Busy busy

Life has been quite hectic for me. Not sure if i have mentioned it here before. I was at SEAMEO VOCTECH for a 2 weeks training programme. It was such a great experience, having to meet and work with people from all the other ASEAN countries. I will never forget about this experience. Also thanks to this training, i think i will avoid sending my kids to a few countries for their education in the future (that is, if i decided to have kids).

After the training, i returned to school and immediately have my course team meeting. It's a meeting to check through all the marks and make comments on my students. Then went for my FR briefing. I missed the GO briefing and the day 2 of FR briefing. I was in the training during the GO and as for FR, i had a sub-academic board meeting on that day. I am quite confident that i can pass my GO and FR exams. The exams are not as hard as people described it. I guess most people who failed simply didn't put enough efforts in their revision, thinking that they always have more chances in the future. For me, it's very simple. It's an exam which as B2 officers, we all must pass. Why not pass it and get it over with?

After the briefings, the school holidays started and it's time for my industrial attachment. This time, i went to the Tissue Culture Lab in BARC. Hm.. i think i prefer mushroom culture more than plant tissue culture. However, i start to like plant tissue culture more after the attachment, maybe it's not that tedious to me anymore once i get used to it.

Immediately after my attachment, i sat for the GO and FR exams. Then only my holidays started, which was like, 3 more days to school reopen. So, i went to Miri for a short retail therapy, then brought my aunt to the hospital to settle her appointment and also brought my grandpa out for a Father's Day breakfast.

Back to the school, i was informed that i was being appointed as a Supervisor for our school Jumpstart Launching at the Mall. So the first week of school was filled with preparation work for the launching. Briefing from the principal, rehearsing with the students, setting up the booth with the students and bla bla.

On the actual day of the launching, i was at the mall for more than 14 hours, starting from 8am to 10.30 pm. I never knew that i can work for such a long hour. But all the hard work was paid off. People were impressed and the most important thing is, our principal thanked us for that. That is what i think all leaders should do. At the end of the day, let your staff know that you appreciate what they have done for you.
Reached home at 11pm that night, slept at almost 12am and woke up at 4.30am to send my mom to the airport because she's going to KK then to Singapore for a vacation.
That morning, i arrived home at around 7am and slept through the whole morning until i was awaken by my hunger pang. Then i allowed myself to get lazy and do nothing for the rest of the day.

That's all about the things i have done recently. Can't say i am not happy with it because i'm the kind of people who would choose work to death rather than free to death. I also can't say i'm happy because there were times when i wished i could just ignore whatever responsibilities i have and just give myself a break.

You can see that it's all about my work because that is my life at the moment, it revolves around my job. I am glad and grateful that i manage to see and learn a lot of things in a very short time but i also dislike it because it makes me very exhausted every day and begin to neglect certain things in life. Things that are important, like my health, my quality time with my family, my dear and my friends. Eversince i became a group coordinator (like a form teacher), my period has become unstable and my hair fall has become worsen. My weight has increased too.

I realised a lot of time, good intentions often end up being twisted and misunderstood by others. A lot of miscommunication and a lot of the time, the main focus or issue being ignored.
I always have this feeling like you know something somewhere is wrong but you just can't do anything about it. How nice it would be if we could look at ourselves before we criticize others, if we could listen more before we conclude and if we could measure our heads before we decided to put on a hat that is too huge for us.

But that is life. Everything happens for a reason and it all depends on how you want to look at it. You can choose to look at its bright side and be thankful for its happening. Or, you can also look at it from a negative point of view and complain about it. I try to stick to the optimistic way but once in a while, i get lost and fell into the pessimistic side. That shows i am only human and i am happy to be an ordinary person.