...about wedding.. Hmm.. I wonder where does all my romantic-ness go. For me, reception dinner can be skipped. I'd like to have a low profile wedding, only mine and his close family members are invited. I don't need the world to know i am married, as long as both families are aware of it. I definitely want to do photo-shooting but i don't need to have an album. I just want a few photos that i really look nice, and i want to wear something sexy (must keep fit first eh!).
I really think reception dinner is a waste of time and money. From my experience as a guest, more than half of the people attending are strangers to the wedding couple. I want one that is small, where i can entertain everyone, and warm, with full of sincere wishes for me. The only thing that i consider as a must is honeymoon!! And my honeymoon must include a stay in a resort.
But that is still a long way to go. Now, money comes first :p
Recently i'm soooo worn-out. There's never a day i come home without feeling tired and sleepy, even if i go to bed before 11 on the night before. I hate to think this way but i really got a feeling that i'm being overloaded. Now i have only 4 subjects (all new to me) and a lot of paper works now as a group coordinator. I can't imagine how will i cope when one colleague leaves in september and i have to take over 2 of her subjects, which are also new to me. Somemore, my HoD and another collague are leaving soon. They have started new things before they leave and expect me to look after and maintain the building while they're away. I feel worried that i won't be able to fulfill their wish. Is it normal for a new staff to run a programme?? New programme, new students plus a new, inexperienced teacher. I can't see any light for the future.
I don't know am i being pessimistic or they're too cheerful. Do they think what they started will be carrying on after they're gone? From what i have seen and heard, usually what happens is, out of sight, out of mind. Things change almost completely when a new head takes over.
I keep telling myself, i'm feeling exhausted because i haven't got used to working for 2 departments. Also, i don't mind if i am being overloaded. Look at it positively, i can learn many things in a short period of time. It's a good thing if i plan to change job in a few years time. I enjoy my work but i still don't think i can work for the current system for long. I notice too that now i'm more firm about myself. I dare to decline offer or request. Well, i have to, or else i won't have time to do my work.
I feel so odd. People dread to come to my school, but i applied specifically to teach in this school. People can't wait for their turn to further study but i don't have the desire to upgrade my qualification. I haven't seen the need to do that, don't want to go just because everyone is going. I just don't think getting a master will help improving my teaching now, except for the master in teaching. I actually think getting a diploma may help me more because what i need now is hands on, not theory. I hope next time i can be given a choice whether to go for master or not. Hope it's not a fat hope..
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Oh wow. Teaching 4 subjects?? Isnt that kinda too much? And then taking on more responsibilities?
Looks like they need more teachers at the school. Are they actually hiring?
Maybe Mimi can help when she returns :D
Hahaha Liz, I am hoping to get into technical schools or even UBD that actually might use what I've learnt.. because I want to continue my phd on it..
Hoping~ hehe.. Jocy, if got no teacher for GIS/remote sensing tell me!!!! Hehehe~~~ XD
And that's simply too crazy~ so much workload for you. They should've requested for more teachers.. it's not like the government couldn't afford it. ^___^
Speaking of government and budget, me and my friends were just talking about the health system in Brunei. We are known as one of the richer countries in the world and yet we have to wash and re-use disposable equipments. I understand we should "think green" for the environment, but I shudder to think of re-using things that have been in other sick people's body parts.
at the moment, still manageable, if i spend my fridays and sundays doing the preparation work. But what to do.. A new school with more than half of the staffs new and inexperienced and with so many heads that do not have quality of a head..
Mi, don't join my school yet. Now is not a good time. But i think it's the same everywhere. The working environment... not so good
Hehe.. the best job for me would be to teach A level Geography BUT that would mean that the things I've learnt for the past 10 months would be wasted..
Oh well~ Jocy, your working environment doesn't sound motivating at all =/ Hope the students will not suffer..
Liz, I didn't know the hospital re-use stuff.. what kind of things??? Isn't it unhygienic kan to re-use?
Yes, it's unhygienic. That's why thay are made to be disposable. I understand the need to re-use if we're in poverty and the benefit outweighs the risks, but we have the money. Why are we doing this to our patients?
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