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i'm yet to get familiar with tools here...lot to learn lor...

i feel so sad when reading news of the tsunami at Indian Ocean..yet i can't stop myself from reading more...everytime after finished reading..i'll feel how lucky we are to be here in Brunei...so peaceful..no natural disasters..well..maybe some mild one...and from the chinese newspaper yesterday...scientists in Japan predict a massive earthquake in Tokyo...it's going to happen at any time now...and Sumatra has been shift from its original position north-west or south-west( always confuse about north and south in chinese) for hundreds of..m or km...not sure...but it's a huge shift and the orientation of the earth is going to be slowed down because of the earthquake this time...the saddest part for me is....thousands of children died in this incident and many of the victims' families are forced to abandon their religion way for the funeral..haih...
wish i can do something to help...but i think..at the moment...money is the only way to help but even if i donate..it'll only provide little help for the sufferers...but if anyone has any idea where to donate..let me know oh...

ok..let's talk about some cheerful stuffs...i've got the letter from UBD..finally~
tomorrow i'll go to UBD to look for AR of FOS...and then...i'll be officially a student of FOS..hehe..at least something to look forward to for the coming semester..feel like it's a new beginning oh..hehe..actually i'm supposed to go there today..but my mom's away..need to stay at home for my 'family business'...so..no choice lah..
i'll go tomorrow morning...i want to know my schedule as soon as possible..so can arrange my own time table...honestly..i'm a bit worried too to start teaching tuition..a completely new thing for me...but think i can do it one lah...

my legs a bit hurt oh...exercise too hard maybe after a long break in between..but nevermind..
i figured out that..i'm very dependent on exercise...if i don't exercise for a long time..i'll start thinking i'm fat..i'm big and i'm getting sick inside me because i didn't sweat...weird hor...hope it's not a psychological problem...i'm just..need to be assured through exercise...i like it last time when i keep feeling myself is slim and fit..especially when i look at my reflection at mirror or any glass wall...but i've lost that feeling...need to get it back...when i'm confident in my look..i'm confident in everything...

i must remember never let myself envy somebody...or else i'll keep looking faults in myself and my self-esteem becomes incredibly low....well..i admit i'm silly...erm...a person who enter uni with one of the best grades in her form6 college envy someone who can't enter uni or other college she wants just because she's got prettier and richer? maybe my guy is right...i found those things great because i always look forward to simple life...but..i don't think the life i want is simple....work, love, family, money, pleasures, friends...erm..what else...i guess that's all...i thought that's very difficult to achieve...because if you want money..you need to get a high-pay job..and a high-pay job has a high price to pay...probably very pressurised or long working hour..
although i hope i can get one...i'm still suspecting is there any job which you can get high salary but do little work?? maybe mistress :P