friday..

chinese new year is coming...but i'm not excited at all..not in the new year mood..instead, i feel loads of assignments piling up...i think i probably won't go to labuan with my mom on sunday...wish to sleep for whole day long...

suddenly i'm very determined again to improve my health...how many times have i been saying this...quite a lot yeah..but everytime i just lost track...

wish i could just stay at home and rest in the afternoon...but i can't..have to go to school to compile all the data we'd got from yesterday pigeon watching..then have to buy steamboat ingredients for tomorrow's night..
i guess tonight i'll have to sleep early so i won't be too tired tomorrow after i reach home...
i always feel energetic in school..do everything that i should do...then still ok when i drive home..but by the time i step into my house, all the exhaustion just overwhelm me...so if i have to finish some work at home..i mustn't let myself rest first...'cause i'll never go back to my work again...
i feel like i've got so much to catch up..but i'm sure i can do it...as long as i make good use of my time...at first, i was thinking to finish the report for yesterday work by saturday..but it'd be too rush and don't think i can do a good one...so i think i'll just relax and enjoy the chinese new year first before settle down to do my work...
thank god the holiday is tuesday..if it's on wednesday, i'll have a lot of make-up classes..i don't like that..because me and tek ying are in the odd semester so it's hard to find a time for replacement class...our timetable always clashes with others'...
maybe i should try gambling this chinese new year...not that i don't know how to gamble..just..usually my desire to play only hit me once in a very long while...

have to think for a storyline for our computer project..have to make a short cartoon...hmm...i wonder does it have to do with what i'm studying..whenever i think of what to do for any project or presentation..the first thing that pop up in my mind is something about environment conservation...hehe..maybe it's hinting me my direction for the future...
last night on erm..i forgot which channel...it's either the national geographical or animal planet...i saw the process of an elephant giving birth to an offspring...the baby was sooooo cute...the mother is kept in captive..so the whole pregnancy was taken care by the professional people...it was a relief to see the elephant came out from his mother body...because the baby was once stucked in the birth canal and had possibility to be suffocated..in the end, the people gave the mother elephant a shot of oxytocin....i can't imagine what if the elephant were in the wild..who's there to offer help...but..nature always has its way to make things right i suppose...

i felt a bit guilty to talk about my family the way i did last week...i was too angry with them...till i forgot how much they have given me....
but now i've got over it...and i'm still glad with my own life...maybe sometimes i'll still complain about the number of things i need to do with so limited time..but i still love my life..still think i'm very fortunate...
a lot of the time..good and bad..are just like the sides of a coin...i hope i can always remember to toss the coin again when i have the bad side facing me...

nothing to do now...but i don't feel like touching books...i'll just read the practical schedule for tomorrow morning later at night...i'm more looking forward to the afternoon practical though..we're going to learn how to collect live specimen and how to prepare them into slides...
compare to lab practical..i really prefer field practical...like yesterday, we went to seri to observe the pigeons...my family think it's crazy...because i have to leave home before 6 in the morning...sometimes i just wish so much that i can talk about what i find interesting about my study with someone at home...
i found out that..although both are driving in darkness...driving in the morning is still different from driving at night...maybe because during the night, i know it's late..but in the morning, i know i can expect the sun is 'waking up' soon...but i can still remember the ease i felt when i passed the area where the lamp posts weren't working...i guess i just won't make a night person..