today..last day of my long vacation..also last day of the perayaan..hope i got the spelling right..
hm..tomorrow will be first day of my 4th semester in ubd...feel excited about it..at the same time...a bit nervous, a bit scared..first..i got my hair dyed..so a bit worried..then..i got that fear when i think of facing crowds of people when i go to school...i'm so used to being alone, or surrounded by people i know...so when i think of facing huge group of strangers or friends i'm not so familiar with..i feel scared..wonder how many of them i remember...
like i told dear last night..i don't longer feel frustrated or pathetic to be alone, to be by myself, but because it's so different from the way i used to be in the past, i'll keep wondering am i all right..is it normal...although deep down in me, i don't think anything has gone wrong...i'll say..i've grown up to a phase where the priority of my life is not longer my friends...maybe i've lost some friends because of this...but i'm closer with my family now...and i'm glad when dear told me last night there'll be times when he prefers to go for his friends instead of me, i didn't feel disappointed or left out...like..i can accept the difference between us...without second thought..good sign isn't it? :)
oh yeah..today is also the last day of the mid year sale, if i'm not mistaken..
honestly, sale or not..doesn't really matter to me..i'll buy when i want and need to buy...
had a nice time shopping with lizzy the other..tuesday i think...and i always feel proud of myself when i can buy lots of things with unexpectedly low price...that's the up side of buying cheap stuffs i guess...i can buy many things...and i believe..as long as i'm using the stuff properly, i can use it for long...plus the kind of things i bought..i don't guarantee i will use that for long..or regularly...if tomorrow is not a holiday...i'll go shopping again..because i just realized i don't have many t-shirts...most of the clothings i bought recently are all sleeveless...i need some simple tees..
last night i was one of the people who watched the fireworks at the empire hotel oh..it's gorgeous and amazing...or maybe it's been a long~ time that i didn't see fireworks, live...and dear was with me when the fireworks was on the sky...at that time..i was feeling so grateful and blissful...and also proud to be bruneian...the government really loves us...and our Sultan is a great ruler of the country...
one of the things i learnt during this long vacation is i love my country more..especially after that trip to KK..
also discovered my other interest..such as beauty and fashion...hm..is shopping counted?? hehe..think next time i mustn't get myself a credit card...or else i'll probably become one of those people who lost track of their bills and ended up being chased by the bank..
and..old ladies..don't stay too close to me at the moment oh..in case i spread the virus to you...my throat is giving me trouble since yesterday..
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Saturday, July 30, 2005
just a few quizzes
What's your superhero style?
You're Xena: The Warrior Princess!You may be a princess, but you're anything but pampered! To say that you like to get out there and kick a little butt is an understatement. Your beauty lies in your strength and courage. Being a bit of tomboy, you prefer keeping your fashion statement to a minimum. You love the durability and edginess of leather and the earthiness of linen and raw silk. When it comes to beauty, the last thing you want is to be burdened with a lot of products. A good moisturizer, a little mascara and a lip balm with an SPF are all the products a primitive princess like you needs
Are you a shopaholic?
Slightly Addicted but Nothing to Worry About: You've been known to go crazy on occasion, but for the most part you keep it in check. You pick out the few trendy pieces each season that you need to update your wardrobe, and you work your closets around that. You definitely own a few more shoes than necessary, but you're responsible enough to avoid a fiscal crisis from overshopping. Friendly warning: Slightly addicted shoppers have been known to cross over into shopaholic territory ‑- so think twice before you indulge in that next two-for-one sale.
Are you a goddess of happiness?
Congratulations. You are a goddess of happiness. You have a zest for life, and always see the glass half full. You're the woman who lights up a room when you enter and whose attention everyone wants. You genuinely love and respect yourself and others, and don't mind showing it off with your cool confidence and generous heart. Inside and out, you're the goddess you want to be. Pampering yourself with a day off or a soothing massage nurtures your spirit. Goddess, keep shining your light wherever you go, and remember to spread your infectious laugh to others as well. When you share your secrets of joy with friends and family, you become the supreme goddess of happiness.
Are you a dirty girl or a queen of hygiene?
You have a healthy attitude toward hygiene. Your mom taught you well and gave you a good command of the basics -- wash your hands before dinner, brush your teeth and floss before bed, weed out the mystery meats from your fridge every so often. Still, everyone has blind spots, and it's good to educate yourself in the basics of germ warfare.
What is your emotional intelligence quotient?
You scored 40% correct!
Your score indicates that you have a below average EQ.
You're Xena: The Warrior Princess!You may be a princess, but you're anything but pampered! To say that you like to get out there and kick a little butt is an understatement. Your beauty lies in your strength and courage. Being a bit of tomboy, you prefer keeping your fashion statement to a minimum. You love the durability and edginess of leather and the earthiness of linen and raw silk. When it comes to beauty, the last thing you want is to be burdened with a lot of products. A good moisturizer, a little mascara and a lip balm with an SPF are all the products a primitive princess like you needs
Are you a shopaholic?
Slightly Addicted but Nothing to Worry About: You've been known to go crazy on occasion, but for the most part you keep it in check. You pick out the few trendy pieces each season that you need to update your wardrobe, and you work your closets around that. You definitely own a few more shoes than necessary, but you're responsible enough to avoid a fiscal crisis from overshopping. Friendly warning: Slightly addicted shoppers have been known to cross over into shopaholic territory ‑- so think twice before you indulge in that next two-for-one sale.
Are you a goddess of happiness?
Congratulations. You are a goddess of happiness. You have a zest for life, and always see the glass half full. You're the woman who lights up a room when you enter and whose attention everyone wants. You genuinely love and respect yourself and others, and don't mind showing it off with your cool confidence and generous heart. Inside and out, you're the goddess you want to be. Pampering yourself with a day off or a soothing massage nurtures your spirit. Goddess, keep shining your light wherever you go, and remember to spread your infectious laugh to others as well. When you share your secrets of joy with friends and family, you become the supreme goddess of happiness.
Are you a dirty girl or a queen of hygiene?
You have a healthy attitude toward hygiene. Your mom taught you well and gave you a good command of the basics -- wash your hands before dinner, brush your teeth and floss before bed, weed out the mystery meats from your fridge every so often. Still, everyone has blind spots, and it's good to educate yourself in the basics of germ warfare.
What is your emotional intelligence quotient?
You scored 40% correct!
Your score indicates that you have a below average EQ.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
electri failure
keep having blackouts for the past few days...sometimes it's like from 3pm to almost 10pm oh..but it makes me appreciate the current facility more than ever..
erm..i think it was last thursday, during the first blackout...i'd never thought that the moon can be as bright as a spotlight..it's like..everywehre was sooo dark...just a little bit of clouds...then that's the round moon...the feeling was like..i was on a stage and the spotlight was on me..very memorable experience...
last night was the scariest...we went to watch the island at empire..then by the time we came out from the cinema, it was windy..i could feel the erm..what do you call that..inertia...as i walked to the car...then after sending dear home, on the way to my place..starting from the first house on the right of the police station, everywhere was in complete darkness...thank god fook was with me..or else..i'd probably be more freak out...then the last thing on my mind before i fell asleep was..i should prepare a backpack with all those necessity like medicines, drinks, dried food, torches...instead anything happen suddenly...
after watching so many movies like..day after tomorrow, war of the world and all those news on terrorist attacks, earthquakes, tsunami...i feel insecure sometimes..
on friday..when our car was passing by a river along the way from yayasan to seri..the height of the water was almost reaching the walkway of the houses there eh...
that's why i hate reading news...it makes me become sensitive to everything happening around me..:s
good news...my sis said my legs are slimmer now..yea~
but after the experience last night..can't really cheer myself up eh..
erm..i think it was last thursday, during the first blackout...i'd never thought that the moon can be as bright as a spotlight..it's like..everywehre was sooo dark...just a little bit of clouds...then that's the round moon...the feeling was like..i was on a stage and the spotlight was on me..very memorable experience...
last night was the scariest...we went to watch the island at empire..then by the time we came out from the cinema, it was windy..i could feel the erm..what do you call that..inertia...as i walked to the car...then after sending dear home, on the way to my place..starting from the first house on the right of the police station, everywhere was in complete darkness...thank god fook was with me..or else..i'd probably be more freak out...then the last thing on my mind before i fell asleep was..i should prepare a backpack with all those necessity like medicines, drinks, dried food, torches...instead anything happen suddenly...
after watching so many movies like..day after tomorrow, war of the world and all those news on terrorist attacks, earthquakes, tsunami...i feel insecure sometimes..
on friday..when our car was passing by a river along the way from yayasan to seri..the height of the water was almost reaching the walkway of the houses there eh...
that's why i hate reading news...it makes me become sensitive to everything happening around me..:s
good news...my sis said my legs are slimmer now..yea~
but after the experience last night..can't really cheer myself up eh..
Friday, July 22, 2005
bla bla
went shopping today...at yayasan..
i've permed my eyelashes..but..mine is really very short..so not obvious...hope next time my eyelashes can be lengthened..from now on..i'll try to disturb it more often...today i tried to put on the new mascara me and my mom just bought..my mom did the perming too...we bought blue colour mascara...also bought some cds...too bad i didn't get to find any atm of IBB..so can't just buy what i want...but that's why i was managed to save money..:s
got a terrible news lately...don't want to mention it here...plus..for me, that's really not the end..the earth is round anyway..
nothing much to say actually...
hope tomorrow will be a good day for me...
one thing to be glad about is, guiltless oh, teng lan's daughter has been accepted by ITB..not UBD...yea~
i've permed my eyelashes..but..mine is really very short..so not obvious...hope next time my eyelashes can be lengthened..from now on..i'll try to disturb it more often...today i tried to put on the new mascara me and my mom just bought..my mom did the perming too...we bought blue colour mascara...also bought some cds...too bad i didn't get to find any atm of IBB..so can't just buy what i want...but that's why i was managed to save money..:s
got a terrible news lately...don't want to mention it here...plus..for me, that's really not the end..the earth is round anyway..
nothing much to say actually...
hope tomorrow will be a good day for me...
one thing to be glad about is, guiltless oh, teng lan's daughter has been accepted by ITB..not UBD...yea~
Monday, July 18, 2005
middle of the night..
the picnic this morning was not bad..quite fun..if without uncle..it'd be even better...
if you guys check my friendster..you'd see his testimonial for me...he never change...just after josh said i looked stress out in the pic..uncle also gave the same comment...and mentioned it again at the beach just now...and i really dislike it when everytime i put something into my mouth, he'd say 'niece, enough lah, don't eat too much, fat lor'...yeah right..after hungry for whole morning, a bite size chocolate cake can make me fat, a plate of fried mee hoon can make me fat, 2 cups of coke can make me fat..
imagine after all those, he said niece..don't get any fatter..i think you're very nice now..not for other people to see lah..for yourself..your own benefits to be slim...i wonder what will be his reaction if i tell him i prefer to be fatter hor...not for other to see yet he still talked so much..if my dear is like him...i'd sure leave him
but it felt so great that when he was shouting loud to us to look at him so he can take our picture, no one bother to listen to him...me, oioi and nining purposely ignored him...eventhough he shouted for a few times...haha that's the happiest part of the whole bbq party for me..:p
when can my uncle learn to stop acting to be more than he is..
oh yeah..welcome back lizzy~~ how's the trip?? i'm using laptop now..so can't check your blog..tomorrow lah...
bah..find a date to go buffet...but! uncle must not be there oh...if can lah...if he's there..i want to sit as far from him as possible...
if you guys check my friendster..you'd see his testimonial for me...he never change...just after josh said i looked stress out in the pic..uncle also gave the same comment...and mentioned it again at the beach just now...and i really dislike it when everytime i put something into my mouth, he'd say 'niece, enough lah, don't eat too much, fat lor'...yeah right..after hungry for whole morning, a bite size chocolate cake can make me fat, a plate of fried mee hoon can make me fat, 2 cups of coke can make me fat..
imagine after all those, he said niece..don't get any fatter..i think you're very nice now..not for other people to see lah..for yourself..your own benefits to be slim...i wonder what will be his reaction if i tell him i prefer to be fatter hor...not for other to see yet he still talked so much..if my dear is like him...i'd sure leave him
but it felt so great that when he was shouting loud to us to look at him so he can take our picture, no one bother to listen to him...me, oioi and nining purposely ignored him...eventhough he shouted for a few times...haha that's the happiest part of the whole bbq party for me..:p
when can my uncle learn to stop acting to be more than he is..
oh yeah..welcome back lizzy~~ how's the trip?? i'm using laptop now..so can't check your blog..tomorrow lah...
bah..find a date to go buffet...but! uncle must not be there oh...if can lah...if he's there..i want to sit as far from him as possible...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
fantastic 4 is nice
just watched that movie..fantastic 4 just now at the mall..it was funny and i highly recommend this to whoever is reading my blog..i think the story is better than war of the world and initial d..
i like the characters..or rather the actors and actresses...they're all good looking..and the big guy had nice personality...i wish i could be invisible eh..so i can hide myself when i don't feel like seeing anyone...provided i had that costume like the girl..i don't want to be naked in front of other people eh...:p
tomorrow i'm going to the beach party...honestly, i don't know what makes me think i want to go..maybe had enough boredom at home..nining said she'll only be there at 12...that's the time i plan to come back...we'll see how tomorrow...i'll try to avoid sunlight as much as possible eh..
i like to look back at the past and slowly 'digest' the memories...always gives me a different feeling from how i felt at that time...and also spotted a lot of blind spots which i missed last time..
oh my god...is this what normally old people do?? think back to the past and laugh about it...:s
i like the characters..or rather the actors and actresses...they're all good looking..and the big guy had nice personality...i wish i could be invisible eh..so i can hide myself when i don't feel like seeing anyone...provided i had that costume like the girl..i don't want to be naked in front of other people eh...:p
tomorrow i'm going to the beach party...honestly, i don't know what makes me think i want to go..maybe had enough boredom at home..nining said she'll only be there at 12...that's the time i plan to come back...we'll see how tomorrow...i'll try to avoid sunlight as much as possible eh..
i like to look back at the past and slowly 'digest' the memories...always gives me a different feeling from how i felt at that time...and also spotted a lot of blind spots which i missed last time..
oh my god...is this what normally old people do?? think back to the past and laugh about it...:s
Friday, July 15, 2005
His Majesty's Birthday
Happy Birthday to our Sultan...he's 59 this year eh...wonder where will i be and what will i be when i'm 59 next time...
to celebrate this day for our Sultan, i dyed my hair...:p
haha just kidding...but i did dye my hair..bright red..i quite like it oh...my mom said i'm the first one in tutong to dye it this way..but i think some people from the A Go Go saloon had done this before..whatever...the conclusion is...i'm happy and worried...happy because this is my first time dyeing my hair and it turned out to be good..everyone is complimenting on it..even some people said they want this colour next time for their hair...worrying because afraid will be 'tegur' by lecturers or staff when we start studying next month...although it isn;t obvious if i let my hair down..i'll still worry..unless i wear red colour every day...my god..that'll be bored...and troublesome eh...wish me luck lah..
i just had steamboat just now with fook and dear...sooo~~ full...i..or i should say, we all, ate till we feel bloated...it was spicy and hot..tomyam flavour...luckily no meat at all...just processed stuff like sausages, crabstick, cabbages, mee, tang hoon, fishball..mushrooms..that's all...so my stomach felt a lot better after a while..in the end..i still think tang hoon, mee and cabbages are the best for steamboat...udon not bad also
today is a holiday..but so bored for us..me and dear were trying hard to find something to do..that's why we had steamboat...
tomorrow night we're going to watch Fantastic 4...and dinner at pizza hut...another great feast..oh..i'm going to put on weight...
i always wish i could be like those people who can eat as much as a small hill of food yet still slim...but..since long ago i've convinced myself that my type of body also not bad..because i can be both fat and slim..depending on what i do to my body...unlike those people..who can't gain much weight even after trying hard...
i haven't got time to go shopping lagi...but i'm going on monday...going to meet my cousin since her off day..then i'll try to ask her to accompany me to go buy the Pure & Mild skincare product..then i can go KB to do facial treatment lor..student price $15 only oh..with good skill ;)
to celebrate this day for our Sultan, i dyed my hair...:p
haha just kidding...but i did dye my hair..bright red..i quite like it oh...my mom said i'm the first one in tutong to dye it this way..but i think some people from the A Go Go saloon had done this before..whatever...the conclusion is...i'm happy and worried...happy because this is my first time dyeing my hair and it turned out to be good..everyone is complimenting on it..even some people said they want this colour next time for their hair...worrying because afraid will be 'tegur' by lecturers or staff when we start studying next month...although it isn;t obvious if i let my hair down..i'll still worry..unless i wear red colour every day...my god..that'll be bored...and troublesome eh...wish me luck lah..
i just had steamboat just now with fook and dear...sooo~~ full...i..or i should say, we all, ate till we feel bloated...it was spicy and hot..tomyam flavour...luckily no meat at all...just processed stuff like sausages, crabstick, cabbages, mee, tang hoon, fishball..mushrooms..that's all...so my stomach felt a lot better after a while..in the end..i still think tang hoon, mee and cabbages are the best for steamboat...udon not bad also
today is a holiday..but so bored for us..me and dear were trying hard to find something to do..that's why we had steamboat...
tomorrow night we're going to watch Fantastic 4...and dinner at pizza hut...another great feast..oh..i'm going to put on weight...
i always wish i could be like those people who can eat as much as a small hill of food yet still slim...but..since long ago i've convinced myself that my type of body also not bad..because i can be both fat and slim..depending on what i do to my body...unlike those people..who can't gain much weight even after trying hard...
i haven't got time to go shopping lagi...but i'm going on monday...going to meet my cousin since her off day..then i'll try to ask her to accompany me to go buy the Pure & Mild skincare product..then i can go KB to do facial treatment lor..student price $15 only oh..with good skill ;)
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
looking forward to tomorrow
tomorrow i'm going to dye my hair..yea~~ hope the way i want suit me...hehe
i don't want to hurt sz oh..but..if don't be honest with him..he'll never get it and still think very positively about it..haih...sounds contradicting but..i hurt him because i really consider him my friend oh..
i think i'm becoming a shopaholic...all i can think of now is shopping...i seldom crave for food now..i crave for shopping...haven't got the chance to check out for the Pure & Mild skincare products
actually..sometimes i do envy lizzy ah...because you can buy anything you want to buy...
like i said before..when buying something we want...for you, whether the price is high or low..you'll know..just a matter of you spend more or less..but for me..there's a limit..more like a matter of i can afford or not...
but funny lah..i always know you're rich..but if people ask me how rich...i don't know oh...
rich..is rich lah...not my money..what for i bother how much...plus because last time my dad and mom always asked me to count the lottery money for them..till now..i still hate the idea of counting money...feel like..dirty and smelly eh when all the dollar notes are put together..
and i really think if not because my dad has too much spare money, things wouldn't be like now..
sarcastic lor..i put the blame on money yet i know i need lots of them..especiallhy now i begin to enjoy shopping..
i hope one day..i can spend money like water...i can go travel whenever i want...travel with plane one...the last time i stepped out of borneo was like...in 1999 oh...so long ago..almost become sakai liau...still remember how 'terrific' i was when we were offered one night stay at the centrepoint hotel oh...hehe :p
hehe...money..very controversial issue eh..
but don't worry lah lizzy...the old ladies you used to know won't judge you by your family background lah...that's your own background..not ours ah...we're modern people of the century so we only mind our own business :p haha..
uncle invited me to a bbq party at the beach this sunday...did he invite you guys also??
i don't want to hurt sz oh..but..if don't be honest with him..he'll never get it and still think very positively about it..haih...sounds contradicting but..i hurt him because i really consider him my friend oh..
i think i'm becoming a shopaholic...all i can think of now is shopping...i seldom crave for food now..i crave for shopping...haven't got the chance to check out for the Pure & Mild skincare products
actually..sometimes i do envy lizzy ah...because you can buy anything you want to buy...
like i said before..when buying something we want...for you, whether the price is high or low..you'll know..just a matter of you spend more or less..but for me..there's a limit..more like a matter of i can afford or not...
but funny lah..i always know you're rich..but if people ask me how rich...i don't know oh...
rich..is rich lah...not my money..what for i bother how much...plus because last time my dad and mom always asked me to count the lottery money for them..till now..i still hate the idea of counting money...feel like..dirty and smelly eh when all the dollar notes are put together..
and i really think if not because my dad has too much spare money, things wouldn't be like now..
sarcastic lor..i put the blame on money yet i know i need lots of them..especiallhy now i begin to enjoy shopping..
i hope one day..i can spend money like water...i can go travel whenever i want...travel with plane one...the last time i stepped out of borneo was like...in 1999 oh...so long ago..almost become sakai liau...still remember how 'terrific' i was when we were offered one night stay at the centrepoint hotel oh...hehe :p
hehe...money..very controversial issue eh..
but don't worry lah lizzy...the old ladies you used to know won't judge you by your family background lah...that's your own background..not ours ah...we're modern people of the century so we only mind our own business :p haha..
uncle invited me to a bbq party at the beach this sunday...did he invite you guys also??
Saturday, July 09, 2005
i'm broke..blame on the sale
went shopping just now..bought myself a neutrogena toner..hope it works on my skin...
suddenly, i'm so keen in skin care...i collect and compile information of all the brands i can think of...this time..i'm determined to spend money on brands i normally won't even consider...next would be the energy water of Za and UV protector of Pure & Mild...and i realized some brands might sound 'branded' but in actual fact, quite affordable for me...of course, i could buy more if i spend less on clothes...
that's what i was declaring in front of dear and fook yesterday..i'll stop buying new clothes at the moment..use that money for skincare product and hair care...and guess what..i bought 2 new blouses today....i just can't resist any clothes that look nice and have low price...so any grand sale is a great challenge for me...one of the blouse i bought today..hehe very suitable for buffet time..so old ladies...wanna go for a buffet?? try somewhere we've never been to together before..such as..seasons...RBC on weekdays..empire, if there's any??
i'm also thinking to learn about nake-up...of course i still don't think i need them...just wish to know more things about beauty...plus..i might need it next time...and i'll start with mascara...
according to what i've seen and heard so far..mascara sounds like a must for small-eyed people like me..
so yup..that's my holiday...everything about beauty..a little bit of fashion...i love those big bangles and bracelets that are so 'in' now...and i'm still waiting for my colour to arrive..planning to dye my hair..
then i'm thinking to make a note book of beauty tips from head to toes...also plan to try reflexology and body massage one of these days...
other than those..it;s shopping, shopping and shopping...
hehe..less devoted to exercise now...but i still insist myself to do some workout each day..just to avoid gaining weights and...oh yeah..did i mention that i'm not longer concerned about the fats and weight i gained from my trip to KK? i just figured out that as long as i don;t mind about it, i'll look natural and great with any way i dress...people think of me as the way i think of myself..if i think i look fine..then that message will be reached to anyone who think of me :P
oh yeah...if you;ve seen me recently or coming future..let me know if my dark rings are very obvious...i'm wondering do i need those anti-shadow eye cream....and the reason i'm wondering is because it's cream...i think cream is too oily for my skin..prefer lotion or essence or water...
essence sounds very erm...'nutritious' for skin...wonder should i try...hmm..maybe not...my skin isn't that bad..plus..i'm still young...so think all i need is thorough cleansing..that's the most important at the moment...
and i still think rest, sleep and drinking water are the 3 most basic and effective way to keep my skin healthy...
any recommendation for whitening lotion for body?? i'm looking for one...other than nivea...been using that for a couple of years..time to change..
can't wait to try the new toner and sunblock i've just bought eh...
my god..i'm so obsessed with it..but nevermind..i'm happy about it ;)
wonder what's lizzy doing now...observing cave?? or camping??
mimi..probably with her sayang now...as usual...
don't think i'm going to airport tomorrow lor...like..nothing to say to meimei kua...for me..meimei, bee, uncle....i like these people better when we don't contact much..
suddenly, i'm so keen in skin care...i collect and compile information of all the brands i can think of...this time..i'm determined to spend money on brands i normally won't even consider...next would be the energy water of Za and UV protector of Pure & Mild...and i realized some brands might sound 'branded' but in actual fact, quite affordable for me...of course, i could buy more if i spend less on clothes...
that's what i was declaring in front of dear and fook yesterday..i'll stop buying new clothes at the moment..use that money for skincare product and hair care...and guess what..i bought 2 new blouses today....i just can't resist any clothes that look nice and have low price...so any grand sale is a great challenge for me...one of the blouse i bought today..hehe very suitable for buffet time..so old ladies...wanna go for a buffet?? try somewhere we've never been to together before..such as..seasons...RBC on weekdays..empire, if there's any??
i'm also thinking to learn about nake-up...of course i still don't think i need them...just wish to know more things about beauty...plus..i might need it next time...and i'll start with mascara...
according to what i've seen and heard so far..mascara sounds like a must for small-eyed people like me..
so yup..that's my holiday...everything about beauty..a little bit of fashion...i love those big bangles and bracelets that are so 'in' now...and i'm still waiting for my colour to arrive..planning to dye my hair..
then i'm thinking to make a note book of beauty tips from head to toes...also plan to try reflexology and body massage one of these days...
other than those..it;s shopping, shopping and shopping...
hehe..less devoted to exercise now...but i still insist myself to do some workout each day..just to avoid gaining weights and...oh yeah..did i mention that i'm not longer concerned about the fats and weight i gained from my trip to KK? i just figured out that as long as i don;t mind about it, i'll look natural and great with any way i dress...people think of me as the way i think of myself..if i think i look fine..then that message will be reached to anyone who think of me :P
oh yeah...if you;ve seen me recently or coming future..let me know if my dark rings are very obvious...i'm wondering do i need those anti-shadow eye cream....and the reason i'm wondering is because it's cream...i think cream is too oily for my skin..prefer lotion or essence or water...
essence sounds very erm...'nutritious' for skin...wonder should i try...hmm..maybe not...my skin isn't that bad..plus..i'm still young...so think all i need is thorough cleansing..that's the most important at the moment...
and i still think rest, sleep and drinking water are the 3 most basic and effective way to keep my skin healthy...
any recommendation for whitening lotion for body?? i'm looking for one...other than nivea...been using that for a couple of years..time to change..
can't wait to try the new toner and sunblock i've just bought eh...
my god..i'm so obsessed with it..but nevermind..i'm happy about it ;)
wonder what's lizzy doing now...observing cave?? or camping??
mimi..probably with her sayang now...as usual...
don't think i'm going to airport tomorrow lor...like..nothing to say to meimei kua...for me..meimei, bee, uncle....i like these people better when we don't contact much..
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
just a little bit..sentimental??
thanks mimi and lizzy...if i were alone just now..i would be sad...seeing them leaving...seeing them in a group makes me feel even out of place at uni...
and..sending them off is like..reminding me how long it has been since the last time i travel with aeroplanes...wish to go traveling oh...somewhere far but not too far..
had a nice time just now with 2 old ladies lah...and i realized that with them around..my mouth becomes evil..i said things mercilessly...and of course..when i'm alone..i started to feel guilty towards sz...i really find him funny and sometimes ridiculous...but i also like to talk with him..not the time when he's erm..'sick' lah..normal time..he's nice to talk with...probably because we share some secrets...secrets always bring people closer..
is antonia still around?? like never see him one eh..
very emotional me these days..or rather..sentimental??
whatever lah...i cry very easily...but don't misunderstand oh.my life is not pathetic...i cry over little stuffs...both good and bad..
batman begins..really not my type of movie...i watched..with full attention..then after that..forget about it..erm...initial d better...but war of the world inspired me more...a bit sad when i think of some parts of it...and the movie ended at a erm..dissatisfying way, to me lah..
i intepreted it as...only man can tolerate with all the environmental problems we created..that's why we survive...
i guess..many people would say they never learn the theory of 'survival of the fittest'...but it's in everyone's blood...and it's only shown at desperate situation..almost always...
and..sending them off is like..reminding me how long it has been since the last time i travel with aeroplanes...wish to go traveling oh...somewhere far but not too far..
had a nice time just now with 2 old ladies lah...and i realized that with them around..my mouth becomes evil..i said things mercilessly...and of course..when i'm alone..i started to feel guilty towards sz...i really find him funny and sometimes ridiculous...but i also like to talk with him..not the time when he's erm..'sick' lah..normal time..he's nice to talk with...probably because we share some secrets...secrets always bring people closer..
is antonia still around?? like never see him one eh..
very emotional me these days..or rather..sentimental??
whatever lah...i cry very easily...but don't misunderstand oh.my life is not pathetic...i cry over little stuffs...both good and bad..
batman begins..really not my type of movie...i watched..with full attention..then after that..forget about it..erm...initial d better...but war of the world inspired me more...a bit sad when i think of some parts of it...and the movie ended at a erm..dissatisfying way, to me lah..
i intepreted it as...only man can tolerate with all the environmental problems we created..that's why we survive...
i guess..many people would say they never learn the theory of 'survival of the fittest'...but it's in everyone's blood...and it's only shown at desperate situation..almost always...
Monday, July 04, 2005
biomed are leaving..
my biomed friends are leaving tomorrow...and..the sadness in me has been multiplied since i woke up yesterday..i'll miss them...because i had some happy memories with them...they're part of my first year in uni..i'm already missing them now...but not meimei and tyng..hehe:P don't ask me why..i just don't feel anything about their leaving...maybe because they've always kept their own world within them..
i hope i won't cry tomorrow at airport...but dear said i'm sure to cry...bad dear...
i really like them..like to be in the biomed class...because..i feel i'm belonged to a group..have that feeling of...erm..ah! sense of belonging...
and i like the subjects too...i just don't want to be doctor...don't want any programme that will take me a long time to complete...
i've been imagined what if i'm leaving tomorrow...
think i'll be looking forward to a complete new life there...a life of freedom, stress, typical foreign uni student life...but i'll most likely to be sad and fear...sad for leaving my own country..my family, my friends here and my love...fear for the unpredicted future...
but..i'm not regret oh...because i really enjoy what i do now at uni...i just miss being part of them...and who can deny this is one of the so-called golden chance...going abroad..sending my government oh....too bad i'm not grateful :P
what to do...using government money makes me feel restricted..feel like i have to work up to someone else expectation instead of my own...and no switching programme after i'm there in aussie...will be hell for me eh...
wish them all the best lah...and hope one of them can survive through it..
i hope i won't cry tomorrow at airport...but dear said i'm sure to cry...bad dear...
i really like them..like to be in the biomed class...because..i feel i'm belonged to a group..have that feeling of...erm..ah! sense of belonging...
and i like the subjects too...i just don't want to be doctor...don't want any programme that will take me a long time to complete...
i've been imagined what if i'm leaving tomorrow...
think i'll be looking forward to a complete new life there...a life of freedom, stress, typical foreign uni student life...but i'll most likely to be sad and fear...sad for leaving my own country..my family, my friends here and my love...fear for the unpredicted future...
but..i'm not regret oh...because i really enjoy what i do now at uni...i just miss being part of them...and who can deny this is one of the so-called golden chance...going abroad..sending my government oh....too bad i'm not grateful :P
what to do...using government money makes me feel restricted..feel like i have to work up to someone else expectation instead of my own...and no switching programme after i'm there in aussie...will be hell for me eh...
wish them all the best lah...and hope one of them can survive through it..
Saturday, July 02, 2005
holiday..finally..but...
i've changed the title of my post..been fancy about strawberry these days...i look for strawberry flavour snacks whenever i go to supermarket...i bought strawberry lip balm..even though i've just bought a raspberry one a few weeks ago...then..i craved for taste of strawberry when i was feeling down a few days back..hm...talking about it makes me miss the strawberry taste now..:p
later lah..i'm trying to lose some fats now...not through diets but still will try to control myself a bit lah...wish my arms look less flabby than now...
eversince i'm back from KK..i keep feeling i'm a bit fatter...although dear has tried to assure me i look good..i still feel dissatisfied...but i know i can't be like this for long...because even myself start to hate myself for feeling this way...
welcome back lizzy...now i know i've made the right decision for never thinking to go with you guys...i'm not the type who can resist the temptation to buy...if i go with you guys...sure will come back crying eh...i already spent RM400 plus when i was in KK..that's already a lot to me lor...think it'll take 4 months tuition fee to get back that...
i know now many malaysians are selling their brunei cars at low prices...but..i really don't feel like buying...i know my mom can sponsor some..i can loan form bank...or i can borrow money from someone...but..i want to buy it with my own money...and...i don't think having loans when i'm still studying is a good idea...school allowance may sound a lot..but it's not at all...after paying for my espeed, easi, grocery stuffs for home, normal expenses...i've got just enough money for leisure...and i need that money...oh yeah...petrol also...like now..i can still sponsor some for my sis, my home...but if i got a car loan...then i probably need them to help me eh...and i definitely don't want to ask any cents from my dad....if i ask money from him..i can't criticize or talk ill of him without feeling guilty...i don't want to support him in anything he does now..so i can't use his money..can't accept his help...sadly..i still can't completely be independent of him...because i need food and shelter for survival...but one day i'll pay all these back to him...
some people think we don't longer think he is our father...but for me...if not because he is still my father...i wouldn't have felt this way about him...
good thing now..it's holiday..finally~~ i don't have to worry about report..nothing at all...i just have to wait till august to start studying...i miss school...but not uni...i miss secondary school..
we had our own classrooms..our own seats...own groups of friends...had our own teachers...
in short..i miss that 'sense of belongings' which i don't get any now in uni...except during the time when i was still in biomed lah...
bad thing about holiday is...i feel blank each day i wake up...minus the tuition, i got nothing to do at all...feel like...i'm wasting my time...wasting my youth...and i really enjoyed last week..when i had to think and crack my head most of the time for the report writing...think..i'm likely to become a workaholic?
i've just finished reading a book..by Aldeline Ma Yen....she's a chinese lady in her 40s i guess..CHinese Cinderella..is a story she wrote about her childhood...quite heart-melting lor her encounter..and i'm looking forward to her other book..also her true life account...compare to romance...biography and true history suits be better when come to english book..but i don't learn history from thos big events..i prefer to read and learn history through the eyes of ordinary citizen...feel like..more real and more life experiences and lessons there...
i've watched initial d...not bad but not my cup of tea...car is certainly not the kind of topic i like lor..and after watching the movie...it confirmed me one thing..edison is surely a lot cuter than jay zhou for me..hehe...maybe too many people have been going for jay...so makes me turn to edison more...just feel like...jay zhou had taken away the real focus of the whole movie...but..i'm one of those who went to the movie for him plang :p hehe...
oh yeah to answer that question of lizzy..the girl in initial d...erm..i guess it's just like how people can have one night stand with people they don't even know...they don't need love..all they need is skills..plus..not all prostitute enjoy their job..yet they can still be popular among their own society for their work performance...
for many of us..just the feeling of close physical contacts with guys we don't love send goosebumps to our arms...for me..as long as the guy is not dear..i feel creepy...like the case with uncle khai hau..hehe :p
but from the novels i read..those written by taiwanese authors...or those magazines..or tv shows at tvbs....sex is not longer a taboo..it's more like general knowledge now...they don't say it out..but it's understood that those people are not longer virgin...
busy now....continue next time..if any..
later lah..i'm trying to lose some fats now...not through diets but still will try to control myself a bit lah...wish my arms look less flabby than now...
eversince i'm back from KK..i keep feeling i'm a bit fatter...although dear has tried to assure me i look good..i still feel dissatisfied...but i know i can't be like this for long...because even myself start to hate myself for feeling this way...
welcome back lizzy...now i know i've made the right decision for never thinking to go with you guys...i'm not the type who can resist the temptation to buy...if i go with you guys...sure will come back crying eh...i already spent RM400 plus when i was in KK..that's already a lot to me lor...think it'll take 4 months tuition fee to get back that...
i know now many malaysians are selling their brunei cars at low prices...but..i really don't feel like buying...i know my mom can sponsor some..i can loan form bank...or i can borrow money from someone...but..i want to buy it with my own money...and...i don't think having loans when i'm still studying is a good idea...school allowance may sound a lot..but it's not at all...after paying for my espeed, easi, grocery stuffs for home, normal expenses...i've got just enough money for leisure...and i need that money...oh yeah...petrol also...like now..i can still sponsor some for my sis, my home...but if i got a car loan...then i probably need them to help me eh...and i definitely don't want to ask any cents from my dad....if i ask money from him..i can't criticize or talk ill of him without feeling guilty...i don't want to support him in anything he does now..so i can't use his money..can't accept his help...sadly..i still can't completely be independent of him...because i need food and shelter for survival...but one day i'll pay all these back to him...
some people think we don't longer think he is our father...but for me...if not because he is still my father...i wouldn't have felt this way about him...
good thing now..it's holiday..finally~~ i don't have to worry about report..nothing at all...i just have to wait till august to start studying...i miss school...but not uni...i miss secondary school..
we had our own classrooms..our own seats...own groups of friends...had our own teachers...
in short..i miss that 'sense of belongings' which i don't get any now in uni...except during the time when i was still in biomed lah...
bad thing about holiday is...i feel blank each day i wake up...minus the tuition, i got nothing to do at all...feel like...i'm wasting my time...wasting my youth...and i really enjoyed last week..when i had to think and crack my head most of the time for the report writing...think..i'm likely to become a workaholic?
i've just finished reading a book..by Aldeline Ma Yen....she's a chinese lady in her 40s i guess..CHinese Cinderella..is a story she wrote about her childhood...quite heart-melting lor her encounter..and i'm looking forward to her other book..also her true life account...compare to romance...biography and true history suits be better when come to english book..but i don't learn history from thos big events..i prefer to read and learn history through the eyes of ordinary citizen...feel like..more real and more life experiences and lessons there...
i've watched initial d...not bad but not my cup of tea...car is certainly not the kind of topic i like lor..and after watching the movie...it confirmed me one thing..edison is surely a lot cuter than jay zhou for me..hehe...maybe too many people have been going for jay...so makes me turn to edison more...just feel like...jay zhou had taken away the real focus of the whole movie...but..i'm one of those who went to the movie for him plang :p hehe...
oh yeah to answer that question of lizzy..the girl in initial d...erm..i guess it's just like how people can have one night stand with people they don't even know...they don't need love..all they need is skills..plus..not all prostitute enjoy their job..yet they can still be popular among their own society for their work performance...
for many of us..just the feeling of close physical contacts with guys we don't love send goosebumps to our arms...for me..as long as the guy is not dear..i feel creepy...like the case with uncle khai hau..hehe :p
but from the novels i read..those written by taiwanese authors...or those magazines..or tv shows at tvbs....sex is not longer a taboo..it's more like general knowledge now...they don't say it out..but it's understood that those people are not longer virgin...
busy now....continue next time..if any..
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