lizzy's gone back to calgary.. i'm missing her already today... then i realized no matter how many times she comes back and leaves.. i'll still have that urge to cry when she's leaving.. so it's a wise decision that i'll only send her off at the airport on the first time.. crying at public places is something i don't like to do..

i'm a very very lazy person.. i like to swim.. wish to learn dancing and yoga.. but.. everytime i'll tell myself and others that i need to o all the way to bandar to learn those.. the nearest place will be jpmc i think.. so i'll leave it till i work in bandar.. by that time i'd have no financial problem regarding those.. come to think of it.. maybe i'm just lazy... with the monthly allowance i'm getting.. i should have enough money to pay for those.. i just.. don't like to drive.. perhaps the first thing i should do is hire a driver :p

i just came back from miri yesterday...spent quite a lot on books and magazines.. felt very excited the moment i found out that i can buy those books from taiwan at Popular bookstore in miri.. bought 2 books about beauty and keeping fit.. then magazines.. oh i love the free bag that comes with the FEMALE this month.. it's soo lovely... can't wait to use it.. too bad it's not big enough to be my school bag.. i usually bring quite a lot of stuffs to school.. so i need a big bag... besides, i've got a new school bag.. bought it together with nining.. we're going to use the same school bags..

reading those two books i bought really inspired me a lot.. it suddenly became clear to me that i should work on my mind first before i try all means to lose weight.. another thing i learnt is.. no matter how much fatter i've become.. i should never stop to dress up.. never give up on keeping a good look.. confidence seems to be the key factor in deciding whether the person can win or lose the battle with weights.. what i love about the books is.. they teach us to do little change in our life that can bring a huge benefits in long term..
for the last few weeks.. there will be days when i got really depressed about my weight.. till i didn't even want to step out of my house.. from now on.. i'll try to get rid of those negative thoughts..

i think i should have a change about my attitude in life.. i need more tolerance with things or people i don't like.. need to be more tactful in talking.. i can have very bad manner at times... and lose patience easily... i think i should start to appreciate more the things i have.. and be more helpful.. less selfish.. more open-minded...

hm.. can't wait to go back to uni..