nice day

spent about 2 hours at KACA just now..sorry lizzy..i should've asked you earlier..then you could have gone with us...
but..the trip was not as nice as i expected..first..the bus didn't come on time..and in the end..most of us drove there..including me...then..not many kids..only 20..some are so cute and funny...angelic kids...i saw some of their colourings on the wall...i have to admit that even me can't colour that nice eh...a few of them really nice oh...
also..there were too many of us..so nothung much to do..felt like..just did tiny bits of work..and we started to eat liau...i expect hard works..that will make me sweat and pant eh...in the end..i wasn't cleaning under the sun and..not much sweating..but more on mosquito bites lah...
antonia was there...bad me..i can't stop teasing him when he's around...especially when he dropped his paper into the swimming pool..i hope i didn't get him offended..

and lizzy..don't worry i'm fine...really...because i hardly see anyone like me..can still joke and join ECA on the second day of breaking up with bf...next time..if your mom or sis ask you again..you can really speak the truth lor..we're not longer together...
just..we both think..it's time to stop..since the relationship has become a burden to both of us..
don't comfort me...please..don't say anything caring or sweet to me..that's too much for me now..
i'm ok on my own..i can do anything calmly...i don't lose any appetite..i still know i need to do my assignments..i still give tuition like normal..everything's just like the way it is at normal time..the only thing that changed is..i'm not longer attached to anyone...
none of my family kow about this..because..i'll be shaking with tears if i see or hear or feel anything caring at the moment..i don't know am i healthy this way...i just try to avoid things that will remind me of him...even when i do think about him..i try to focus my mind on the reason why we broke up...try to look on the bright side...i cried..but not much...because puffy eyes and red nose will give too much away..
me and him..still friends now..we still chat..still keep in touch..we still love each other...but..we're just too young to stay together..we have much more things to look forward to besides love...and it's a grest pressure when his parents are so 'anti us'...
really..i don't find myself pity...because it's just a way we compromise..with each other..with the odd situation against us..of course i'm sad..after all..it's been 3 years...but when i think of..being friends..we don't have to worry or scared being seen by people when we're out...we don't have to feel guilty or pressurized with his parents...we can now do a lot of things which only single people can..we both can concentrate more on our study..which is supposed to be the top priority for us now...
i actually feel lucky..because when we broke up..my bf still love me...we don't quarrel..so it's not an impulsive decision..and i believe i'll remain as a good gf to him...

hiya lizzy...we'll back you up one lah..but..don't know..maybe i haven't got used to the you now..the you before...you give me a feeling that you don't need anyone's help lah..you'll achieve whatever you want by yourself...you know..i used to be the one who always need your help and protection...there was a long time..maybe till now..sometimes i still look at you as a heroine...
hehe honestly..sometimes i still feel surprise at the things you say and do...and don't worry about the not being nice...my life is busy too ah..so i don't have time too to remember that..plus..most of the time..i'm lagging one mah...i get the message slower than anyone..so i didn't really get the unfriendly message from you..in fact..i've been thinking all this while that i'm the one avoiding you oh..

let's find a time to go out this break..me you and mimi..i'll sms you guys lah..let me arrange everything for once this time...