went to siau's place for bbq..when they asked me about jason..i replied in a way that we're still together...if it was only me and chiu..probably i'll tell..but it's between me and a few other people...made me can't say it out that we're not longer couple...i was telling it to swait zin the other day..and he proved to me that what i think is right...generally..when i tell people that we've broken up...they'll ask when..after when..why...after why...how do i feel about it...and follow with a lot of comfortings...maybe that works for others but definitely not for me...i don;t mind to answer them the when question..but the rest...i feel unnecessary...it's between me and him..why do i have to explain to others why we chose to break up...as for the comforts..i appreciate that..but really..that's not what i want...ungrateful girl, aint i? if i want comfort..i'll look for it...but when i don't want it..you'll only make me stay away from you if you give..
when i compare the me before and the current me...i know i've changed a lot...not so friendly..not so outgoing...not so attention seeking (good change)...not so quiet...i simply enjoy being the catalyst rather than the reactants...
just now at express..i felt a bit rude lah..for not joining the topic...when they all were talking about the 2 italian guys...i feel..erm..not my topic...for me they all look the same..no one is more handsome than the others...and i don't find any of the westerner suit my definition of handsome...am i too picky or i just don't know how to judge?? for me..handsome refers to someone like Wilbert Pan..Daniel Wu...Lee 911...erm..even justin isn't handsome to me...he's just..having that something that capture my eyes..
and i got nothing to say about the sultan's recent marriage and other gossip about the royal family....because i don't follow those news...not interested to know lor...feel like..that's the family matter of theirs...but i'm not saying it's wrong lor what they all did...i think i'm the weirdo..because most places i go..people talk about it..
erm..till here lah..i'm supposed to sleep early..my sis went to miri with her hubby..leaving eshyn to us...then tomrrow my mom will send my uncle from labuan to custom early in the morning..so i have to be the babysitter...and i think eshyn wakes up quite early....i got sit-ups to do also...then also..hehe..my magazine to read..can't wait to flip through it...
oh my gosh..grand sale has begun...just when i plan to save for a cd player or MP3...suddenly i'm so keen in music..wish to be surrounded by songs i like all the time...
a study show singing helps to release stress...even singing in the shower helps..
my kimchi...a bit too spicy..and not sour enough...but i don't plan to re-make another one though...good or bad..i'll still try to finish it...can't wait to try kimchi magie curry mee...and real kimchi with kimchi ramen..also kimchi fried rice...yum yum...
hm..one thing good today is...thanks to jason...i begin to have confidence on my weight...he's right..i wish to hear people say i'm still looking fine but i tried to get negative answer from people all the time...i should work more on my mind than my body...most of the time..that's the case..
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