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thanks people... i always know i'm not alone..
since i was able to mention it in my previous post.. it simply shows that i've got over it.. erm.. well maybe not the part about going out alone with lizzy.. but that's ok.. i might worry a lot before we meet but when we meet.. unless i really don't have anything to say and feel awkward with the silence.. most of the time i'm feeling like normal..
*hugs* to everyone who read my blog..

it's raining now.. and my car is sick.. need to be sent to the workshop.. :( i feel handicapped without my car.. eventhough i don't like driving

i've been telling lies recently.. even if i'll call them white lies...a lie is still a lie.. and it's not a good thing to lie.. and i'm not lying for myself.. but that's not a good excuse for me..
lately.. i'm not very happy with myself.. i never think i'm a nice person.. but at least i don't feel annoyed with myself.. but now.. i'm a bit frustrated with my thoughts and my behaviours.. if a person doesn't like herself.. that's mean there's a problem with her..
i just don't like myself for being selfish and grumpy.. i wonder is this self-dislikeness the reason why i'm not quite happy with my life.. probably i need a meditation or something.. or maybe it's because i'm struggling with money now.. hehe.. no matter what.. i'll get over it..slow and steady.. i want to be loved.. so the first thing to do is to love myself..
i'm being extremely lazy these days.. but the funny thing is i can't just lie down and do nothing.. or else i'll get annoyed.. as for going out.. i still prefer to stay at home.. of course i love hanging out with friends.. but most of the time i like to be at home.. there are lots of things i can do at home.. watch favourite tv shows.. exercise.. steam my hair.. have a simple foot spa.. eating and drinking.. i think my laziness is drowning me soon..

the pre-selection for nihongo no speech contest is coming kin yobi.. ni ji han
yeah the speech contest is on the 9th.. 2 weeks from now.. watashi no topic wa watashi no kazoku to watashi ni tsu e te desu :)