It's a holiday!

I was reading the newspaper just now. Guys, we should really feel thankful to be living in Brunei. We have good air conditions, clean water supply and countless subsidies. Sometimes i think reading the news is depressing nowadays. There are always more bad news than good ones. Is that the real world out there today? Or people just tend to focus more on the ugly side?

Last sunday, i went for a bbq at lizzy's place. It was fun meeting her friends. They are all very nice people because i didn't feel awkward or odd when hanging out with them for the first time. Yet, i still felt a bit self-conscious. It's just typical of me to feel shy among strangers. But still, i enjoyed that day.

I am the type of people who can get influenced by others easily. Like, my plan was to have a long break after the seminar, let my body and mind get enough rest before i start any plan. I have to admit i was quite worried when i found out that many of my classmates are doing something during the time i was resting. Some have started working, some doing research works for lecturers and some having attachment at government departments. The thought of me being the only one doing nothing at all scared me, until dear reminded me that taking a break is my original plan. Poor dear, he has to endure my complaints and fears almost everytime we meet.
And yeah, now i feel erm.. finally i'm standing firmly on my feet.
Sometimes, even though i'm doing what i think i should do, i can't help hesitating if people around me do or say something different. Like i'm not confident enough with my own decision but at the same time too stubborn to accept others' point-of-view. Actually, i seldom change my mind. But i'll keep on questioning myself am i doing the right thing.

People have been telling me not to worry about getting a job because what i've got is a second upper degree, as if that's something very extraordinary. I guess i haven't really realized the value of my degree yet. For me, i felt ecstatic when i got my classification because that's what i was aiming for and it's been a while since i last achieved what i wanted. But i felt a bit disappointed that my mom doesn't understand the meaning of my degree. She's like one of my top motivations. I want to make her proud of me and at the moment, study is my only asset. Too bad i didn't succeed this time. Nevermind, i have lots of chances in the future.
Some people told me to do master but i don't think i want that. In fact, i never plan to do master right after my degree. Really don't think now is the right time. I want to work and earn money first. So next time, when i do go for my master study, i wouldn't have to worry too much about my pocket money. Now i've got a degree, it's time for me to share the family budget with my mom.
To be honest, my bank savings still enable me to survive until end of this year, provided i don't spend more than $200 out of it each month. Because i still get pocket money. But i still need a job urgently. It really makes me paranoid when i think of not receiving any income since our last allowance of May. I don't go really care-free when it comes to money. Plus, i love the feeling whenever i send out a job application. It's like, i'm doing something to get a job, instead of waiting for the chance to knock on my door.

Dear has started his second sem in qurtin. This time, we can only meet on weekends. It's a bit difficult for us now because in the past few weeks, we had been meeting quite often. So now we have to start again getting used to meeting less. But we should be grateful because we still get to chat or talk through the net every night. Wish saturday can come sooner.

Oh yeah, tomorrow i'm going to the BSP career day with mimi and ana. Hope i can get some useful information while we're there.

Hehe

Yea! Finally it's out, the classification! It's confirmed now that i've got second upper degree. When i first knew it from mimi, i re-confirmed again with ana, to make sure it's true. Yeah, i was expecting a second upper but it's like, when a dream does come true, it's so hard to believe.
I can't wait to share it with everyone in my family, though most of them don't know what's the difference between the different classes of degree.
There was a minute yesterday that i was thinking, if only i worked harder, i might be getting a first class now. Then, i told myself nevermind. Second upper is good enough. Hehe, till now, when i think about it, i still can't stop myself from saying 'Oh My God!'

We went for the buffet last night at the airport restaurant. We as in me, lizzy, mimi, lini and mama. We had a great time eating and laughing. The food was great, especially the fried noodles and the grilled lamb (pun sia sia). I can't remember when was the last time i ate till bloated like last night and laughed till my cheek muscles ache. It's so hard not to have fun with mimi and lini around. Something happened and.. well, i'll let lizzy blog about it. She can describe better than i can. It was such a wonderful night last night. Wish we could have more time like that.

I haven't blogged for quite some time. There are so many thoughts in my mind when i was not blogging. But now, erm, i can't name any.
Anyway, i need to stop now, time to cook for lunch. My mom's away again.

another super hot day

i'm back from singapore.. 2 weeks ago i guess. I keep losing track of time and date whenever i'm in holiday. Sometimes i need to think for a second about what day is today.

Anyway, my singapore trip was a bit hectic. didn't get to spend much time with lizzy as i expected. I stayed with my cousin on the first 2 nights. On the first night, we talked till 3am before we both fell asleep. On the next night, judy (my mom's friend) brought me to a pub. I saw Nicholas Tse's father there. He's thin and, a bit old (shhhh). I think the atmosphere of the pub was nice, you can relax and enjoy the live band performance there. A good way to ease the mind.
Things i remember most about my trip are the shopping and the food. It was like a shopping trip, instead of a vacation which i'd planned for. Judy was fast and unconsciously, i kept up with her pace. I love the fact that we had to walk a lot when we're in Singapore. It's so convenient there, everywhere is within walking distance and the bus fare is cheap.
And about the food, god, I wish i had at least a week there to try out all the food. I still miss the dried prawn noodles and super-crispy deep-fried chicken chop. But eating out in singpaore is expensive, i have to say. Standard of living is high and earning S$1000 plus a month means nothing. But i really like it there. Like i told my mom, if i still can't get a proper job by chinese new year next time, i'll consider searching for jobs in singapore.

Results are out and well, i did ok. I got grade C for the course that i expected would fail. Overall a B+. I know i could've done better but i got my stress took the better of me at that time. Anyway, it doesn't matter. I mean, a grade B used to be my goal every sem.
When i first saw the results of everyone, i felt a bit.. disappointed. I'm so used to be the top of the class, so it feels a bit suck for not having the best result. Don't worry, i've got over it now. I take that as the last lesson i learn from UBD.. not to think i'm always the best. Like the chinese saying, 'another sky beyond the sky'.

Looking around me, i think i have to start getting serious with my job hunt. These days i like to stay at home with my niece and nephew. They never fail to surprise me everyday with the things they know. It's an amazing feeling when my nephew says a new word which he had never said before. know what, he has now learnt to get angry. This morning he wanted to go with me to UBD. When me and my mom said no, he turned his back to us and put up a face. The funny part is, his sister urged me to go quickly. And when i went outside, wearing my shoes, i overheard my niece saying to my nephew, 'Di, yiyi zhou le' (Brother, aunt has left). Then i heard my nephew crying.
Hehe, there have been a few occasions where my niece and i have to sneak out. My nephew is too young to be brought along but he always wants to go out with us.

It's hot these days, even during the nights. With the hot weather outside and the air-con cool air here in the room, it's so perfect for an afternoon nap :p

This afternoon, me, mimi, lizzy and mama are going to hang out at my place. I can't wait for that.
And this morning when i was driving on the highway, i can't stop myself from looking forward to the day when i can give a few hundred dollars to my mom as home expenses.

Oh, people, if you guys haven't watched the movie 'Get Smart', you should go and watch. It's too hilariously funny to be missed.