public holiday

mi, i envy you for being able to take the 'fatty' comment easily. I'm yet to learn that. I have to admit, until now, if someone tells me right on my face that i am fat, i'll get moody for at least a day. Worse, if that someone happens to be my close relative, i'll end up crying when i'm alone later on. The other day i talked with meimei about this. For her, she has learnt to ignore the person, like mimi does.

I think it all depends on the tone of that person used. If the comment is sincerely meant to remind me about my increasing weight, i'll take it effortlessly and might end up talking with the person about how to lose weights. But if that person talked like what lizzy has encountered, i'll sure break into tears.

I have been obesed for my entire childhood and almost my entire teenage and i have come a long way to reach my weight today so i guess, that's why i have this fear about weight gain. That makes me vulnerable to comment like that. Plus, i do have gained a few kilos.

But, if i keep track to what i'm doing now, there shouldn't be any problem shedding those extra pounds. Hopefully i'll stay motivated and strong-determined.

We had a little party on christmas eve at my place. Although my sis said we'd just invite our close relatives, it still ended up like a disaster for me. First, i was too busy and tired to enjoy the party. Secondly, i didn't get to spend much time with dear. I don't have the character of a good host so i never really enjoy party at my place. And i eventually realise that i seldom relax at home, unless i'm all alone. There are simply too many things at home that i think i have to do. Probably no one expect me to do all those things but, it's my sense of responsibility that keeps me wanting to help. Then i know why i like field courses. Because that's when i can just pay attention to myself only.

Lizzy, i read your previosu comment after i met you at UG the other day. Erm.. since my christmas eve is not a pleasant one, so i decided that i want to make it up for dear on new year's eve. So i'm going to keep my 31st night free. Hehe.

Anyway, there is still something good about this christmas. For the first time, we have a christmas tree at home! Wow!

And for me, Christmas is still one of the festivals that i'll look forward to in a year. WHy not? Just look at those lovely decorations and christmas cakes, like the one at Rizqun (below). Also, to me, it's a season which we spend time with family and exchange sweet and warm wishes.