late..or lagging..

opposite attract, are we, lizzy??
something's wrong with my pc...and all your blogs address are in my favourite folder in that pc..so i didn't read your blog util today..
a bit shock lor when i read lizzy's blog about me..was i too ignorant all that while..i never sense anything at that time...now i can see the advantage of us having different programmes and groups of friends...and i'm glad you're got your confidence...
before..i used to envy you..even till now sometimes i still do...mainly for your family and finance kua...but never jealous lah...i love you too..and..i appreciate what i have now..because i know very well if not because of what happened in my family, i'd still be the same as before, naive and impractical..dreamy till death...believed in fairy tales...well i still believe in fairy tales..just that i know it never happen to me..yet...hehe..

honestly, i felt guilty when i read your blog...feel very sorry to you...but i guess the reason you said it out is not for me to apologize kua...so i kick the guilt out of me..and i'm glad you've said it out eh...feel like..a step closer now :)

life is like that huh...last year..or last 2 year..i remember similar things happened between me and bee...at the time when i envied her appearance and luck with guys..she envied me for my intelligence and look too..and also personality...life..we always go for things we don't have and neglect what we've been given..

and i still feel helpless and speechless with the way people think of me...but i really think with the way i am now..my type of attitudes and behaviour...no one will think i'm a angelic person..because i think i'm less initiative, less friendly and more rude now...don't know what the people are thinking lah...
i felt worry actually about myhair when i went to uni on monday...scared i'll be 'tegur' by any bad mood lecturer...but i still refuse and resist the desire to dye my hair back to black..first reason, of course, i really like it...second reason, just want to be rebellious for once..
but..that's not me...eventhough i really like to add more colours to my hair..i still think as a student i shouldn't...so..in dilemma now..i just don't want to feel worried when i'm at school lah..

hm..what else ah...i've got a lot more to say..but i forgot liau..really can't concentrate on 2 different things at the same time eh...next time i'll make sure i don;t chat when i'm updating..

sz thinks i'm not enjoying my life...because i don't go out and experience new things..
he is wrong...i am enjoying my life...i told him we just define 'life' differently and have different life..for him of course can do the things he's doing lah...but me..i can't...but luckily i'm not the type who is pessimistic...i believe no matter what happen..how terrible is my life...there is still a way to find fun in it..plus..my life isn't that bad...