hmmm..sleepy

a lot of things to say..but...too many till i don't know how to start...
have a feeling like...i've gone through a lot of things....and concluded that i want to leave all the unhappy things behind and move on....

often, i keep things inside me..not because i don't want to share...it's because what i think is different from people around me...and i've had enough with expression like saying 'are you nut?' on people face whenever i share my view...it's a bit lonely though when i'm the only one who think this or that way...but i'm happy with my own opinions...it's just fake if i change my own point of view just to feel 'fit in'...if no one understand me now, someone will in the coming future..

i have plan for my future...plan that is different from before, because it's for myself..not 'us'...

sorry lizzy..i keep forgetting to pass the gifts to the others...but i'll make sure they get it..

feel a bit listless now...probably too tired...haven't had enough sleep since last week..my uncle and auntie are here..together with their son....from labuan...it's nice having them here....my auntie is great cook...that is why i've put on quite a lot of weights...and now..a bit fed-up with heavy food...if can...i only want plain porridge for every meal now...

wish to go shopping...want to buy jeans and few more tops...don't want to have exams yet...

my japanese oral test was fine...sensei said i did very well....although i almost got tongue-tight..
not in the mood for study these days...japanese class is the only class i look forward to..
thank god i've done the presentation for english last week so i dont have to prepare anything for tomorrow..
a good news- i feel fine to be alone again...i don't mind if people can't fit me into their schedule...everyone has his/her own life to be busy with...all i need to learn is self-dependent...then i'll be ok at all time...shouldn't expect too much from friends...should learn that everything and everyone changes with time...including myself...
people said i look better now with the extra flesh on my cheeks...still i need to watch out for my diet...because i think i've put on too much weight...more than enough....since i've bought the outfits for the chinese new year..i must maintain...i've bought only skirts..and high heels...so it's going to be different from the past few years...can't wait for it to come...

for some people...i might sound sad or what here..but please...never never think i'm depressed...i'm perfectly fine ok..

have you ever come across some people which you have to hurt them to wake them up? i'm sure you do...

swait zin is coming back soon..hehe..can go eat at nihongo no restoran together...haha..did i say i want to watch out for my diet just now?? :p