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I understand how you feel mi, i guess. I kept asking myself too why didn't i apply for the scholarship earlier, when i heard that my friend is leaving soon for her master in UK. Yeah, since it's us who made our choice, so be it lah. But deep down in me, i still think i'd do better for master if it's for my job. At least the objective of me pursueing a master degreee is clear and straightforward. Ok, now i just need to constantly remind myself about my original plan, instead of letting the envy taking over me.

My mom's going on a vacation next month so it's very likely that she won't be around for my convo. Hmm.. i have to admit that i'm disappointed to know this. I really wish she could be there but.. it's not the first time anyway. It's good for her too to be able to travel around. That's like, one of my goals too to sponsor oversea trips for her. I really can't bring myself to ask her not to go. But i really really wish she could come to my graduation. After all, it's for her.

Lack of updates recently right?? I've been trying to stay away from pc. Imagine looking at monitor screen all the time during my working hours and 2 or 3 hours every night. Oh god! I pity my eyes.

So far, work is ok. I'm learning new things, especially from my junior *blushing* he's a lot more analytic and smarter than me. So naturally, i let him do all the brain-cracking thinkings and wait patiently for his explanation. Bad me! I need more exercises for my brain, before it turns rusty.

Recently, someone did some calculations with my birthday and pointed out that i spend a lot. Everyone seems to think that's wrong about me. Come to think of it, i agree with the calculation. I don't spend all the time. However, if i have spare money in my wallet, the money will be gone before i realize and i simply can't think of where did i spend them. I do spend a lot of books and i find no problem with that. It's for the sake of learning! *yuck* Haha! I really think i'm good at reasoning sometimes. Maybe that's how i passed most of my exams?? Well, i'll prefer to think that i passed my exams because i put effort in it.

People said the rate of suicide due to bankruptcy is increasing in Taiwan, at a very alarming rate. I wonder how long it'll take before the same thing happen in our country. I'm not cursing! It's true, just look at the way how many people waste their money on trivial things. Maybe for them, it's a necessity in life so for them, it's investment, not wasting.

Got to go now, time to sleep. It's actually past my usual bedtime and sleep is important. Sleep tight people!