hugs to lizzy

lizzy are you ok?? are you very insecure about your life in calgury? *hugs*we can't be there for you all the time.. but the internet is soo advanced now.. you can always post anything you wish to share in your blog or mail us..jason been telling me you can survive well there.. but still i'm worrying.. sometimes will think impulsively that i want to go there with you so i can look after you.. of course you can survive... but.. how long will it take and how much effort will you need.. i always think it's not easy to live in a foreign country.. especially people like us who've been spoiled by the government all the time...actually there are lots of things i wish to tell you.. but.. i knew i'm going to cry once i bring it up.. so.. such a complex feeling.. *hugs* we all are going to miss you..normal days.. i won't feel sad because i just tried to ignore the fact that you're leaving.. only when i don't think deep into it i can go on with life like nothing is going to change..why friends have to fall apart as they grow up..a lot of frustrating things happen in life and some people will say that's life... 'that's life'.. i dislike that sentence sometimes.. because it's just another synonym of giving in to what's happening.. even if you don't like it...should focus more on good things in life...this sem.. i met quite a lot of new people... also some people who have been 'missing'.. like ching.. i almost never see him last 2 sems... and now i almost see him every week.. then.. for the first time if not mistaken.. i'm in the same class with mama.. in ubd i mean.. apart from MIB.. mama is so busy.. her schedule so packed.. but she manages to stay alert during lecture time.. if me.. once i'm tired.. i lose concentration easily.. and lose my temper very fast too.. :pnining mentioned about her friends told her that if want to survive in ubd.. you have to be selfish.. she asked me is it true.. i disagree.. to survive.. need to study hard and smart.. nothing to do with selfishness.. i don't see any connection there.. but i admit to her that i do one selfish thing every sem.. i normally hold a few library book for whole sem.. even if i'm not using them every day.. i still won't return.. because i never know when is the next time i need them.. i know that's not the right way to do... so this semester i start buying textbooks.. but at the same time.. i'm still holding a few library books.. i hope those people who need it.. and don't know who i am.. can request to hold the book through the library system.. for me.. it's ok for the person to hold the book if that person doesn't know i'm the one having the book.. that's the way it should be anyway... erm... but sometimes i'll still feel bit annoyed when i can't have the book.. hehei've signed up for a dancing class.. thinking to learn prom dance.. or jazz.. i love exercising with the music on.. and with a group of people.. so i also attend the aerobic class.. when everyone is exercising around you.. it's really hard for you to stop... that's how i make myself to carry on moving.. aerobic classes are more convenient.. but dancing is still my favourite.. just had one aerobic class this morning.. it's nice to exercise early in the morning.. will make me feel fresh for whole day.. and once i stick to one exercise routine.. i automatically stop worrying about putting on weights.. so fewer things to worry..i think i'm going to choose a 100% fieldwork project next year.. i love going out.. going around.. i can't imagine how bad will i feel if i stay in lab for whole day.. i don't like air-conditional environment.. except on a really hot day.. but still nowadays... i try not to use air-con while driving.. save fuel and more environmental-friendly.. plus i usually feel cold not long after i enter an air-con room.. i prefer natural breeze..goh's sister was there in the aerobic class.. she brought her son the other day.. he looks exactly like goh.. no wonder goh doted on him a lot last time.. this morning met Mrs Chong.. she still looks the same.. just bit more grey hair now... she still remembers me.. remembers my name.. but i lost the biology revision card she gave to me as a gift for getting A in PMB science.. bit guilty.. i think i borrowed it to someone.. but forgot have i taken it back..today i must try to do at least half of the genetic report.. i try to speed up.. but still i'm doing my work according to due dates.. i don't like this way... if i have to rush with assignments.. how can i have a private study time.. hm.. must do something about my time management skill... i'm trying to fix a schedule.. but i need to finish all or at least most of my assignments in order to stick to it... same old problem every semester.. must work hard on getting organized... ganbate~