end of week 5

time pass so fast.. feel like i've just started the semester and now we're going to have mid-semester break in 2 weeks time... not really looking forward to it.. not that i'm not tired.. just.. not in the mood for holiday yet..

feel glad that lee shi is doing fine there in calgury... at first i thought i was going to be real sad when lee shi left.. but.. wasn't that bad after all.. guess it's because i've grown up.. plus.. right after sending her off.. i haven't really got the time to settle.. too many erm.. well not that many.. deadlines to meet.. so.. i'm glad that i'm preoccupied by study most of the time..
study is ok... can't say i'm doing well.. but at least i can still cope with it.. but i never stop to wish i could've more time.. since the first week till now.. i feel like my feet are not on the ground.. every day i have a to-do list to follow...

recently.. came across a few occasions and met a few people which... erm.. not very pleasant encounters i would say..
if only everyone is willing to spend a few minutes to listen to others.. to care about others.. everywhere will be a better place..
i begin to wonder maybe i've invited the wrong people to join BEAC.. what's the point in joining when all you want is the certificate.. and complain all the time about the things you have to do... what's so troublesome about doing things that can save the environment.. being busy is not an excuse.. because no one is not busy in the campus.. even the cleaners have their jobs to do..
don't they enjoy the things they do? it's just so hard to understand people who don't think like i do.. but sometimes i think i'm annoyed by them simply because they don't care about the things i really care.. i don't really like the way some people act.. but nothing i can do.. except making sure i don't become one of them..

i love what i'm doing now.. love what i'm studying now.. so no matter how busy or how demanding it is.. i still enjoy it.. now i can really see the importance of interests.. if i don't like bio.. dont like chemistry.. i probably won't give myself any expectation besides graduating on time..

this semester.. i'm bit different.. i can feel it.. i speak up more often.. and when i'm not too tired and busy.. i enjoy helping people around.. love that accompplished feeling after helping others..
probably because of that.. i meet quite a few of new people.. i'm not clicked with all of them... but most of them are very inspiring people.. feel a bit like.. i've opened myself to so many new things in this new semester... and i'm not so afraid to be different from others.. but i know i'm the type of people who get lost easily when experienced too many things.. thank god till now i still manage to make myself to look backward and think what i want at first place.. then decision-making becomes so much simpler..
i love waking up early in the morning.. like.. i can start the day early.. and more time to do stuffs i want and need to do for that day.. i made some adjustments in my time.. so i can wake up every day to say hello to a good day.. i still believe many things can be fun as long as we know how to arrange the right time for it to fit ourselves..
thinking positively can really change a lot of things...

i skipped class before.. in form 6.. and didn't like that feeling.. have to worry all the time what if i get caught.. then also guilty.. i always remember when we're in form 3.. our english teacher was soo upsetted because more than half of the class didn't turn up for her extra class.. all her efforts in preparing for the class was wasted...
yesterday.. only.. maybe a third of the whole class was there for inorganic chemistry.. if i were a lecturer and my students always skip my class.. i'll probably get really sad... but skipping class seems like a trend these days.. i feel so old sometimes.. i can't understand what are the young people thinking.. eventhough i'm just one or two years older than them.. like.. a generation gap between me and them... and i feel bit worried about the class result.. unless those people are really smart.. or else.. the class result won't be good.. some of us attend every lecture and tutorial and still we struggle for the assignment.. what about those who skip classes all the time.. when a group of students not doing well.. it's not only them having to repeat the exam or course.. the lecturer will be affected too right.. just find it unfair that some students always attend physcial chem class but never appear in inorganic chem class...
the standard of students are getting worse year by year... erm.. hope i'm just too pessimistic about it..