tomorrow i'm going to wear my mom's shirt... miss her... but i know she's having a great time in singapore.. so.. nevermind..
this time.. my cousin stays with us.. which is very good thing to me.. at least i don't have to worry about cooking.. and our new maid is very capable.. so it's actually a lot easier for me this time.. and having someone to sleep by my side at night assures me that i'm not alone...
seems like i'm very 'allergic' to loneliness..

father's day is coming... and i feel... listless.. i have a father who.. is no longer the father i used to know... maybe he never is.. things just become clearer as i grow up... sometimes i hate growing up.. because lots of things are not longer simple.. but i wish i could grow faster so i can replace my father and become the one to support my family..
haih... father's day... reminds me of things i don't wish to remember...
nevermind.. i can still celebrate it for my grandpa.. he's much cuter than him..
not that i don't like his precious son... as a kid, he is cute.. but.. it's his identity that makes everything complicated.. i don't hate him... but i can't accept him.. to me, i only have 1 sister and 2 brothers..

been staying at home or hang out with my family for this holiday so far.. i begin to feel bit nervous when i think of spending one whole week with my classmates..

will the results come out tomorrow... i hope so.. since i'm going to ubd.. wish to know how good or bad i did..

sometimes.. i feel overprotected.. maybe that's how i become ignorant..