i feel...furious? miserable? upset??
i got zero for my assignment with dr linda...nt because i didn't do..not because i didn't want to hand in..no one handed in during that lecture..dr linda didn't ask for it..so i assumed no need to hand in...and only found out this morning that almost everyone had handed in...when dr linda asked me just now in the class...i felt...numb..didnt even bother to tell her i did do the assignment...what can i say anyway...said because i thought my friends didn't hand in so i didn't hand in?? it's not longer back in school right?? when your friends don't want to hand in..or can't hand in..you also follow them..so when the teacher ask about it..the responsible is shared...
why am i still crying about it..since it's not the first time..already told myself to be self-dependent...not to expect anything from anyone...haih...
people i trust..people i consider close with me....more than 1 in the class...still i'm not told about it...it's been more than a handful of times when i dont know what's going on at all in the class..because of jap class..i'm late to class sometimes...just within those few minutes i missed out a lot of information...and only found out at last minute..or sometimes after the thing is over...
when i first felt this way..i thought it's because i don't share with them for what i know..so i tried to make sure people around me know what i know...i try to pass the message all around the class...especially those i feel closer....but still i get disappointed often...
ok..got improvement lah...at least i'm told that thursday got a revision class with dr chan..and i know most of the duedates or class when any changes..
maybe i should be content with it...maybe i should think harder what did i do to deserve this..
but..it's hard not to think...not to think i'm like a fool..goin around to share with people but in return....why am i the one who people tend to forget...im not worthed remembering?
i refuse to think it's wrong to expect what i expect people to do for me by treating them the way i want them to treat me...
i hate this...when this kind of things happen...always makes me to doubt myself...
i bet this year is not a good year for me in terms of relationships...
haih...
in the end...i can only say...i'm silly
2 comments:
i'm sorry, i thought you knew we were suppose to hand in. That's why I asked you if I did it right. I got a few wrongs though. :) I also always late to know about some stuff also bah.
*hugz* its not tat bad.. smetmes in life, we do face a bit of downside one.. normal~ but u know jocy, life is not perfect and tat includes u.. so dun expect like we do things rite all the time oh.. maybe coz u used to getting things done very organised and all.. then its all the matter of in and out.. ;) tomolo is another day.. wahah~
eh.. u belanja me when i come back? coz im visitor wo.. make sure oh.. u bring me out after exams. go new rest.. make u fat.. and we also sing karaoke k.. heheh.. anticipating the fun.. bah u tk ah.. heh.. smile :)
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