Swimming~

Today i went to swim at the sport complex, something i should've done but had been skipping for the past few weeks. It makes me happy when my body can move well.
As i was swimming, i realized although i'm not a perfectionist, i am self-conscious almost all the time.
I feel shy to wear swimsuit, especially when people i know are around. Keep thinking that my gosh, my legs are huge, my tummy is bulging, my arms are flabby. Do i look clumsy when i swim? Are my moves right?
Honestly, what can i expect when my swimming is self-learned?

In school, i am always tense, worrying what will people think if i complain too much, what will happen if i openly defend someone, if i appear to be close with someone...

No wonder i am exhausted.

But don't worry, i've made up my mind now to accept who i am, accept the fact that i am not perfect and be happy with it.
Can't believe i have stopped to love myself for the past few weeks...
It's reflective, i can't accept my own incapability, so i become intolerant with people who don't do their work well. Just because someone is multi-tasking doesn't mean i have to be the same too. I must remember that everyone is unique and different (Recall Competitive Exclusion Principle). i may not be good at multi-tasking, but i do well when i'm focused ^_^