last day of...

today..last day of my long vacation..also last day of the perayaan..hope i got the spelling right..
hm..tomorrow will be first day of my 4th semester in ubd...feel excited about it..at the same time...a bit nervous, a bit scared..first..i got my hair dyed..so a bit worried..then..i got that fear when i think of facing crowds of people when i go to school...i'm so used to being alone, or surrounded by people i know...so when i think of facing huge group of strangers or friends i'm not so familiar with..i feel scared..wonder how many of them i remember...
like i told dear last night..i don't longer feel frustrated or pathetic to be alone, to be by myself, but because it's so different from the way i used to be in the past, i'll keep wondering am i all right..is it normal...although deep down in me, i don't think anything has gone wrong...i'll say..i've grown up to a phase where the priority of my life is not longer my friends...maybe i've lost some friends because of this...but i'm closer with my family now...and i'm glad when dear told me last night there'll be times when he prefers to go for his friends instead of me, i didn't feel disappointed or left out...like..i can accept the difference between us...without second thought..good sign isn't it? :)

oh yeah..today is also the last day of the mid year sale, if i'm not mistaken..
honestly, sale or not..doesn't really matter to me..i'll buy when i want and need to buy...
had a nice time shopping with lizzy the other..tuesday i think...and i always feel proud of myself when i can buy lots of things with unexpectedly low price...that's the up side of buying cheap stuffs i guess...i can buy many things...and i believe..as long as i'm using the stuff properly, i can use it for long...plus the kind of things i bought..i don't guarantee i will use that for long..or regularly...if tomorrow is not a holiday...i'll go shopping again..because i just realized i don't have many t-shirts...most of the clothings i bought recently are all sleeveless...i need some simple tees..

last night i was one of the people who watched the fireworks at the empire hotel oh..it's gorgeous and amazing...or maybe it's been a long~ time that i didn't see fireworks, live...and dear was with me when the fireworks was on the sky...at that time..i was feeling so grateful and blissful...and also proud to be bruneian...the government really loves us...and our Sultan is a great ruler of the country...
one of the things i learnt during this long vacation is i love my country more..especially after that trip to KK..
also discovered my other interest..such as beauty and fashion...hm..is shopping counted?? hehe..think next time i mustn't get myself a credit card...or else i'll probably become one of those people who lost track of their bills and ended up being chased by the bank..

and..old ladies..don't stay too close to me at the moment oh..in case i spread the virus to you...my throat is giving me trouble since yesterday..