.. might charge more if you go for treatment..

on a hot day.. sitting in an air-con room updating my blog is a very comfortable experience..
my new maid is here.. finally.. my mom and i both gave a sigh of relief when we knew she's coming..
hm.. wish to go for a facial treatment now... but.. see lah.. if i have spare money...
my niece's birthday is coming soon.. and my mom's one will be coming soon too..

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mizah.. at destress there.. they charge $28 for 70 minutes.. but i'm usually taking the 5-times packages..$100 for 5 times.. and the duration of that package will never get expired.. like i had my first time last year august.. and until now i haven't gone for my fifth time.. but i don't have to worry.. my beautician there told me before at destress.. there's no such thing as expiry..
i do my facial treatment there too.. it's the only beauty saloon in Brunei where my skincare product (Murad) is sold..

did i mention i saw murad advertisement in FEMALE this month?? i felt soo proud when i saw it...

the next semester is beginning soon... can't wait for that..

i watched pirates of the carribeans last night.. it's soo funny.. i like Jack Sparrow.. he's witty..

i believe swait zin is back in Queensland now.. hehe.. eh swait zin.. my principle for saving money is.. sedikit sedikit, lama lama, jadi bukit :p

been a while..

bon voyage swait zin.. didn't reply because i'm saving my phone credit :p
all the best too..

mizah.. sorry for late reply.. i normally go Destress bodyworks for massage.. i like it there.. maybe i'm more familiar with the staffs there.. do my facial there too... i usually go to the branch near Liang Toon.. because fewer cars there.. sometimes i'll go to the one at the mall.. more expensive there though.. but the good thing is the staffs at the mall there concentrate more on legs.. which is the part i have most difficulty to slim down..

lizzy.. it's so in now to use flower on hair.. too bad i don't know how to set that kind of hair style..

last weekend.. was very chaotic for me.. it's my first time looking after my house without the help of a maid.. it was hectic.. furthermore.. my uncle came here from labuan.. made me couldnt avoid to prepare proper meals..
that weekend was like telling me i should help my mom more often with the household chores..
and proved that i'm right.. when it comes to a house.. small is always better.. especially for family like us.. not many people living in this house..
i can't remember when was the last time when i don't have anything on my to-do list.. *sniff *sniff

i need to control my spending now.. or i'll get serious financial problems.. i'm proud when i'm the only child who doesn't ask for money from my parents.. i like to keep this fact as fact..

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watched superman returns last night.. a movie worth watching.. wasn't as boring as i first thought.. strictly speaking.. this is my first superman movie.. i never watch any of the old superman or batman.. just not interested in those heroes movies.. but this one is nice.. because not very violent.. bit funny..
last time when we had lunch with swait zin.. me and lizzy thought batman will make the best husband choice out of him, superman and spiderman.. for me.. it's simply because batman is the richest of all.. but now i think superman will be my choice.. because he is always around.. the presence of my lover really matters a lot..

wish to go for a body massage.. i'm just so used to having a massage once in a while..

i start to have little bit of cash in my wallet.. which tempts me a lot to start spending..

heard from suaike that nining is entering uni this august.. hope we can have more time hanging out with each other by then.. but it's not easy to predict i guess..

hi hi

thanks lizzy.. jason did tell me about you asked him what time was the speech contest.. he told me last night... also.. thanks lizzy for your encouragement oh.. you're the one who told me i should join.. *hugs* love you soo much
thanks mimi too for sms-ing me yesterday morning..

the speech contest was a great experience.. i didn't win any of the first 3 positions.. ya hui got the first prize for our beginner;s level.. the second one is from the MOE.. then third place is Mizah (maizi's sister).. the first prize for the advance level went to one of the B.Ed students.. she won the trip to japan.. envy her so much..but i think she's not as good as ya hui... ya hui's speech was sooo lively and natural.. it's without doubt she got the first prize.. everyone.. including audience think she's the one.. as for me.. i think my content was bit boring when compare to others..
the moment i went on stage.. i wasn't nervous.. felt great to talk on stage.. it's when i came down from the stage my legs felt weak and my hands were shaky.. but overall.. a very exciting experience... and i love myself for having that gut to go on stage.. and not feeling upset when i don't win any prize...
the japanese people are sooo thoughtful.. eventhough we don't win any prizes.. we still got gifts for participation.. and also a trophy for each participant.. it's like.. i can easily lie to people that i won by showing them my trophy and gifts..
they give us a dictionary, a book about japan, 3 pencils and 5 very cute-drawing bookmarks..
i heard that eventhough ester didn't get through the pre-selection.. she'll get gifts and certificate like us too... so nice of the people in charge..
wish i could join again next year.. wish i could join for the advance level and my goal will be that trip to japan..haha.. big wish...
sensei was obviously overjoyed.. because both first prize winners are from UBD...we're all so proud of it..hehe.. and one good thing about this speech contest is.. we normally didn't talk to each other much when in class.. but yesterday.. we had a nice time eating together after the speech contest.. we as in me, mizah, khairul, yusri and another guy who i forgot his name..

during the event.. there was a erm.. look like an assisstant photographer.. noi's sister said he resembles jay zhou.. yeah true.. but jay zhou is far better looking.. that photographer erm.. well.. better just to see him at a distance..

the certificate i got is bit too big for my folder.. guess i'll laminate it (hehe) so it won't get ruined..
my mom suggested framing it since i'm the only one in our life who takes part in this kind of thing... but nah.. i'll frame it if it were first, second or third place.. this is just participation.. so just laminate it..

finally i can really enjoy my holiday.. don't have to keep going back to uni...
but i'm supposed to get my invitation letter from sensei tomorrow.. we participants are invited to japanese art exhibition opening ceremony at rizqun this friday.. too bad i can't go..
my mom and fook going to kl this friday.. we're sending them off to miri airport this friday..
haih.. wish i could go..i knew it's going to be fun to hang out with them..especially with ya hui around...
mimi are you invited too?? because our invitation card is from the BJFA..

that's my last weekend.. worth remembering..

this weekend.. going to be home alone... so people.. don't come at night suddenly.. i'd be frightened.. :P
this time i'm going to be sooo alone.. because we dont have any maid here yet.. oh my god~

oh yeah.. my car is back~~ finally... but that also means have to spend a great deal of money..
nevermind.. as long as my car is healthy again..

i want to tell girls who mind about their bulging tummy too much.. it's natural for us girls to have fats there.. it's a way to protect our ovaries from external shock...
tummy area is seldom my problem area.. my legs are big enough to draw attention away from my tummy.. :p

last night i got sore from my forehead to my nape and then my shoulders.. it was sooo unbearable... till it brought out my tears.. but the night ended up in a sweet way hehe *wink*
my mom said it's probably because i'm too 'heaty' inside.. not enough rest maybe..

bad day

i feel big today.. maybe because i wore the wrong shirt or maybe because i had heavy meals towards late afternoon.. and this feeling makes my whole day darker..

the speech contest is coming soon... day after tomorrow.. i feel nervous when i think of it.. tomorrow i'm going for my last practice.. wonder will i shiver when i'm on stage..

quite a lot of people fall sick these days.. one of my students didnt turn up for tuition twice due to severe coughing.. my throat is a bit dry too.. i should remember to take cough syrup later or tomorrow.. just in case i can't have my normal voice on sunday..

i'm cravings for ice-cream.. and popcorns.. i still prefer DQ ice-cream.. rather than the swenson's one.. maybe because i didn't try more than a few types of ice-cream at swenson.. but.. so far.. no any other ice-cream can beat DQ blizzard..

worldcup is ending soon.. a good news for me.. so won't have to hear any more news about people commiting suicide or go bankrupt..

sometimes i wonder.. is bio really the field i'd like to work in.. it just seems that i'm more interested in beauty cares.. i'll never get bored of reading about skincare products.. beauty tips..

this week i spent too much.. but worth investing in those books.. they'll be handy for my tuition..
have to save more so i can buy one or two more magazines this month..

thanks people

i feel bit touched.. when josh and mimi knew about my speech contest on this sunday.. they both said they'd try to come.. thanks people *hugs*
i just knew it i can count on you guys at any time.. love you guys soooo soooo much

talking about the pre-selection.. i was nervous at first.. making a minor mistake in the first part.. but after the mistake.. i told myself i couldnt get anything wrong.. just concentrate.. and it worked.. i felt natural to give the speech.. reminded me back to the singing contest i joined a few years ago.. like.. very nervous when going on stage.. but after singing.. reluctant to leave the stage.. hehe.. i hope i can do well too in the real speech contest.. just try to remind myself i'm not aiming for any prizes.. just want to get the experience..

they said.. if get caught with tuition without any license.. would be fined $50,000..
meaning.. i'm commiting a crime now.. doing something against the law.. but.. how to stop tuition now.. i heard it's because some private tuition teachers didn't do their job well so their students complained to the MOE.. sounds a bit impractical to me though.. i'm a serious person... so i take my tuition ob seriously.. i'll feel guilty if my students don't improve.. feel annoyed if my students can't understand what i'm teaching.. all because it's my job and they pay me for this.. furthermore right at the beginning.. i started giving tuition because the parent asked me to help.. and by helping them i can get money.. though i already had enough to use..
siao told me someone commented that i'm doing too much and get too little pay..
money is important but it's never a top priority.. plus i think i learnt a lot from my students..
well.. as long as i know what i'm doing..
when i earn more.. i spend more :p

going to school tomorrow.. i borrowed oliver twist from the library but i just started to flip on it last night.. and the returning date is tomorrow.. i guess it's hard to change my interest.. but i just wish to read more on the english so i can teach english better.. a subject which i'm not confident with.. but good thing is.. i read english magazine every month.. that helps too right..

my new finance strategy.. saving at least $100 every month.. that should be a piece of cake for me.. hopefully by the time i graduate.. before i start working.. i have enough money for me to go for a tour in some countries.. such as taiwan..
a good habit of me is.. i only spend the money when i'm sure that i still have some in my account after using that money..

sunday

this morning when i was still sleeping.. josh called.. inviting me to his place for his sis's wedding.. very last minute invitation.. i managed to go there on time.. but i think i didn't dress up to the occassion.. too simple outfits.. but that's the best i can with regard to the amount of time i had..

there's a lot of procedures before i sleep every night and after i wake up every morning.. but i'm enjoying it.. i wish to be still pleasant-looking and healthy at old age.. so i have to start taking good care of myself now.. young is not a good excuse to skip all that..

miss school.. wish to start studying as soon as possible.. but i miss my secondary years the most.. guess now i really appreciate the goodness of school uniform..

if i can hire a servant.. i'd hire a driver now.. i'm so lazy to drive..lazy to go out.. the sun is not friendly to me at all..