i like helping people around.. but.. maybe i've always approached people the wrong way... every time.. i'll end up feeling being taken advantage of.. i don't mind to help you as much as i can... but the thing is.. show to me that you worth my effort.. i respect people.. and never think i'm any smarter than anyone.. and i really don't like it when i have to give away stuffs which i have spent hourssss figuring out.. without any good reason.. i believe everyone has to do their own work... it's not right to just copy someone else's work.. even if that work is just a piece of cake for that someone..
i'm losing patience.. and i'm worried that one day.. i'll deliberately hurt someone's feeling.. i guess from now on... i should know where to draw the line.. i don't need the whole world to be on my side.. as long as i know there are few people out there who understand me.. and i notice that for quite a few times.. i dont mind to play the 'bad guy'.. just to stop any more trouble coming up later.. as long as i know what i'm doing right... but i know sometimes it's not the case.. because i'm not living alone in this world.. whatever i do.. someone else will get involved..

mid-semester break has started.. good news is.. my allowance is out.. hmm... and i've learnt to think twice before spending money... though i really wish to shop till i broke hehe.. just a thought..

i'm becoming cruel.. don't feel that guilty anymore when i kill an insect.. but i still don't think i can catch up to 200 insects.. if killing insects will make me go to hell next time.. i'm going to meet lots of friends there (all from biological science :p)

i miss lee shi.. miss mimi.. miss mama.. miss the time we hang out.. lee shi.. can you fly back here on this friday to have sungkai buffet with us??
i love you guys.. we never take advantage of each other.. maybe i do unconsciously.. but it feels so much more comfortable with you guys.. i can just do whatever i want.. crack stupid jokes.. say something rude.. eat like there's no weight problem..

i'm glad that the break is here.. because i think i seriously need one.. i'm getting blur these days.. like i've been doing so many things but i can't keep track most of the time..
so since i'm having break now.. i want to do something i haven't been doing for a while.. the first thing is.. i'm going to bk udal tomorrow.. to visit my grandparents.. and i want to sleep early at night.. so i have more energy for the next day during day time.. i really don't like to sleep away my afternoon.. but i'll get headache if i force myself to stay awake when i'm sleepy.. im getting old..

anyway.. feel relieved to throw out some rubbish here :p
thanks for your advice this morning mimi.. hopefully i didn't disturb your sleep... *hugs*
i like going to mimi for advice.. don't know why.. maybe she's one of the wisest people around me.. come to think of it.. i'm the one who get myself into the trouble.. i should've figured out right or wrong at the beginning.. instead of help and then complain...

Happy Mooncake Festival people...