spoiled..

supposed to have a nice time tonight with my family...but everything's canceled last minute..just after i finished dressing up..because my mom was still in limbang..and she actually went to the mooncake festival celebration at chung hwa school..makes me soo disappointed...after planning for a few nights..she just changed her mind like that...i feel like she doesn't appreciate what we're doing for her..
sometimes i feel like she's not longer my mother...i'm fed-up with answering questions like where is your mom..where does she go...from my father, my sister, my brother..
why am i the one supposed to answer...i'm not her nanny...
and yup..sometimes i really get unhappy with her..because she doesn't cook for us..leave the house to me to take care...i really dislike it when my aunties from kb and bandar start refering fook as my kid...i feel..tied down...yet i still have to do things i hate...
am i being demanding on my mom??
when i was young..i really envied those friends whose mom care about almost everything about them..from study to friends..since primary 1 i packed my own school bag...i took care of my own study...made my own decision regarding study and friends...
haih...ok..i know i'm just being fussy..she's the best mom one can ever ask for..but i'm just not in the mood tonight to appreciate her...i'll be fine tomorrow when i wake up..

so..instead of eating out..i stuffed myself with fried rice and keropok..and papaya...and made myself guilty..so i drank slimming tea..despite i first thought i should skip one day since i just had 5 times of diarrhea today...with the way i ate just now..tonight i can't skip my sit-ups i bet..

yea..i really don;t understand..or maybe i'm just outdated...i admire bad guys at times..but know for sure i can't fall for them....because i know i get insecure very easily..and last time i started to have feeling with him was also because he's very nice to me...listening to me all the time and please me when i'm down...hmm..am i too easy-to-get?? haha
ok..i correct my sentence..josh and sherman are guys who i'll recommend girls to go after..if they want serious relationship...
jason also nice..but at the moment..i don't want any girls to go after him...feel annoyed and jealous even at the thought of it..

i have a new strategy for losing the extra weight...i'll sleep more and drink more water...so..other than eat less move more..i'll also try to improve my sleep and take in more water...suit my personality eh...always try to find the easy way out...but the sleeping and drinking one..it's scientifically proven oh to be effective in weight control..
i bought quite a lot of junk food yesterday when i went to shop...i can never resist the temptation to buy instant noodles and junk food..
i realized i'm very self-conscious about my look during holiday..maybe because i've got nothing to think about..i haven't bought nu you this month...i've stopped buying Female..so i must buy nu you...the reason i choose Nu you over Female is because Nu You is in chinese and my mom and aunt can read it...plus..i think Nu You is less expensive...those magazines i bought..for me they're like reader digest..the info inside seldom go outdated...

tomorrow going to see Ms Tan...she's in my list of people who i can never forget...if one day i end up teaching..she'll be my role model...she's close with her students but never make the student stop respecting her as a teacher..just like Mrs Chong and Mrs Beng...
hmm..or maybe it's more to do with us the students....we're just simply better than our juniors...:p