I didn't buy a brand new car. I've bought myself a Mitsubishi Colt, a second hand one. I don't have any dream car, nor am i passionate about car. So i just got myself one that i can drive around and most importantly, able to finish the loan without much problem and shorter time.
I understand many people like to have big family cars, whether or not they have a family. Because they think sooner or later, they're going to need a family car. They have a point. But at the moment, what i'm more worried about is the money. As long as i get a job before the month i receive my last salary, i am confident that i can finish off the loan within 2 years.
I notice i like to explain a lot for most of my decisions, fearing of disapproval from anyone that matter to me. Though, i'll still insist on what i want to do even if people are against it.
I am grateful, because my mom, my dad and sister helped me with the payment. All i have to do now is pay them back the money, instead of full loans with the bank. But i also feel guilty to Ping. If i were not me, if i were one of my siblings or close cousins, i'd probably hate me. It probably seems to them that i always have what they want, without working hard for it. I didn't search very hard for this car, i didn't really encounter any serious problem to get my current job and i didn't even ask any of my parents or sis to help me with the payment. I know i am blessed. So i will try my best to appreciate what i have and cherish my family.
There's one thing that really gets on my nerve lately - my pay. I've been working for 3 months without getting paid. It's annoying. If i could get paid every month on time, then i wouldn't have to borrow so much money for buying this car. And i think my working mood is badly affected. There's no motivation to go for work, just thinking of the late salary. I was first told that the salary is normally late by a month. As i started to work, it turned out to be late by one and a half month, slowly 2 months and now it's been late for 3 months. Each of us takes turn to call and ask, and the answer we always get is they have processed it, it'll be out soon, just have to wait.
Excuse me, how soon is their soon? A month? Can they imagine how we feel? Do they understand that us too need money to live?
My family always think i am a patient person. Hm.. has the waiting killed my patience? These few days, the question 'can i sue them?' keep popping up in my mind. Of course i know i can't, but i wish so badly to do so.
Well, maybe patience is never in my blood. I'm just used to avoid conflicts. I don't mind to be taken advantage of, as long as i can maintain the peaceful atmosphere around me. Hmm.. i'm 'allergic' to noise and arguement is a kind of noise pollution to me.
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