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until form 4, my ambition was to become a teacher...and now..teaching would be my last option...
should i feel happy for my flexibility?? :p honestly, how many teaching jobs are there and how many teachers graduate from UBD each year...i feel worry sometimes for those friends who are taking teaching courses...
and who stick to her/his ambition all the way till the person achieve it...i changed mine...and i remember meimei used to say she wanted to be an accountant...and now she's on her way to become a doctor...all the best to everyone...including me...for our future..

lee shi...maybe you can try ear-candling...read that it's helpful for migraine..

i'm anticipating for tomorrow's night...hope everything will go smoothly..

yesterday the body massage was ok...but too bad she didn't massage my tummy...got that feeling like...massaging helps in toning...hmm...

i hit someone's car yesterday...actually i got a fright...but...i realized..the stronger the feeling in me, the quieter i become...i only manage to speak my real thoughts when i'm with dear..and sometimes with siao and my mom....or when i'm with myself....don;t know why and when i become this way...
when i think of telling my true ideas...there's a fear in me that people will think i'm absurd..or abnormal...had enough of that kind of feeling i guess...it's hurt especially when the person who makes you feel so is someone you trust...
enough of that...

cant watch reaching for the stars with my laptop...something's wrong with the vcds...because i think my laptop is perfectly alright...

wish to start my own family...wish to have a husband....wish to be a housewife...
everytime when i think of my future career...i never reject the idea that i probably won't work according to my degree...it's a bit selfish though..i'm using the government's money to study biological science but what i think i want to end up with...is to have my own cafe or tea house...that's one of the reasons that i don't plan to further my study to master..if i have the chance...also taking medicine courses...
so i must get a better-than-average degree...plus...i want to be financially-independent as soon as possible...because i'm very proud...so i don't want to rely on my father..and because i want to give my mom a good life...so i want to give her a life which she never has to worry about money..
i also want to buy things i want without having to plan so thoroughly before buying...
i don't love money...but i want it and need it...