quiet and calm

I went to Tandoor for sungkai buffet tonight with my students and 2 colleagues. The place was nice, like the atmosphere but the food was just nice. What to do, i'm a true Asian. Northern Indian food is not my cup of tea. But i really love the atmosphere there. Those naughty boys in my class secretly called the owner Pringles. Hehe..
Thank god i have my students. They never fail to make me laugh.

Work is still hectic but i begin to find ways to enjoy it. For all the things i have to do, i'll do my best. but i won't be that naive to think what i do can please everyone. There's always someone that is going to pick on my work. Normal, because i'm not perfect. But i don't care! I have tried my very best to do my duties as perfect as i can. In the end, i became unhappy and pessimistic. Somemore, i got no recognition for that. So now, i stop pushing myself and work has become enjoyable for me again.
Lesson of the week: Don't be afraid to admit you can't do it, or you'll find yourself getting no help at all.

I just chaired a programme development meeting 2 days ago. Still need to improve on that.

I've been naughty this week. I cancelled an assignment that my previous HoD wanted me to give to the students. I made quite a lot of changes in the programme guide that he had done before he left. And i feel so happy to do those things. Haha! Bad me!
Honestly, i like the new department staff and the new HoD. Because i'm given more flexibility and freedom now to do things my way.

I fast too, from the time i stepped into the school compound until i left the school. That is about 8 hours. I"m hoping that after the fasting month, my capacity will be reduced.
Thanks to my hectic work, i'm now going to bed early because i'll be sleepy before 10.30am and i'm waking up early too. On non-working days, i still wake up early, like 7am. Healthy sleeping pattern and i see great improvement on my skin. Yea!

Have i mentiond that one of my subjects is given now to a new staff? That's such a relief. I can focus more on my biotech.

I envy Lizzy that you can go all around those places. People who have been to many places always see things in different ways from people who only stay in one country. Those people tend to be more open-minded, bigger hearted, more adaptive, know better about the meaning of life.
Somehow, i know i won't be dare enough to travel on my own in any countries i'm not familiar with. I thought of going to Taiwan again and if i do that, it'll be a slow and steady type of trip. I also want to go to Australia again. I still find it more comfortable to go around chinese places.
I've always thought that if only chinese is the main language used here, my life will be very different now. For some unknown reasons, I always think that i'm under-developed. I have talents in many things but did not have the chance to further improve it into skills.I can swim, i can play songs with keyboard (w/o background music), i can dance, i can sing (a bit lah). All of those are self-learned so i never know if i'm doing it the right way. I used to like playing piano or music as a kid and my dad had promised me more tha once that he would send me to piano lesson. But he never fulfilled his promise. Nothing to be surprised. Sometimes i would think, if i was sent to learn all those, where will i be now?
Or maybe.. i would have stopped liking those long time ago.
Oh my god! How pathetic! I'm putting the blame on someone else for not being master in anything!
It's still not too late now for me to pick up on skills or knowledge i missed. But, i think i have better use of those money. I heard my car will be out anytime soon. Oh no! Money again!

One of my close cousins is in uni now. When they first found out he is accepted, the whole family celebrated it. My other cousin celebrated it for him too.
I never know how does it feel to have someone celebrating academic achievement for me. No matter how well i did, it is still MY business. Nothing much to do with anyone in my family. Eventually, i become someone who don't talk about my study and my work with my family. Whether i'm happy or not with my work, they don't know. None of them know what is my degree, what exactly i'm teaching. I have had my name on an international publication before but that doesn't mean anything to them.

Looking at my nieces and nephews now, i'm so glad that my parents don't interfere much in my growing-up. Kids nowadays so pity. I'm not a mother yet so i can't see the point of having a multi-talented child. Why must they learn so many things? After school, have to go to another school to learn other things. Tsk tsk tsk~ where's the childhood?