i begin to think that i've tried too hard to do well in everything.. which is beyond my capability.. trying to do well in study, help everything at home..keep fit... if i were a candle.. i bet i'm left with just a little bit of wax... ok.. nonsense..

but it's true.. i really feel exhausted now... i need to learn how to relax.. how to stop pushing myself... basically.. just accept the fact that i'm not the kind of person who can do good in everything at the same time... maybe when i just go with the flow.. i'll feel better.. and perform better..

today is the last day of chinese new year... my mom's in labuan.. haih... when i was young... it didn't matter to me at all where my mom went.. what time would she be back... but starting last year.. i'll mind... i'll miss my family when they're away... during the first week of the chinese new year.. i felt bit empty.. because no one was at home except me..
but thank god i have a bunch of good friends.. i really enjoyed on the day they came here.. nice talking with them all.. although that day was a bit rush for me (field trip the whole day)

i notice.. what i liked before.. i might still like it now.. just that.. now i've grown up.. i've learnt more.. a lot of things will start to affect my liking.. for example.. i realized that i still like going to the beach... but i thought i've stopped liking it.. now i know it's because of the sand flies.. and the tutong beach here.. hm.. people like to ask or gossip...
then a lot of food i still enjoy.. but because of heal and weight.. i don't feel so keen now to eat them..

of course there are lots of happy things happen in life.. just.. probably i'm too stress out.. i just miss the good part of it.. and keep thinking i didn't do well in this.. didn't do well in that..
suddenly.. feel like.. i need to start all over again.. start everything from the beginning..
i hope.. from now on... i'll stop mess things up.. keep things as simple as possible.. don't try to make things complicated.. and love everyone and everything more..

mimi.. the pictures you want are here...

mid-semester break has started.. not a really a break... hope i can make good use of this week to catch up with what i miss..