happy chinese new year...

my chinese new year started with a tired mind and body.. i never know it could be sooooo exhausting to prepare for chinese new year while trying to cope with study at the same time.. i'll appreciate the maid more next time...

the chinese new year has just reached almost a week.. and already i'm feeling plump.. been eating lots of unhealthy/fatty food.. and not enough sleep.. so a few pimples pop out on my face *sniff *sniff.. then feel like my arms become bigger *sniff *sniff.. i still have so many sleeveless outfits oh.. and my tattoo is fading.. my tummy is bulging out..

people will say.. start dieting after chinese new year..

recently.. i start to think more about my final year project..
hmm.. the courses i'm doing this sem.. not very inspiring for me.. unlike last year when i was motivated to study.. the courses this sem don't have the same effect.. not sure if it got to do with the chinese new year...

it's coming to end of the first half of the semester.. i'm still not so into the study mood.. but i know i should work really hard this year to compensate for my grades last year..

out of the blue.. i have that urge to go for a vacation.. wish to go to somewhere with historical sites.. or cultural values..

mama.. you know what.. i wanted you to be my partner too.. then you're sooo popular.. more than one person wanted to be your partner.. then actually.. i was thinking perhaps one of us (me and tekying) should pair up with noraini.. because she's the only second year student in our group.. and tek ying's been sharing the same bench with her for all the organic prac... so erm.. i was about to discuss with tek ying about pairing with noraini... but before i said anything.. it's settled..
what done is done.. we can still sit near each other in the lab... last week.. erm.. sorry oh.. didn't wait for you.. i was too hungry i guess.. and got something else to do.. so i left the lab.. assuming you'll understand.. sorry.. next week lah if we finish at around the same time.. and plenty of time left before the next class.. let's lunch..
hehe.. probably you won't see this post of mine before our next prac..

honestly.. i'm not ready for this sem too.. part of the reasons is due to the coming chinese new year.. this is the first time, after a couple of years, we don't have maid at home before new year.. so lots of cleaning up to do.. and i don't like the rain now.. it's been raining quite often these days.. i'm forced to keep delaying my plan of washing the bedsheets and blanket.. yesterday finally got to wash my bedsheet.. and my brother's one.. so tomorrow will be my blanket..hope it'll be a sunny day.. i wanted to help more.. but i'm always feeling tired when i reach home..despite didn't do much at school.. but i'm beginning to feel bit stress out.. maybe it's because i didn't manage my time good enough.. urrghh.. same problem every sem..
will try to improve.. actually it's nothing much.. if i can make myself do more work... could it be just me being lazy?? i should catch up with all the readings..
maybe i can have a laundry shop next time.. because that seems to be the only thing i can provide help at home :p

someone asked me do i know how to cook.. i told her yes.. but she just laughed and said confident lagi tu.. i don't understand.. she asked me a question.. and i answer honestly.. anything wrong? these days it's pretty easy to cook a meal.. we have all the instant stuffs... and i think actually.. it's not difficult to cook.. what's hard is to look for what to cook..
i know.. i'm just not good at talking with people.. i find it difficult to draw the correct line between what can say and what cannot say.. so most of the time i'm quiet.. and eventually.. i'm used to listen when talking in a group.. but sometimes.. when the mood come or when with the right person...i'll talk non-stop..

i went to soon lee just now.. and bought some outfits.. again!
oh my god.. it's so hard to stop.. especially with the sale going on now.. although it's kind of cheap.. still sedikit sedikit..lama lama jadi bukit oh.. i lost count of how much i've spent...and the thing is.. my mom doesn't stop me.. she'd only say buy while the sale is still on...
i'm afraid.. the outfits i have... i can wear new one every day from first day to the last day of chinese new year.. and the footwears i have now.. i have no problem to wear different footwear from monday to sunday.. too much right?? i know..
and what worse is.. i should've saved more now if i want to organize an open house for my friends.. now..hm... have to think twice..

just now in the afternoon.. there were short clips of a concert this morning in taiwan.. it's for the artist that had passed away last month.. feel very sad.. all her best friends and families were there.. each of them wrote a letter for her.. and read it out in the concert.. many of them couldn't hold their tears.. me too oh... it's silly i know.. it's like.. nothing to do with me at all.. yet i just couldn't stop my tears oh.. such a pretty and nice girl.. almost perfect person.. and just a road accident.. she's gone forever.. like the way they put it.. this is her first and last concert..
and i can't stop wondering.. by the end of the year.. those people who are very sad now.. how many of them will remember her..
it's like.. no matter how sad or how hard to get over her death now.. except her family and perhaps some of her bestfriends.. who will remember her after a few years... this is the saddest part for me.. no matter who you are.. you'll be forgotten eventually after you're gone.. only some people will remember you... but i guess.. that's enough..

so.. i'll take every step in my life seriously... i won't wait till special occasion to wear those nice or new clothes.. wont wait till i got extra money to buy stuffs i really like.. haha.. what am i thinking..

i'm afraid i've bought too many outfits and footwears for this new year.. till when i bought that pair of high heels on erm.. wednesday.. i felt a twinge of guilt.. hehe.. but i must say i love the adidas pants i bought on wednesday.. wish to buy more.. it's sold at half price so i can't resist..