it's been a while.. i'd worked harder than normal this week.. from monday to wednesday.. did more things than usual.. so until thursday.. i was exhausted.. but relaxed too.. maybe because i've finished preparing for saturday.. got a presentation...and the japanese assignment was supposed to hand in on saturday.. after i finished it... sensei said the deadline postponed to next wednesday.. hmm.. thank god she only said that after i finished it.. or else.. i'll probably delay it again till next week.. should've done it during the mid semester break..

oh yeah.. i'm 22 years old now.. hehe.. i spent the whole day of my birthday at Ministry of Health.. listening to talks.. withdrawing my blood for malaria and filaries (not sure the spelling) tests.. and catching living mosquitoes.. the people taught us how to catch it.. using our legs as baits.. maybe because it's my birthday.. so people only got 1 or 2.. i turned to have 5 ;) mosquitoes like me better

today it rained.. how great.. i don't like dry season.. i'll start worry what if it doesn't rain for months and we need to cut down on water use.. i guess i must be a fish in my previous life.. i just can't feel ease when there's no water..

lizzy.. how are you now?? miss you~~ soo much... you must miss me oh.. even if only once in a while..

for the past few weeks.. i don't like the way i talk sometimes.. like.. there were thorns in my words.. feel sorry to those who might have been hurt by my words.. especially tekying.. she's with me most of the time.. hope she didn't suffer much..
sometimes i feel lonely... maybe i'm not borned to be a loner.. i need companions.. partners..
but most of the time i'm ok with it.. not so much time to dread over it perhaps.. plus.. it's better for me to be alone too.. so i can concentrate more on my work.. is every uni student racing against time?? or is it just me or ubd student? no matter what i do.. i never find enough time.. hehe does that sound fake?? because i have the time to blog now.. maybe i should put it like this.. we have the time.. but the time we spend on leisure is never enough for us.. is that typical of young people these days? or of bruneians?
really.. i'm taking my study seriously... just.. i don't like it when i'm not studying it for interest but for something compulsory..
i probably won't do ecological project.. 2 of my friends want to work with the same lecturer and the lecturer said he's busy with something else.. so he can only take one.. and might accept another one.. when i heard that.. i felt like.. if so.. i just switch for other options.. don't like to fight with others.. there are still lots of choices.. erm.. well.. maybe a few more.. not many.. plus.. my family and my close ones are not that supportive for me to work in a forest.. i feel scared too to be in an area of a forest alone.. fear of bumping into a predator kind of animals.. fear of getting lost.. fear of what's in front waiting for me.. and also fear of those 'things'.. if you get what i mean.. i really believe on that kind of things..

tonight have to sleep with the air con on.. because my cousin is sleeping over here.. don't think it's appropriate to insist on sleeping with fan.. nevermind.. i can wear a jacket.. i just don't like the feeling when the air surrounding my skin is cold..