excited now

yesterday was fun.. we spent the whole afternoon at anna's place.. laughed so hard till my chest hurt.. ate so much that i felt bloated.. i love those times i spent with my girlfriends.. it's always laughters and jokes all the time.. hehe.. love them all.. we also talked about the tsunami.. i think my mom is cool.. all she said about the sms concerning the tsunami warning is 'it's just a lie'.. i did think about it but.. still ignored it before i slept.. scared or not.. it'd still come if it's really coming.. plus.. most of the houses in brunei are all along the coastal areas.. even the highway..

i'm going to KK.. later tonight.. wow wow wow! this is going to be my first flight eversince my hong kong trip in 1999.. feel very excited and a bit scared about it.. yeah scared.. because i'm going alone.. but it's very adventurous to me.. hehe.. my mom encourages me to go too.. because i've never had a vacation since long~ time ago... most of the time.. during my holidays.. i'm supposed to stay at home while my mom goes travelling..
at first.. i felt bit reluctant to go.. because of financial problem.. now turned out that i'm worrying too much... my mom paid for my tickets.. my dad gave me RM500 pocket money and even my sis contributed B$100.. so.. i don't have to spend as much as i initially thought i needed.. haih... if my result is not good enough.. i'll feel guilty to spend so much of their money eh.. making them proud of me is the best way i can think of to please them.. and my study is my only strength in this family... heard from mama that half of the class got supp and half fail and only 5 pass the physical chem.. meaning the probability for me to fail is higher than pass.. ok stop! now is not the time for that.. pass or fail.. at least i tried my best.. it's too late to worry about it now.. i should've studied harder before the exam.. not worrying and regretting when the result is almost out..

i'll miss my dear.. and my family.. definitely... but i'm anticipating fun.. hehe.. i can shop like crazy there.. one of my relatives mentioned that there are more shopping centres now.. oh my god.. and all the delicious food...yummy~~ the relatives i'm going to stay with love japanese food.. pun sia sia~ eversince lizzy went abroad.. i haven't eaten any japanese food oh.. have i?? hm.. cant remember.. i don't think so..

i'm glad that my mom is very happy when i told her i'm going.. she's been suggesting me to go since.. ages ago.. my relatives there too sounded happy according to my mom.. when she told them i'm going... feel a bit nervous actually... i'm not good at mingling with people.. and i haven't met them since last year.. hope i won't let them down.. they're close with my mom.. letting them down will indirectly let my mom down too..

i'm coming back on tuesday night.. can't wait for my vacation to start.. finally it's my turn to go out.. hehe..

i miss my mom.. she just came back from labuan on the day before yesterday and this morning she has left to KK.. miss her so much... she's the most important person in this family.. everyone relies on her a lot.. this is the conclusion i make during the time she's not around..
i really adore my mom.. she's my idol.. when she's not around.. and the maid not around too.. i realized i'm like an idiot in a lot of things.. it's bit ironic.. people look up on me because of my study.. but so what i'm an undergraduate.. there's so much things in life i've yet to learn..
i always envy my cousins and friends who don't study well but good in arts or handicraft..
a person won't starve to death if he/she can't study but for people like me.. who can study but don't know much about practical life.. what can i do if i'm to stop my study now?? i don't have a degree.. don't have any skills..
ok.. stop being depressive.. i guess it's all because my mom's not around.. really miss her..

i don't celebrate christmas.. but i always believe christmas is a festival for family gathering or reunion... this year.. my sis going to empire.. fook in kk with my mom.. ping will be out... thank god i have dear.. he'll come to keep me company...
then.. i feel a bit proud.. like both my brothers have grown up..especially ping... he's really helpful and cooperative..

no one is home so i can't make it for the hang-out on sunday.. if it's jadi..

i've spent a few hundreds dollars.. for christmas gifts.. but i love the feeling of giving gifts to my family on christmas.. love the pink shirt i bought for my niece. so lovely..
and i'm so glad that my sis and mom like the gifts i bought for them..

haih... once again... in my holiday.. i have to take charge of the house.. haven't really felt rested eversince the exam... maybe have to wait till next week.. when my mom's back from KK..

my trip to miri ah... hmm.. tired.. the shopping started right after breakfast.. i spent about B$300 oh... but now i don't have to worry about chinese new year.. it's likely that we'll start studying on the third or fourth day of chinese new year.. so no need to buy lots of new clothes.. though i think i'm going to buy some more if i have a few more shopping trips..

christmas is coming~ in a week time.. but this year.. can't spend with my family.. fook and my mom will be away.. think ping won't be home too.. maybe i can spend the day preparing the gifts for them.. i'm not the type who likes to give presents to people all the time.. but i do love the process of looking for and wrapping gifts on special occassions.. christmas is one of them..
now i've got things to wear on the first day of chinese new year.. i allow myself to spend money with more ease..

dear bought me a new bag... it's going to be the most expensive school bag for me oh..
erm.. lizzy... yup.. i'm still with him *blush* talk to you when you're back

then.. i probably won't stop my aerobics.. need to keep fit.. actually lose some weights.. i have gained some extra fats during the exam weeks..

quite a lot of things happened lately.. feel like i've just gone through some lessons about life..

i'm back back back... after almost one week since my last exam

sorry mi.. didn't check my mail last night.. then.. i'll try to go to you guys tomorrow night.. if i come back from miri early... i can't go there on saturday night.. not sure about sunday.. really sorry oh.. next week will be fine..

yup i'm going to miri tomorrow.. finally~~ but i need to hold back myself from spending too much.. tomorrow morning we're leaving very early.. because me and siao are fasting tonight... we're planning to do medical check-up tomorrow.. i never have any... feel bit excited about it..

mama.. my turn to send the maid back to the agent.. we decided that we've had enough with her.. thank god now is my holiday.. so we're not in a hurry to have a maid.. i told my mom i can help.. so i better be more initiatives..

should i talk about the exam?? hmm.. i think i did better in chemistry than in bio.. not sure if i can get another A in japanese..mama and i were like.. our first target was to get at least a B for chemistry.. then towards the end of the sem, we thought C was enough... during revision week.. D was quite impressive.. and after the exam, an E is very enough... hehe...i love doing pair revision.. or group study.. provided everyone works at the same pace.. it was fun to revise with mama and tek ying.. for those i did pair-revision.. the exams were ok.. but for those i revised by my own... not so well-prepared..

ok.. talking about my holiday.. feel bit empty.. no plan at all.. but i try to make sure i keep a good sleeping pattern.. wake up and sleep early...
tomorrow going to miri.. i can't wait to go shopping.. but i can't spend too much there.. because i want to shop in brunei too..

hm.. sometimes got a feeling like everyone has been waiting for me to have holiday.. i've been asked to do this and that eversince i finished the last exam.. but not too often.. i still managed to take afternoon nap.. hehe.. and i think i'll stop my aerobic classes this month.. since i have the time now.. i can just exercise on my own.. actually i just want to save the money.. so i can do other things with it.. like.. movie.. shopping.. although it's not much.. still it can help.. enough to buy a new handbag.. or 4 to 5 CLEO and FEMALE... oh~ i miss reading those magazines..

contact wth you again tomorrow night year mi..