just arrived home less than an hour ago..not as tired as last monday..i guess shopping is far far far less tiring than pumping at the gym...honestly..i don't look forward to exercise in the gym..prefer to swim....maybe because exercising in an air-conditoned room suffocate me or maybe..i just love swimming...i get tired after exercising in the gym for maybe half an hour...but i don't feel tired at all even after one hour swimming..hehe...what to do..i'm a pisces..hehe :p
it's the problem of getting tan that i'm concerning...although i agree that honey-coloured skin looks great..i still think it's better to be fair...so i look fine with any colours...especially colours like purple..which will only look nice if the person is fair...
i figured out one thing today...or maybe it's not the first time i feel so..just feel erm.. uneasy to tell lizzy... actually...the idea of hanging out with you and your schoolmates, as in nisa them...freak me out sometimes...it's sort of like..i'm seeing you guys just like how people in art classes used to see people like us in science classes....i have that pressure when talking with them..it's like..i'll be so conscious in case i make silly mistakes or i can't cope with what they say..
of course i know they're nice people... but..i'm never that good in controlling my feelings... can't help to feeling i'm 'short' when with them.... i hope..i'm not spoiling your day by telling you this..
you know..i've learnt now to say no to food..any food..even if it's tasty or whatever..as long as i'm not hungry...i can make myself to reject the offer...with few seconds hesitation..:P
but i can't say no to any clothes that get my attention...i must be looking like a weirdo just now..walking all around the shops looking at the clothes and at the same time..keep telling myself..no, not to buy..i have had enough for the new year....and at the end..i ended up buying a long sporty pants for myself... and my dear so sweet oh...in case my mom nag..i can say it's a gift from him...hehe...
sometimes i feel bad for my dear...i have that tendency to leave him behind...i guess i just..take him for granted unconsciously....that's normal right when you expect your boyfriend to be there all the time for you so you think it's nothing wrong to go for someone else first, someone like a crying niece? i know he can understand it...but..if it were me..i'll be jealous or at least disappointed..because with the way i think..i'll likely think that i'm not the most important person for him..hehe...spoiled me..:p
oh yeah..i had a new hairstyle...maybe lizzy is right..the length is a problem...but..i don't mind.. i care more about the health of my hair...the look ah...it can be taken care of later..:P
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