public holiday

mi, i envy you for being able to take the 'fatty' comment easily. I'm yet to learn that. I have to admit, until now, if someone tells me right on my face that i am fat, i'll get moody for at least a day. Worse, if that someone happens to be my close relative, i'll end up crying when i'm alone later on. The other day i talked with meimei about this. For her, she has learnt to ignore the person, like mimi does.

I think it all depends on the tone of that person used. If the comment is sincerely meant to remind me about my increasing weight, i'll take it effortlessly and might end up talking with the person about how to lose weights. But if that person talked like what lizzy has encountered, i'll sure break into tears.

I have been obesed for my entire childhood and almost my entire teenage and i have come a long way to reach my weight today so i guess, that's why i have this fear about weight gain. That makes me vulnerable to comment like that. Plus, i do have gained a few kilos.

But, if i keep track to what i'm doing now, there shouldn't be any problem shedding those extra pounds. Hopefully i'll stay motivated and strong-determined.

We had a little party on christmas eve at my place. Although my sis said we'd just invite our close relatives, it still ended up like a disaster for me. First, i was too busy and tired to enjoy the party. Secondly, i didn't get to spend much time with dear. I don't have the character of a good host so i never really enjoy party at my place. And i eventually realise that i seldom relax at home, unless i'm all alone. There are simply too many things at home that i think i have to do. Probably no one expect me to do all those things but, it's my sense of responsibility that keeps me wanting to help. Then i know why i like field courses. Because that's when i can just pay attention to myself only.

Lizzy, i read your previosu comment after i met you at UG the other day. Erm.. since my christmas eve is not a pleasant one, so i decided that i want to make it up for dear on new year's eve. So i'm going to keep my 31st night free. Hehe.

Anyway, there is still something good about this christmas. For the first time, we have a christmas tree at home! Wow!

And for me, Christmas is still one of the festivals that i'll look forward to in a year. WHy not? Just look at those lovely decorations and christmas cakes, like the one at Rizqun (below). Also, to me, it's a season which we spend time with family and exchange sweet and warm wishes.

quick post

I've just finished watching Sex and the city movie. It was great! Something not to miss.
And, watching the movie made me miss all the old ladies. How are you guys lately? We should hang out one of these days, before year 2008 end. When will Lizzy be back in brunei?? I've met meimei and the meeting was very pleasant. We did lots of catch-ups. Oh gosh! I think i'm getting old. I'm having the urge to keep in touch with most of my friends these days, before we turn into strangers.

I notice i enjoy watching dvds more than watching movies at the cinema now. Maybe watching at home saves more time and, my mind can really switch to relax mode.

The other day, when i was on the road, i saw a row of cars blinking their signals at the same time, and that made my day! A moment later, i realized, oh my god! Simple things like that can make me laugh?! Finally.. i'm getting it back, my ability to appreciate things in my life. I've learnt it long ago that sometimes, it's the tiny things in life that cheer you up more effectively than anything else. But you have to be able to seek it out.

I'm trying to start a workout routine now. So far, looking good. Hope i can keep to it for long. Thanks to lizzy for inviting me to join her last time to hike at bk ambok (did she invite me or did i just pandai-pandai join her outings with her mom and sis?? :p). Eversince then, i am in love with the feeling of hiking early in the morning. Too bad, none of my imeediate family members likes hiking. But now, i finally have companions to go again, since my aunts are eager now to shed pounds.
Everytime when i'm walking along the path of bk ambok, i feel peaceful and grateful. Grateful for the treasures we have in tutong. From the top of the hills, i can see good-conditioned roads, beautiful and big houses, dark green mangroves and a sense of tranquility. I always know i love my town and selfishly, i hope it will remain as it is now.

holiday~

i went to labuan over the weekend. It was a nice holiday, catching up with su yee. She's pregnant now! Spending two days with her allowed me to see how capable she is. I'm so proud to be her cousin, and happy for her too that she has a wonderful husband who dotes on her so much.

The week before last week, i exercised too much. So i ended up feeling exhausted on the first few days of the week. Didn't get to exercise at all last week..oh no~

I miss dear terribly. Didn't spend much time together last week and last night, there was a mini birthday celebration for my bro-in-law at my place. *sniff *sniff, people want some private time with dear lah~

didn't get to take any picture when i was in labuan. I really think deep down in me, i'm a very shy girl. I saw a few of friends who i used to hang out with whenever i went to labuan when i was young. But, i just said hi and didn't talk much. Like, i wanted to talk more, but i couldn't make myself to tell my aunties and uncles to leave without me. I wish they can respect me and stop treating me as their 'property'. Haih.. that is the only thing that always spoil my holiday in labuan.

I'm in a shopping mood now! So, maybe i should avoid going to shopping centre. Haha