I'm attending the 15th International Conference on Education (ICE) 2010. It is such a great pleassure. For teachers like me, who don't have education background, this conference is incredibly helpful. I've learnt quite a lot in these 2 days. Tomorrow will be the last day for me. There's educational visit on thursday but i'm not going. First, it's mainly for oversea participants. Secondly, i prefer to go back to school to finish off my work. Got some markings and mark entries to do before the course team meeting next week.
I like it when i'm sent to attend workshop or conference. DOn't get me wrong. I like it not because i don't have to teach. Actually, it brings more inconvenience than convenience. Because of this conference, i have to ask my colleagues to relieve my classes, have to bring forward or postpone things i want to do at school and miss the assembly tomorrow.
But on the good side, it motivates me and makes me feel more enthusiatic about my job. It's like, the more you learn about something, the more hooked on you become. Unfortunately, i notice not everyone appreciates the opportunity of attending conference. The registration fee is not cheap and we're sent there to gain new knowledge and meet people. For example, i'm ungrateful in a way that i don't attend the conference dinner. It's included in the fee and that is the best time to talk to those oversea presenters or participants. I'm yet to learn about networking with people. To compensate that, i make sure i get as much knowledge and information as i can during the conference or workshops.
From the conference, i realise that is so much more i need to learn. I need to acquire critical thinking skill, as well as higher order thinking. My goal is one day, i'll be able to ask the presenters questions or at least, give good and reasonable comments on their presentations.
Outside the hall, there is a stall selling motivation poster. I bought 2 (influenced by my colleague) that say 'Life may be short but it's really wide' and 'Only positive attitudes allowed beyond this point'. I'm going to put one up on my bedroom wall and one near my working desk in school. There are actually more to buy but i have to remind myself i have overspent this month. There's another really nice one that says 'Learn from the mistakes of others, you can't make them all yourself'. Isn't that true??
I hope tomorrow i won't be tempted to buy more posters or books there. Books are definitely worthed investing on but not so good to buy a few books that talk about similar things.
Spend money wisely.
I started to cough since this morning. Oh no... it's very disturbing when people are giving talks in front.
This friday i'm going fishing with my colleagues. Erm.. they are going fishing. I'm just going there to hang out. I still find it cruel to fish. I do eat fish but when i see the fish's mouth is pierced by the fishing hook, i just feel sooooo sorry for it. Imagine someone pierce your mouth that way. Oh gosh~ I just don't see the excitement in it.
Once in a while, i am thinking about going vegetarian one day. Well, we'll see.
That's all for now. Take care, old ladies.
*hugssss*
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
hmm.. hmm..
i'm feeling a bit lost, because dear is working in miri now. I'm not worried about this long-distance relationship (should i say short-distance?). Maybe because he used to study there before this. So, if we can survive through those 3 years, there's no reason we can't do it now. Plus, we can still meet each other every weekend.
I am clear that myself is the type of people who likes to do one thing at a time. For me, now is like i can do things i want to do like continuing my work or do some exercises at night on weekdays. Then when dear is back on the weekend, i can just chill with him. I'm also grateful that because of our situation, we're not the sort of couples who spend most of their time together. So it's quite easy for me to adjust. What i still can't fit in is, the way people look at me or talk to me when they found out dear is in miri while i'm here. 'Not very good for you,' they will say.
Well, i wonder, is there any standard way in how couples should date?
A colleague once said, when you keep defending yourself, that shows you're guilty.
I agreed. Because i realise the time when i keep explaining things is when i'm inconfident with myself. To explain is just for me to get more support. I need to feel that people agree with me.
So, when i keep assuring people that it's ok for me and dear to work at different countries, am i worried?
Hm.. no i don't. I'm not worried. The only thing that i need to get over with is, sometimes he probably can't be with me when i need him. But i'm quite an independent person, so should be alright.
Honestly, i feel very glad that we both are working now. Like, we both are doing something for our future.
Next semester, i'll be very busy. Will be teaching 6 subjects, 4 biotech and 2 fish. I'm not so worried about the biology subjects. But i do hope i can cope with the schedule and also the new subjects i'll be teaching, like the 2 fisheries subjects. They think i can teach, so i'll try. I don't want to question so much now because it hasn't happened yet. So, for this june holiday, i'm sure i won't be bored at work. Cannot afford to be laid back like last december.
I still want to see how far i can stretch myself, want to find out what is the maximum hours i can handle.
But i will try to blog no matter how busy. It provides me an opportunity to talk to myself. Through blogging, i can read my own mind better.
These days, a lot of words are going around. I try my best to stay neutral, not to be influenced by anyone. It's hard but when i realized i manage to do that, i feel accomplished.
at this stage, my expectation for myself are:
work hard, learn more, get healthy, more giving than taking
Hehe, the last one is a bit hard for me. I can be calculative at times. Like, i can be very nice to you but you have to reciprocate. Or else, i'll feel advantage being taken of me.
But come to think about it, at first place, i'm the one who offer to help. No one force me to do that. Hehe it's really hard for me to learn to give without asking for return. But i'll try.
I'm not trying to be a Yes Woman but i want to open myself to more options in life. Give everything a try because only then i can find out what is the right one for me.
I am clear that myself is the type of people who likes to do one thing at a time. For me, now is like i can do things i want to do like continuing my work or do some exercises at night on weekdays. Then when dear is back on the weekend, i can just chill with him. I'm also grateful that because of our situation, we're not the sort of couples who spend most of their time together. So it's quite easy for me to adjust. What i still can't fit in is, the way people look at me or talk to me when they found out dear is in miri while i'm here. 'Not very good for you,' they will say.
Well, i wonder, is there any standard way in how couples should date?
A colleague once said, when you keep defending yourself, that shows you're guilty.
I agreed. Because i realise the time when i keep explaining things is when i'm inconfident with myself. To explain is just for me to get more support. I need to feel that people agree with me.
So, when i keep assuring people that it's ok for me and dear to work at different countries, am i worried?
Hm.. no i don't. I'm not worried. The only thing that i need to get over with is, sometimes he probably can't be with me when i need him. But i'm quite an independent person, so should be alright.
Honestly, i feel very glad that we both are working now. Like, we both are doing something for our future.
Next semester, i'll be very busy. Will be teaching 6 subjects, 4 biotech and 2 fish. I'm not so worried about the biology subjects. But i do hope i can cope with the schedule and also the new subjects i'll be teaching, like the 2 fisheries subjects. They think i can teach, so i'll try. I don't want to question so much now because it hasn't happened yet. So, for this june holiday, i'm sure i won't be bored at work. Cannot afford to be laid back like last december.
I still want to see how far i can stretch myself, want to find out what is the maximum hours i can handle.
But i will try to blog no matter how busy. It provides me an opportunity to talk to myself. Through blogging, i can read my own mind better.
These days, a lot of words are going around. I try my best to stay neutral, not to be influenced by anyone. It's hard but when i realized i manage to do that, i feel accomplished.
at this stage, my expectation for myself are:
work hard, learn more, get healthy, more giving than taking
Hehe, the last one is a bit hard for me. I can be calculative at times. Like, i can be very nice to you but you have to reciprocate. Or else, i'll feel advantage being taken of me.
But come to think about it, at first place, i'm the one who offer to help. No one force me to do that. Hehe it's really hard for me to learn to give without asking for return. But i'll try.
I'm not trying to be a Yes Woman but i want to open myself to more options in life. Give everything a try because only then i can find out what is the right one for me.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Another monday
Yeah i have been quite busy recently, i think most of us are busy.
But don't worry about me. I guess, the more busy i am, the happier i feel. Busy means i'm learning something, or i'm productive.
I'm so in love with my optimism these days :p
Recently i keep hearing tales about hysteria cases in Tutong. Is that a coincidence or what?
For me, all forms of life are to be respected. Unfortunately, many of the people around me do not think so. I felt helpless last time when i saw the students playing the earthworms during the open day. But when my superiors also did the same, what was i supposed to do? I am still a freshie trying to learn how to behave in a world of office politics.
The Science department has moved in, or is still moving in. One good thing is, i get to work with more young seniors. I hope i can learn more things.
For some unknown reasons, i feel so tired today. So i'm going to sleep early. Forget about the stretches lah *guilty*
Dear is likely to start working in Miri soon. Very soon. I'm going to miss him...
Some people may think working in brunei is better because of our curency. But i think, as a freshie, gaining experience and knowledge is far more important than the money. After all, we're still young and fresh from uni, no one will expect us to be rich. Plus, money will come your way once you have lots of experience and knowledge. Of course, it all depends on what you want for your life. Everyone thinks differently. In my case, perhaps i never have any serious financial problem, so earning slightly less doesn't matter to me. I'm not saying money is not important. It's still important to be paid accordingly.
i just feel disappointed at times when i see people around me go after money blindly. Owning a branded item doesn't mean anything special to me. But apparently, to many of them out there, it does show something. I think that is very unhealthy and i hope i won't become one of them in the future. People change as time pass so one day i might become someone i am so despising now. Who knows...
Whatever it is, i hope i'll never forget to love myself for who i am. I always believe before you can love anyone, you must be able to love yourself first.
Recent thought in my mind: Maybe i should begin a LOHAS lifestyle.
But don't worry about me. I guess, the more busy i am, the happier i feel. Busy means i'm learning something, or i'm productive.
I'm so in love with my optimism these days :p
Recently i keep hearing tales about hysteria cases in Tutong. Is that a coincidence or what?
For me, all forms of life are to be respected. Unfortunately, many of the people around me do not think so. I felt helpless last time when i saw the students playing the earthworms during the open day. But when my superiors also did the same, what was i supposed to do? I am still a freshie trying to learn how to behave in a world of office politics.
The Science department has moved in, or is still moving in. One good thing is, i get to work with more young seniors. I hope i can learn more things.
For some unknown reasons, i feel so tired today. So i'm going to sleep early. Forget about the stretches lah *guilty*
Dear is likely to start working in Miri soon. Very soon. I'm going to miss him...
Some people may think working in brunei is better because of our curency. But i think, as a freshie, gaining experience and knowledge is far more important than the money. After all, we're still young and fresh from uni, no one will expect us to be rich. Plus, money will come your way once you have lots of experience and knowledge. Of course, it all depends on what you want for your life. Everyone thinks differently. In my case, perhaps i never have any serious financial problem, so earning slightly less doesn't matter to me. I'm not saying money is not important. It's still important to be paid accordingly.
i just feel disappointed at times when i see people around me go after money blindly. Owning a branded item doesn't mean anything special to me. But apparently, to many of them out there, it does show something. I think that is very unhealthy and i hope i won't become one of them in the future. People change as time pass so one day i might become someone i am so despising now. Who knows...
Whatever it is, i hope i'll never forget to love myself for who i am. I always believe before you can love anyone, you must be able to love yourself first.
Recent thought in my mind: Maybe i should begin a LOHAS lifestyle.
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Wow!
It's really a big WOW! I haven't got the time to read any of your blogs lately.
Ok, first:
CONGRATULATIONS MAMA! You've got the monthly-paid offer! Looking forward to your new car~ and mine too ;) Let's see whose car arrive first.
Then, i remember during my final semester in uni, i didn't fail the exam but it was just like failed to me. I had always been one of the top students wherever i went. So it was a bit devastating for me when i didn't do well for my last exam. I got a C for that and to the me at that time, C is just like an F. Somehow, i forgot that it's the journey that matters, not the destination. Now when i think about it, i'm glad that i encountered that before my graduation. It's like a wake-up call for me.
'Hey girl, you're not always the best. There are ups and downs in life, you're not going to be always at the winner side.'
Since then, it became easier for me to accept my faults and flaws.
But of course, i am so blessed that there's always someone by my side that will keep telling me that i have the potential, whether it's during study time or now in the office.
So sometimes i joke to myself. If all of them are right, then not bad huh. I have the potential in almost everything, such a genius!
Recently, i've been soooo busy. Preparing for exam questions, marking assignments and reports, moderating papers and interviewing new candidates.
I really have no idea how to judge whether a person is a good or bad candidate. I can only judge by my own intuition. I guess, when the school is new, with critical staff-shortages, that's the way to go. Young, inexperienced teachers interviewing future candidates. I wonder what kind of students i'll get next time.
These days i feel helpless. I just want to be myself. But sometimes, it seems like just being myself, not taking sides or not involving in any politics, is still offensive to certain people. These days people are so free, can think so much and so far.
Nevermind, i just have to keep myself optimistic. Because i believe good things only happen to positive thinkers. A pessmistic person can never realize how much he or she has.
I'm thinking to take up a Diploma course in finance or business. But i don't want to pay with installment. So i'll save maybe $200 every month until i got enough money to pay for 1 sem. I plan to study it at Laksamana. It's not accredited by Brunei here but it's recognized globally. If i choose to take BDTVEC courses, it's likely that i can get scholarship from the government. But, i think this time, i want to rely entirely on myself, just to make myself happy.
Oh yeah! I should learn to shut my mouth. It's sooo easy to start a conversation of complaint. I have come to realize that how fast and effective words get spread, be it spread within a school, outside the school or even the whole country. Brunei is such a small country and everyone seems to know each other.
Just shut up and do my work. The other day i was complaining to someone how frustrated i was at work. Then also told her i want to lose weight. She believed that i am not happy with my life.
I guess that's because her definition of happy life is different from mine. Don't worry people. I appreciate what i have in life and i enjoy what i'm doing now. But i do learn something out of this. When people don't think like you do, it doesn't mean any one of you are wronged. We just have to accept that in life, everyone is unique and should respect each other's uniqueness. Because that's what make life beautiful.
Hmm... i miss my yoga class. Miss the stretching actually.
Lastly, good news to myself! I have managed to lose 2 kg. Yea~
Ok, first:
CONGRATULATIONS MAMA! You've got the monthly-paid offer! Looking forward to your new car~ and mine too ;) Let's see whose car arrive first.
Then, i remember during my final semester in uni, i didn't fail the exam but it was just like failed to me. I had always been one of the top students wherever i went. So it was a bit devastating for me when i didn't do well for my last exam. I got a C for that and to the me at that time, C is just like an F. Somehow, i forgot that it's the journey that matters, not the destination. Now when i think about it, i'm glad that i encountered that before my graduation. It's like a wake-up call for me.
'Hey girl, you're not always the best. There are ups and downs in life, you're not going to be always at the winner side.'
Since then, it became easier for me to accept my faults and flaws.
But of course, i am so blessed that there's always someone by my side that will keep telling me that i have the potential, whether it's during study time or now in the office.
So sometimes i joke to myself. If all of them are right, then not bad huh. I have the potential in almost everything, such a genius!
Recently, i've been soooo busy. Preparing for exam questions, marking assignments and reports, moderating papers and interviewing new candidates.
I really have no idea how to judge whether a person is a good or bad candidate. I can only judge by my own intuition. I guess, when the school is new, with critical staff-shortages, that's the way to go. Young, inexperienced teachers interviewing future candidates. I wonder what kind of students i'll get next time.
These days i feel helpless. I just want to be myself. But sometimes, it seems like just being myself, not taking sides or not involving in any politics, is still offensive to certain people. These days people are so free, can think so much and so far.
Nevermind, i just have to keep myself optimistic. Because i believe good things only happen to positive thinkers. A pessmistic person can never realize how much he or she has.
I'm thinking to take up a Diploma course in finance or business. But i don't want to pay with installment. So i'll save maybe $200 every month until i got enough money to pay for 1 sem. I plan to study it at Laksamana. It's not accredited by Brunei here but it's recognized globally. If i choose to take BDTVEC courses, it's likely that i can get scholarship from the government. But, i think this time, i want to rely entirely on myself, just to make myself happy.
Oh yeah! I should learn to shut my mouth. It's sooo easy to start a conversation of complaint. I have come to realize that how fast and effective words get spread, be it spread within a school, outside the school or even the whole country. Brunei is such a small country and everyone seems to know each other.
Just shut up and do my work. The other day i was complaining to someone how frustrated i was at work. Then also told her i want to lose weight. She believed that i am not happy with my life.
I guess that's because her definition of happy life is different from mine. Don't worry people. I appreciate what i have in life and i enjoy what i'm doing now. But i do learn something out of this. When people don't think like you do, it doesn't mean any one of you are wronged. We just have to accept that in life, everyone is unique and should respect each other's uniqueness. Because that's what make life beautiful.
Hmm... i miss my yoga class. Miss the stretching actually.
Lastly, good news to myself! I have managed to lose 2 kg. Yea~
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