looking at my sister's life now...times to times i comment that she's not being practical and bla bla bla...and now..i wish i could be like her...i'm now aa student..an undergraduate...and..when i imagine..i'll be working hard to achieve whatever i can for the near future...and nothing else...and funny is...all i want is a peaceful, ordinary family life...
the more options we're given..the higher the tendency for us to lose track of what we've originally wanted...
i thought i wanted to be a teacher...then..i started to think about scientist...and i started my uni as biomed student...and now a biology student...teacher becomes one of the last job i'll consider..
i wish to have my own family...but now..i'm a bit hesitating about having kids...
i want to have my own florist...now..i'm thinking about a restaurant...
everytime i gain new knowledge..my plan changes...
it's just a part of me...and of most of my friends too...we don't just let our feelings guide us...but we do what we think is rational...and realistic...i guess...that's what makes most people exhausted and stress out today...
i know what i really want...but..to go for it and ignore other things else..is not what i normally handle things...
i did try to talk it out with him...to cheer him up...but excuse me..i think i've had enough of him too...first..i tried to hint him about the truth...but he considered that as a result of i don't know what's going on between him and lizzy...ok..i can't force him to change his way of thinkings...
and when he's depressed by what he finally realized...i tried to cheer up him..tried to say some supportives sentences...and what i get in return is...you'll know how it feels when your bf leave you next time..or..remember to tell me how you feel when you and your bf broke up...almost every single sentence mentioned about my dear and me broke up...i thought he's just...saying something unintentionally..so i just told him i'll try to make that day never come...and..he assured me that that day is sure to come...what lah him...i know he's sad...he's hurt...
but..if you want my support...please..don't repay me with mean words...
it's not as if that's the end of the world...and even if that's the end of his world..he doesn't have to make everyone gets miserable with him...what happens to those guys these days...i mean...please..stop seeing the world from your eyes alone...if behaving like this is his nature..then he's not going to be a good doctor next time...i'm sure i'll hate to visit a doctor who'll make every patient of his sick when he's feeling ill...
exam later...ehehe..12 plus AM now mah..and i've just started revising for it on saturday night...
i just don't like to keep reading the same things over and over again...it'll only make me mislook what's there in the notes...
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