Wow!

It's really a big WOW! I haven't got the time to read any of your blogs lately.

Ok, first:
CONGRATULATIONS MAMA! You've got the monthly-paid offer! Looking forward to your new car~ and mine too ;) Let's see whose car arrive first.

Then, i remember during my final semester in uni, i didn't fail the exam but it was just like failed to me. I had always been one of the top students wherever i went. So it was a bit devastating for me when i didn't do well for my last exam. I got a C for that and to the me at that time, C is just like an F. Somehow, i forgot that it's the journey that matters, not the destination. Now when i think about it, i'm glad that i encountered that before my graduation. It's like a wake-up call for me.
'Hey girl, you're not always the best. There are ups and downs in life, you're not going to be always at the winner side.'
Since then, it became easier for me to accept my faults and flaws.
But of course, i am so blessed that there's always someone by my side that will keep telling me that i have the potential, whether it's during study time or now in the office.
So sometimes i joke to myself. If all of them are right, then not bad huh. I have the potential in almost everything, such a genius!

Recently, i've been soooo busy. Preparing for exam questions, marking assignments and reports, moderating papers and interviewing new candidates.
I really have no idea how to judge whether a person is a good or bad candidate. I can only judge by my own intuition. I guess, when the school is new, with critical staff-shortages, that's the way to go. Young, inexperienced teachers interviewing future candidates. I wonder what kind of students i'll get next time.
These days i feel helpless. I just want to be myself. But sometimes, it seems like just being myself, not taking sides or not involving in any politics, is still offensive to certain people. These days people are so free, can think so much and so far.
Nevermind, i just have to keep myself optimistic. Because i believe good things only happen to positive thinkers. A pessmistic person can never realize how much he or she has.

I'm thinking to take up a Diploma course in finance or business. But i don't want to pay with installment. So i'll save maybe $200 every month until i got enough money to pay for 1 sem. I plan to study it at Laksamana. It's not accredited by Brunei here but it's recognized globally. If i choose to take BDTVEC courses, it's likely that i can get scholarship from the government. But, i think this time, i want to rely entirely on myself, just to make myself happy.

Oh yeah! I should learn to shut my mouth. It's sooo easy to start a conversation of complaint. I have come to realize that how fast and effective words get spread, be it spread within a school, outside the school or even the whole country. Brunei is such a small country and everyone seems to know each other.
Just shut up and do my work. The other day i was complaining to someone how frustrated i was at work. Then also told her i want to lose weight. She believed that i am not happy with my life.
I guess that's because her definition of happy life is different from mine. Don't worry people. I appreciate what i have in life and i enjoy what i'm doing now. But i do learn something out of this. When people don't think like you do, it doesn't mean any one of you are wronged. We just have to accept that in life, everyone is unique and should respect each other's uniqueness. Because that's what make life beautiful.

Hmm... i miss my yoga class. Miss the stretching actually.
Lastly, good news to myself! I have managed to lose 2 kg. Yea~