drowsy..

just wake up not long ago...feel very weak..my flu still here..and think it's worse than yesterday..
don't know..probably i didn't rest well...or..i didn't control my diet..but..what's there to control when you're in a party anyway..
last night was my niece's 1-year-old party...i didn't really have fun though..
if i can go..i'd have gone out with dear to have our own time...because the party just didn't suit me at all...i don't drink, don't gamble, and i don't usually go around to chit-chat with people..i'm never a good host of any function i guess...
last night i was thinking..if i have a child..i'll prefer to spend my child's first birthday in a warmth and sweet way..instead of having a party, people get drunk and gambled till don't know what time..they're still gambling when i went to bed at 2.30...i'd want my kid to have fun on the birthday...kid's fun..
and something happened to me in the party that got on my nerve...don't wish to mention it..

had a bad day on wednesday...people asked me to wait for them and after an hour..told me i can go home..without them...that happened twice within an hour...the fire in me was like..shooting up within seconds...but..as usual..i could only keep it inside me..the anger just diffused through every single cell in my body but it just won't come out from my mouth...haih...wonder it's a good thing or bad..

finally the party is over...so i can have more time to myself...yea~

for everyone who's sick out there...take care oh..and get well soon..
need to buy another bottle of cough syrup..i've almost finished this one..yet i'm still coughing..