Tiring~

My arms and legs feel heavy now. I swam for 1 hour just now at the swimming pool in Tutong. It was my first time going there, after hearing so many negative comments. I decided to try it out myself so i went there with fook and my mom. Actually, i suspected that my mom went there to keep an eye on us because she didn't swim, just sitting there watching around and playing PSP.
Hope my body won't be aching too badly tomorrow because we've got cleaning to do and i'm bringing the students to explore the patch of forest in the school compound.

Finally today i've got my pay slip, meaning the money will be in soon. Hoo~~ i've been spending with tight pocket this month. But i'm glad that i've cleared out my debt with my dad. The good thing is, i've learnt to budget myself more effectively now. And i'm one step closer to my goal. Feel so proud of myself when i managed to pay for all the utility bills at home.

At work, it's getting stressful for me. I'm yet to find the best way to survive with my new routine and new cycle of colleagues. Words get twisted easily so i better be careful with what i say. People only see and hear what they want to. For me, it may be just an ordinary conversation but others call it a debate. Hmm.. I'm speechless. It's confusing, i don't know who is speaking the truth. So i just tell myself to remain quiet and do my duty. After all, i go there to work, not for social life.
I don't have lots of friends these days. Most of my time is spent at work during day time and i'm at home at most nights. Friday is usually grocery shopping with family and running errands. Weekend is for dear and occasionally wity old ladies. Sometimes when i surf through facebook, i'd feel that compare to others, i don't have a life. Well, i can look at it in 2 different ways.
First, I know that i'm not good with socializing so i keep it to minimum. Plus, i enjoy being at home most of the time. This is the part of me who likes to stay within my comfort zone. Plus, my sense of humour and the way i think don't seem to be logical to certain people (which i'm so glad that dear understands me)
Secondly, i'd think, should i make a change? So i can expand my networking with people. If i'm really not good at it, i should meet more people to improve. This is the optimistic part of me who likes to take challenge.


Sometimes i'll tell myself not to think too much. Start the day with an open heart and whatever happens, it is meant to teach me something so i can become a better person. There are many worries as i go along, worries about my family, worries about my working environment and worries about money. Does $2k sound a lot to you?? I have realized now that it's nothing if i have a family to feed. So i really wonder how do some parents with 9 kids, 10 kids, 12 kids or more survive.

Anyway, worry or not, what is meant to happen, is going to happen. All i can do is make good use of what happens to me. No matter what, i believe in the plasticity in people. We can always adapt to all kinds of situations.

I really think i need exercise, because my feeling-good hormones is coming down. Oh Oh~
Gambate, WeiWei!