the supp is out... and the list is shorter compare to the last semester one.. a good sign i hope..

my mom's in singapore now.. won't be back before saturday.. then next week i'll be the one away.. i miss my mom... don't like the idea that she's not home... but at the same time... i feel glad for her too.. because she deserves the vacation.. i think everyone, especially housewives and mothers, should give themselves a break once in a while..

got a feeling i'm going to bring lots and lots of things with me this time for the field course.. because i'm bringing my car.. i thought of bringing 3 pairs of sport shoes and 2 pairs of slippers.. but i'll cut them down to 3 pairs of footwears.. thought of bringing pop mie but think i'll just bring light snacks.. thought of bringing my foot lotion... but think i'll just bring one type of body lotion.. i begin to believe i'm more like a city girl.. that's why i like rural areas.. but it's hard for me to live there.. a holiday will be just fine..
somehow.. i'm not an outgoing person too... and more and more often now that i avoid crowds.. i feel suffocated when surrounded by people i'm not familiar with.. even if they're my relatives or friends.. more and more often.. i prefer to stay at home.. read, watch tv, surf online and listen to any conversations.. i remember i used to talk a lot before.. back in secondary school.. but now.. i don't like talking.. getting bad at it.. and only talk more when i'm with a particular person.. when that person is not around.. i just can't bring myself to talk much..
my god.. am i getting shy or timid.. hm.. it took me more than half a year to be able to talk like normal with those aunties at the aerobic centre.. i know i should be more outspoken but my preference for keeping quiet is getting stronger.. out of the blue i just decided that i'm not a tactful speaker and hence should just listen..

i realised that.. biology is something i'm interested to learn.. but being a biologist.. seems like not my cup of tea..

there are lots of stuffs going through my mind.. but.. somehow i can't bring myself to blog them.. because erm... don't know.. just before i realise, i've got used to keeping things to myself.. or between me and dear.. maybe that's the reason why i feel lonesome... but i believe i'm the one who isolate myself from others..

me, lizzy, mimi, lini and mama went to eat satay last saturday night.. i enjoyed listening to their conversation.. joke is never missing when they're talking..
i miss nining and su yee eh.. must ask nining out when i'm back from merimbun... this week.. can't go out for long.. have to stay at home... fook got extra classes and tuitions too.. and something's wrong with my car.. hopefully ah luck can fix it tomorrow..
and i also hope i can lose those unwanted weights i gained in the past few months *sniff *sniff