I'm doing good :)

Old ladies, thanks for your comments. I'm doing alright now.
I had a long conversation with dear after posting my previous post.

What i realized is, if even me don't respect myself, how can i expect others to respect me?
By giving in all the time not necessary means pleasing others. I shouldn't neglect my own needs and desires, thinking i'm doing someone else a favor. If i don't make myself happy, how can i bring happiness to others?
I'm glad that dear made me see that point.

I wish the new maid could be here sooner. My heels start to crack, i'm getting darker and my house is getting untidy. I mean, not as tidy as when we have a maid. I hope the coming one will be as good as the previous one.
I admire those people who are willing to leave their homeland to make a living in another country. Because i'm not sure if i'm willing to do that. I always feel more secure and comfortable in my own country, my place, my room and on my own bed. Though, i do feel a strong sense of belonging whenever i travel to countries where the major population is chinese, like hong kong and singapore.

I have checked with the acting AR. She told me that i am accepted for the right master programme but the AR of FBEPS have put my name under the wrong list when she sent it to the admin. So now i have to wait for another letter of offer, the correct one, before taking any action. Yeah, waiting again~ but at least i know i've got a place there.
Wonder will i get the teaching post at wasan.. it's been a month since my interview and last time my colleague waited for 2 months to get an answer. I hope i can get the job because i really like the environment of the school, far from the city, very 'green' and serene.

I really think getting a day time job now will be helpful for me. At least it can keep me away from my house so i can stop thinking i'm super-important in this house.
I'm not my mom, how can i judge for her about what is right and what is wrong?

I miss hiking. Miss the view of beautiful scenery, miss the height. I still love yoga but if given a choice, i still prefer doing something outdoor. I think biking is a great sport but these days the bikes are so expensive. I don't think it's worthed buying one when i'm not sure whether the interest will last long.
Haih.. none of my family members are passionate about exercise. I think having a workout buddy is the best way to stick to one sport but i never have one. And i'm too shy to take initiative to make new friend.
I also wish to learn bellydance one day. I think under the layers of my laziness, i'm actually a sport-lover at heart. But most of the time, i'm drowned in the sea of my laziness.