i've changed the title of my post..been fancy about strawberry these days...i look for strawberry flavour snacks whenever i go to supermarket...i bought strawberry lip balm..even though i've just bought a raspberry one a few weeks ago...then..i craved for taste of strawberry when i was feeling down a few days back..hm...talking about it makes me miss the strawberry taste now..:p
later lah..i'm trying to lose some fats now...not through diets but still will try to control myself a bit lah...wish my arms look less flabby than now...
eversince i'm back from KK..i keep feeling i'm a bit fatter...although dear has tried to assure me i look good..i still feel dissatisfied...but i know i can't be like this for long...because even myself start to hate myself for feeling this way...
welcome back lizzy...now i know i've made the right decision for never thinking to go with you guys...i'm not the type who can resist the temptation to buy...if i go with you guys...sure will come back crying eh...i already spent RM400 plus when i was in KK..that's already a lot to me lor...think it'll take 4 months tuition fee to get back that...
i know now many malaysians are selling their brunei cars at low prices...but..i really don't feel like buying...i know my mom can sponsor some..i can loan form bank...or i can borrow money from someone...but..i want to buy it with my own money...and...i don't think having loans when i'm still studying is a good idea...school allowance may sound a lot..but it's not at all...after paying for my espeed, easi, grocery stuffs for home, normal expenses...i've got just enough money for leisure...and i need that money...oh yeah...petrol also...like now..i can still sponsor some for my sis, my home...but if i got a car loan...then i probably need them to help me eh...and i definitely don't want to ask any cents from my dad....if i ask money from him..i can't criticize or talk ill of him without feeling guilty...i don't want to support him in anything he does now..so i can't use his money..can't accept his help...sadly..i still can't completely be independent of him...because i need food and shelter for survival...but one day i'll pay all these back to him...
some people think we don't longer think he is our father...but for me...if not because he is still my father...i wouldn't have felt this way about him...
good thing now..it's holiday..finally~~ i don't have to worry about report..nothing at all...i just have to wait till august to start studying...i miss school...but not uni...i miss secondary school..
we had our own classrooms..our own seats...own groups of friends...had our own teachers...
in short..i miss that 'sense of belongings' which i don't get any now in uni...except during the time when i was still in biomed lah...
bad thing about holiday is...i feel blank each day i wake up...minus the tuition, i got nothing to do at all...feel like...i'm wasting my time...wasting my youth...and i really enjoyed last week..when i had to think and crack my head most of the time for the report writing...think..i'm likely to become a workaholic?
i've just finished reading a book..by Aldeline Ma Yen....she's a chinese lady in her 40s i guess..CHinese Cinderella..is a story she wrote about her childhood...quite heart-melting lor her encounter..and i'm looking forward to her other book..also her true life account...compare to romance...biography and true history suits be better when come to english book..but i don't learn history from thos big events..i prefer to read and learn history through the eyes of ordinary citizen...feel like..more real and more life experiences and lessons there...
i've watched initial d...not bad but not my cup of tea...car is certainly not the kind of topic i like lor..and after watching the movie...it confirmed me one thing..edison is surely a lot cuter than jay zhou for me..hehe...maybe too many people have been going for jay...so makes me turn to edison more...just feel like...jay zhou had taken away the real focus of the whole movie...but..i'm one of those who went to the movie for him plang :p hehe...
oh yeah to answer that question of lizzy..the girl in initial d...erm..i guess it's just like how people can have one night stand with people they don't even know...they don't need love..all they need is skills..plus..not all prostitute enjoy their job..yet they can still be popular among their own society for their work performance...
for many of us..just the feeling of close physical contacts with guys we don't love send goosebumps to our arms...for me..as long as the guy is not dear..i feel creepy...like the case with uncle khai hau..hehe :p
but from the novels i read..those written by taiwanese authors...or those magazines..or tv shows at tvbs....sex is not longer a taboo..it's more like general knowledge now...they don't say it out..but it's understood that those people are not longer virgin...
busy now....continue next time..if any..
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