2005...first day

first day of 2005..supposed to be a happy one...but..something happened at the end of last year..so..well..not too bad..at least i got to have a feast with my mom and other family..
funny when i think of family now..i only think of my mom's side...as for my dad's side..it's as if the tie between me and then have been loosen eversince my dad betrayed us...i dislike the way they gossip about my family and then spread it from friends to friends...or relatives to relatives..
it's not a pleasant feeling when we first found out even people in Labuan are gossiping about us...

that something which happened end of last year...actually just a few days ago..makes me love my mom more and hate my 'father' more...he's almost never there when my mom needed him most..he's not there when my mom's giving birth to their first child...he's not being there when my mom's waiting for her operation to start...and it's not because he can't make it to go there...simply because he doesn't think he should be there...not even a call from him...i should've known that putting hope upon him is a great mistake...and how sad that i never learn from this mistake...

2004 for me..
- i felt a bit disappointed with my A Level result (BBC and an U for my GP)
- i joined the BSP assessment centre
- entered UBD, trying for the biomed programme
- made new friends and lost some old friends
- got my first F grade for my lab report
- passed my exams in UBD, glad with both results
- closer with my family
- becomes an aunt to my baby niece eshyn
- more health and look- conscious than ever
- relationship with my guy becomes more stable
- love and admire my mom more
- despise my 'father' more
- slowly taking charge of my house
- swicthed programme from biomed to biological science
- big change in erm..can't say personality..i think i'm still the same..maybe a little more like a loner this year
- changed way of dating due to family pressure
- ...

that's all i think...
hiya..not in the mood to talk more now...
hope this year won't be too bad for me

new year resolution?...
- spend wisely
- eat well and maintain fit
- study harder and start saving
- protect my family as much as i can
- share my mom's chores at home