i met josh today... the first sentence we said when we first saw each other was 'hao jiu bu jien'.. we havent seen each other for such a long time.. josh is still as nice as he used to be.. because he told me i'm slimmer now :p
tomorrow i'm going to bukit sawat for the tomb sweeping festival.. it's still flooding there.. so we might have to walk a distance to reach my great-grandparents' tombs.. i'm glad i bought that pair of boots last year for the aquatic bio.. so we all have to wake up early tomorrow.. going to bk udal at 6..
feel bit tired lately.. my supervisor is still ill.. and the stained slides i've made aren't good enough.. he'll show me how to do it the proper way.. but i think i might try it again on my own on monday.. it's tiring to work in the lab for whole day.. though i might be just doing simple things.. maybe because i've been doing the same thing so.. yeah.. but i wouldn't mind doing this kind of things next time as my job.. just.. bit disappointed.. tikah has made beautiful slides.. but only some of my slides are good.. maybe that's the main reason that makes me feel worn-out...
*take a deep breath* i'll try it again on monday.. i can do it i'm sure.. i just need more practice.. ganbatte!
oh yeah! i've bought a new dvd player... so my pocket is a bit tight this week.. the old dvd player.. well.. it's terrible.. maybe we can send it back to the agent and ask them to repair.. replace some part or whatever.. the new one... hehe.. it's another thing that makes me proud.. when we got down from the car on that day.. the first thing i told my mom is.. i'll pay for it.. oh gosh! it is soooooo cool to pay for something like this.. it's like telling me.. i can help! i'm not totally hopeless.. i know my mom's been wanting to buy a new dvd player.. but she needs to keep the money for other purposes.. i feel great that i can help.. plus.. some to think of it.. i'm the one who use all these tv, dvd player in the living room..
my mom actually said we can buy a small one.. including a tv.. and put it in my room.. so i can watch movie in my room with my dear.. but i don't think i want it.. why bother to buy another set when i can have the big tv and new dvd player in the living room.. hehe i'm the owner of the living room most of the time.. plus.. my room doesn't have the space.. if it has.. i'll put all my books in my room.. i wish i could've a bigger room.. i need a bigger table, a bigger wardrobe.. and a big book shelf.. but i appreciate what i have now.. at least i got to have my own room.. that is good enough ;)
there's always not much to watch on tv on saturday night.. maybe it's only for me..
i'm watching Jolin's concert.. i love to watch concert dvds... especially those that include the backstage preparation for the concert.. when i watch jolin's and wilbet pan's concert dvds.. i always feel touched.. because they work really hard, even push themselves to the extreme, just to give their fans a wonderful show.. it's like telling me.. you can get what you want as long as you work hard enough.. and nothing comes free..
can't remember since when.. i start to believe that hardwork is the most important thing if i want success.. before this, i used to think for some people, things come easily.. but now i believe it's their effort that bring them the things they have..
so, if i put in effort.. i can lose the weights i want to lose.. i can make beautiful slides.. i can write good thesis (i hope so much).. i can pass my developmental bio.. all and all, if i put in effort..
maybe i should sing karaoke tonight.. release out all my stress...
sometimes i'm scared.. scared of i can't do well for my thesis.. scared that i'll screw up my seminar.. scared that what if i can't find a job after my seminar.. scared that i have too little knowldge.. but only sometimes.. most of the time i'm ok.. if i've done my work, i'll be fine.. if i don't do my work over the weekend.. then i'll feel scared again...
am i repeating things?? i tend to get a bit long-winded.. i don't talk much these days.. especially when i'm in school.. don't know what to say.. or rather.. don't know what can be said and what can't be said.. it's hard for me to understand people these days.. maybe i'm too naive.. or too weird.. or.. i'm just too narrow-minded.. whatever
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