holiday

yesterday i went to the job fair at ICC. Wow! it was crowded with people. With so many people around, i couldn't think of what questions to ask. Hmm.. something i need to overcome yeah.
But i still managed to ask few questions, got few flyers. Now i feel very grateful to UBD for wanting us to do major and minor at the same time. Because with my degree in biology, it's not easy to get a job in the private sectors. My minor chemistry has earned me more options, since chemistry seems like the science that is most preferred.

this week, i've been staying at home. Didn't go to any aerobic classes because need to look after my niece and nephew. I believe that at this stage, i'm not ready to be a mother yet. I don't have the patience.
for people like me, we believe that to have a family, to have kids, we need lots of money. Is that mean subconsciously, we're going to spoil our kids with all the good stuffs, making their life easy and smooth? Look at some people, they don't have lots of money and yet lead a happy life.
From what i see in my life, the more money you have, the more problems you'll come across. Unless, you're still the same person even though you've become richer. There are lots of people who have high salary every month and at the same time, have lots of debts to pay for. I hope i'll remain the same me next time, no matter how much i earn.

wow! in two weeks time, i'll be in singapore. can't wait for it. honestly, i feel bit frustrated when people give me some tasks during my trip. I have to bring cakes and keropok udang from brunei to singapore to pass to my cousin there, one of my cousins here asked me to buy a bottle of wine when i reach singapore as her gift to my mom's friend there, then one of my aunts told me to buy her camera battery and 'ba kua', my cousin there will ask me to bring her insurance fee back to brunei to her mom and another aunt of mine will ask her friend to pass me the medicine my aunt wants.
I'm not happy with all that. I know, all of them are simple tasks. But for me, i hardly go abroad. Finally i have a chance, all i want to do is relax and enjoy my trip. I only have 2 days there, strictly speaking. But with all those things i need to do, my mood of vacation is spoiled. If i don't have any tasks to do, i'd just have to go with the flow. But now, i have to plan my time, have to squeeze in time to meet my cousins and auntie there. I'd love to meet them but i was thinking, if i don't have the time, i can leave that out. Now, it becomes a must to meet them. and the thing is, i'm not going alone. haih.. hopefully i can find a way out so i can finish all the tasks and yet manage to enjoy myself there.
Maybe things aren't as bad as i think now. we'll see
I actually wish i had the gut to turn them down but, that's not good.
am i too.. erm.. selfish?

i'll try to find job related to my qualification. If i were to look for jobs that allow me to learn new things now, i have no idea which field i'd like to start with. It suddenly hits me that i chose biological science because i love to study biology at the first place. Sometimes looking back really helps me to make up my mind. Because i'll remember what was the primary reason behind and then i just have to keep to the track. No point making my life complicated by giving myself too many choices till i can't decide.