medical report is out..

so on thursday i'll be seeing the doctor (oh no, the waiting~) and then if possible, send it to to the Dept of Technical Education. Or else, i'll just have to wait till saturday morning to send it. Thought i could start on the first day of august but oh well, think on a bright side, saturday is not a good day to start for me because usually, i am exhausted on friday night and will extend my sleeping time in the next morning.
I kind of hate this feeling, it's like .. i have no control of what is going to happen next. i like to keep things simple and straightforward and i really really really hate feeling suspense. When i watch a movie, i like to have an ending, sad or happy but not those types where you're left with a huge space to imagine what is the possible ending. I guess that's why i feel so depressed during the job hunt, when i had to wait for something which might or might not come to me.

For my friends out there, if we are close enough and you're still single, please don't mind about me keep asking you to find a lover. I may be a little bit too naggy but i have no intention to show off about me having a bf oh. I realized today that i may be too busybody, when meimei told me that i always urge her to find a boyfriend whenever we meet. What does it have to do with me when people dont have a boyfriend or girlfriend? But, it's really wonderful to have someone special, at least you know that no matter what happen, someone will always be there for you.
Yeah, some people think bestfriends are more reliable than boyfriend. But in my case, i'm used to turn to dear for everything because he understands me better than anyone else. Maybe also because in his eyes, i'm never the bad guy. That is very comforting for me.

One more thing, today meimei reminded me that lee shi is single too. I was like, yeah hor!
SZ said yung soon is single too because he wants to focus on making money for the coming 5 years. When he has the money, girls will come to him. I told SZ, 'Yeah lor, those girls that go to him are the 'leftovers', the good one are already married by that time'
Ooppsss... no offfence people. It's just the first thing that came to my mind and I normally say all kinds of stupid, funny things when talking with certain friends.
In fact, i think that's one of the main reasons why i become a quiet person. I just don't think many people can endure my sense of humour, let along the fact that i'm blunt in talking sometimes. So, being quiet can save me from unnecessary conflicts.

These days i start to think having a career and starting a family are two things that can be done at the same time. When you have your own family, you'd be more motivated to pursue a career. When you have a career, you'll want to have someone to share your achievements. Right?
Yes, i know very well that a great sum of money is needed for a wedding. So i am curious, who is the person who started the idea that wedding must be grand? I always think my dream wedding will be something simple and warmth. Yeah, i think, just i think.

Dear has gone back to miri this week. I miss him a bit badly. He's been here for the past month and although it's still just chatting on the web, i just feel closer to him when he's in the same town with me. Have to start all over again to get used to meeting on weekends.

I'm bad at keeping in touch with friends, so i always feel sad when my friend is going oversea. I'm not keen in chatting, not keen in facebooking, not keen in keeping up with whatever new facility or networking in the web.. i'm only keen in meeting in persons, and maybe emailing (i actually prefer snail mail). When i read the old ladies' blog, most of the time, i wouldn't think of leaving comments. Because i just want to know how they are and what they're up to lately. It only occurs to me some time later that oh yeah, i can leave a comment or something. Then when i meet with someone who i haven't met for months or years, i always wonder will that person think i've changed? have i changed into someone less interesting? am i boring to hang out with?
Hmm.. am i thinking too much?

I've got more things to say but it's very late now, 20 more mins to midnight. Got to sleep