i'm fine

don't have to say sorry or feel guilty lizzy...honestly...after so many times...i can
t longer figure out who's to be blamed..me or friends??

after the post in the afternoon...i treat myself with instant noodles..added other ingredients which i think more calories too...but nevermind...i need something to make myself feel better...then watched 'mean girls'..mimi's wrong...not much sexy scenes there...but some messages are conveyed...i like that one 'you don't have to pretend to be dumb to get a guy to like you'...and i think sometimes i'm like one of those girls..who get so paranoid about their figures...i do think about the calories sometimes..but i still eat...getting extra calories is nothing compare to hunger pang attack..
so after the movie..i feel..back to normal...
since i doubt the same thing won't happen again...so might as well find a way to live with it...
plus..if i talk more about it..i'll be talking ill of tek ying lor...so..no no..she's a nice girl...we're just not that clicked...i guess..and i'm a bit biased...because i find excuse for lizzy but not her when i'm upsetted..
good or bad...i'm not despair, yet...because i still think no matter what..i've got jason to turn to..

i've arranged the pile of papers..so i can start with my revision any time...but i'm in holiday mood eh..eversince the hari raya holidays...i feel sooooooo reluctant to touch my books..that's why a lot of the things are pused till last minutes..which of course won't be good..because i'm not a lastminute person..

sometimes i wonder...do i really enjoy being busy?? or maybe when i'm busy, i won't be reminded that i have very few friends? it's silly..sometimes when i think of...indirectly, i'm trading with those people in class...trading for informations and updates about lectures or what...how sad..
but i'm glad i stayed till the end just now..for chem revision class..i was very tempted to leave early...and i know i gave lizzy a very miserable smile just now...
well..it's not a rule that uni life must be happy and exciting..plus it's just my second year...still have 2 years to go..or maybe more..

as usual..i'm not thinking about the exam...my mind is more focus on the coming holiday...i'm thinking to join the field trip in the first week only...so i have 3 weeks plus to rest...enough time to make me get fed-up with holiday i guess...
found a lot of mosquito or insect bites on my legs..scratches too...temporary souvenir from the trip...
and i found out that..dr charles remembers i'm jocelyn..after the trip on sunday...

i know i like biology..i enjoy studying it..but sometimes i'm confused..is bio something i'd like to do for my whole life?? probably not...i still wish to have my own shop next time...a place for people to relax and soothe their minds...i think i have that ladyboss' characters...or maybe i'm just still too young to be humble...

swait zin is coming back this week? or next week?? eh don't be a copycat...don't copy my style of blogging...unless you buy copyright from me ah :p